Ni pun post yang multi lingual..
Semalam kenduri Nemie.. Didn't go since I had tuition.. Uwaaaa, Nemie pun dah kahwin!! We used to be close in form 1 when we were in the same dorm. I used to be her 'Dear Diary' (as she used to call me) though I can't remember much what we talked about. But I do remember that we used to sit perched on the stairs, watching the stars and laugh..
I was woken up this morning at 2am by Y***. Sleepily, I went to my phone to pick it up, tapi dalam hati, "Kalau benda tak penting, siap la dia ni kena sembur jap lagi"
Ayat pertama Y***,"Wei, sorry².. aku tak perasan dah pukul 2" <-- masa ni ngantuk lagi
Ayat kedua, "Hang tau dak A*** nak kahwin?" <-- ilang ngantuk dah time ni
Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! What? Budak A*** nak kahwin? I told la Y***, kalau dia nak kahwin, mesti dia bagitau masa dia tunang lagi.. ni ribut takde, angin takde, takkan nak kahwin dah kot but Y*** was so certain about the news he heard that I made up my mind to call A***. Pukul 2 pagi pun, pukul 2 pagi lah..
My conversation lebih kurang canni la
Me : Hello, Assalamualaikum
Dia : Assalamualaikum <-- ceh, org bg salam dulu
Me : Wa'alaikumussalam
Dia : Hehe.. <-- gelak plak dia
Me : Wooooooooooooiii.. baik cakap betul², 21hb Augus ni, apa nak jadi?
Dia : Ape aa?
Me : Amboiiiii.. berlakon plak.. baik cakap <-- Ayu sangat garang!
Dia : Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. kantoi!!! Mana awak tau!!!!
Me : Lailahailallah.. bleh dia tak habaq.. apa punya kawan! Tunang senyap² je..
Dia : Haha.. Tak Ayu, saya memang nak habaq tapi tak sempat lagi
And bla.. bla.. bla.. Waaaaa.. sangat hampeh la lu, A***. Ade ke buat senyap je hehe.. Then I bombarded him with questions regarding the unlucky girl. Turned out to be B**.
Hehe, no offense but I've heard some rumours but then again, maybe kot sebab B** memang lama dah suka kat A***, so thats why what happened before, happened! Don't understand? Haha, it was never meant to be understood pun by anyone other that a select few. But anyway, I was expecting orang lain la jugak tapi jodoh kaaaaaan! Ape pun, tahniah utk A*** and B**.. sesapa yang kenal diorg, please jangan cakap what I wrote up here, nanti naya kena sula ngan diorg haha.. Then again, maybe I should change the names!! Hmm.. betul la, change the names! So kalau ade yang baca, ini semua nama² rekaan.. dah tukar pun sebab tu kaler dia lain.
Whew.. penat tukar nama!
Anyway, lepas penat menyoal siasat, I put down the phone and proceeded to repot my findings to Y****. Lawak pun ade..
Then, getting ready to sleep, trus teringat kawan² semua and baru perasan,"Apasal it seems like semua my friends sibuk nak kahwin ni?" Tetiba diserang rasa panik giler and time tu jugak sms Seti.. Hehe, Seti knows somethings about me that other people don't, so she was the first I thought of. Like I said, I got the sympathetic ear I was searching for TAPI, Seti pun 2x5 jugak hahaha.. Lama tak sembang ngan Seti, I really miss her! Guess I still have single friends around me..
Then tadi plak, datang school. Ingat nak buat keje but my pc was full of viruses, I had to take some time to scan it. Sekarang ni pun tengah scan lagi.. sangat la lembap! (Ni tumpang pc Nomi nih hehe..)
Before that A*** called to apologize. Biasa la, memang suka membuli, I started to berleter lagi la haha.. Though I didn't get the whole story, but he did promise to show me the pictures next week (huh! 10 kali janji, ade la 2-3 kali dia buat) so I'll interview him then!
Sampai kat school, trus on pc. That's when I know how bad my pc was. Anyway, tetiba Mastura called. She wanted to meet me to give her invitation card. Shaik was with her too masa tu and I heard his voice in the background. I was like, "Oh God, another kenduri!!" though I DO remember Mastura telling me about it a few weeks ago.
Waaaa.. sgt tension! Kena plak conference ngan Nazir and Ramlah.. Uwaaaa, diperkotak-katikkan diorg dua orang ni hehe.. tp bleh la gelak, lupa sekejap nak rasa tension.
Eh.. sekarang rasa okay la pulak.. But for a while from last night's call till this morning, I was again in the dumps! Rasa cam kena tinggal je ngan semua orang :'( Had a chat with Akmal just now and he gave me a good pep talk.. tapi kan Akmal, cian la kat akak, kawan yang single dah makin tak dok plak.. sangat tension. Tu blum lagi citer kat Mama, she knows A***, and kalau dia tau budak ni nak kahwin, I can just hear her saying, "Aiii, bile la anak Mama plak nak kahwin ni"
Tertekaaaaaaann <-- Tiru perkataan favourite Tanjung
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Saturday, May 28, 2005
"Siap kemas rumah".. A move to a new place.. ceee, cam adventure plak..
This will be a multi-lingual post, kang ade yang kata,"Aku tak paham blog Ayu.." plak..
Mana nak start eh?
Ari ni, tahniah pada diri sendiri hehe.. finally I've finished unpacking my things! Whew, took nearly a week, just to move to another house that is IN THE SAME HOUSING AREA plak tu..
Packing took up nearly 4 days ape. Tu baru barang sendiri, tak masuk lagi barang dapur, barang rumah.. On Thursday itself, baru la nak tergedik² lap my furniture (bed, closet, chest of drawers, computer desk, study desk, book shelves, colour boxes and the list goes on). Nanti malu la kalau orang angkat, tengok benda anak dara berabuk abis. Katil pun baru nak dismantle tengah hari tu, kak Shima took up the liberty to dismantle all beds, with our help la of course (mana leh bg credit kat kak Shima je hehe..)
Anyway, thanks to my colleagues from HiTEG. Cakap kat diorg lepas Asar, memang lepas Asar la diorg datang. Zul arrived first ngan motor dia with a confused face asking,"Mana lorry dia?". Then came Man, also with the same question. Pastu Erwan plak ngan ADV dia and since the lorry had not arrived yet, I asked them to help me with my stuff. Ternganga Man bila tgk kotak² tu. Tu la, orang dah cakap, banyak barang, tanak percaya.. kan dah terkejut giler..
While packing the things in Erwan's car, Nomi arrived and helped too. Then a few minutes later, Farid and Ramlah pun sampai. So, lets see, tolak the trips I made earlier untuk antar barang sikit², my stuff saje filled up my Atos, Nomi's Kancil, Erwan's Iswara and Ramlah's Kancil. Woooowwhh.. malu weh! Banyak giler barang nye.. Heran gak, kat mana la barang² tu bersembunyi sebelum ni sebab bila nak pindah baru tau barang tu sangat la banyak! Baru Nomi tau kan, akak bukan buat citer dongeng selama ni bila akak cakap barang banyak giler hehe.. Maluuuuuu.. Nanti kalau akak nak balik Penang/Kuale, kena amik ati korang la, buat cam cadangan Nomi, konvoi reramai ;-p
There were boxes and boxes of books, things, the essentials.. Then there were bagsful of clothes. Tak kire lagi barang² merepek merapu yang lain tu. Bicycle lagi, yang sampai hari ni, still kat umah tu, in fact, still ade lagi la barang² kat rumah tu. Sikit je la tapi malas nak ambik selagi Ivy tak mai cakap nak pindah masuk dah hehe..
Around 6 kot, baru lorry sampai. Masa tu, the guys la kena kerah angkut barang. Sorry guys, but thanks! Man, Zul, Erwan ngan Fawid budak kecik.. Nasib baik la they all ni rajin. Campur lagi RA kak Kathy, Wong.. and then ade Lekuk ngan Polo from Bahan. Meriah la jugak hehe.. Kak Zura and Kak Zai, unfortunately sampai masa barang dah habis kena angkut.. tactic le tu heheh..
Dua kali trip jugak la lorry tu. What with ALL our things. Come to think of it, barang kitorang yang sangat banyak tu, macam la nak menetap kat sini pun. Kot ye pun, kak Kathy je la kot.
Sangat la malu bila semua orang (Nomi, Lekuk, Ramlah, Polo) tanya, "Kenapa tak kosongkan fridge?" Uikk.. I looked at kak Shima and she looked at me, "Kena kosongkan ke?" Haaaa, kan dah kena gelak ramai².. Benda basic cam tu pun tak leh fikir logically.. Maluuu lagi..
Dah habis angkut barang, jemput la semua orang makan bihun kak Fauziah yang very delicious tapi pedas giler nak ******! Hehe.. Tapi sebab everyone kata sedap, ngan muka tak malu la memasing sibuk nak mengaku dia yang masak. Habis tu, siap ade yang tapau lagi.
Lepas makan, since the guys were still here, we bullied them into pasang katil. We had 3 beds, so it was 3 times the work. Zul and Fawid helped with mine, then Ramlah came along to tighten the bolts. Siap cakap kat Ramlah, "Kalau akak punya katil roboh, malam ni gak cari Ramlah" Then, susun la skit bilik tu, since my stuff was the most, pening gak la fikir nak susun bilik canner. Yang best tu, masa tu, salah letak katil, kaki mengadap kiblat. I realized it ONLY after everyone went home so terpaksa la susun bilik balik sensorang.. uwaaa, berat!
Then, that night, the three of us, me, kak Shima and kak Kathy 'attacked' our belongings! Semua benda nak kena unpack balik. Penat giler. Memasing barang berkotak² (w/pun mine la yang bg malu sekali hehe..) Around 11, kak Shima was up to the motion of going to 7-11 for drinks so all of us lepas mandi, beramai² la cari air.
First night, I couldn't sleep. Still teringat rumah lama kot. The next morning, bangun Subuh ngan sakit kepala semua cukup then lepas a long nap, sambung kemas barang yang banyak giler. Ada one moment tu, siap panik takut barang tak muat nak masuk bilik tu haha.. Bodo giler la Ayu ni hehe..
But now, FINALLY, everything's in order. Baru nampak cam bilik. Tido pun dah boleh lena dah. Gebu pun dah siap cari boyfriend (sibuk je cari bf, ni, kakak² ngan mak dia kat umah pun takde bf, dia dah berlambak.. teruk punya Gebu.. nak cari bf, cari la yang senyap, ni cari yang suka nyanyi memalam, rasa nak curah air je tiap kali bf dia datang) w/pun first day tu dia cam sangat confused kenapa kitorang nak pindah. Gebu psycho haha.. Took her a few days to adapt to the new house. Nak bersuara pun tak berani dia. Tapi semalam, dah siap masuk bilik semua orang, berleter pagi² cam dulu gak bila makanan dia takde so I guess, she's ok dah!
Anyway, thanks so everyone yang tolong hari tu. Without you guys, naya jugak la kitorang nak pindah.. Muaaahhhhsss, sayang korang!
P/S utk Nazek (kalau dia baca)
Nahh.. amik.. blog dlm BM.. satu sbb kenapa saya tak suka tulis dlm BM sbb nnt pelik la.. org lain semua kalau tulis, mesti ckp 'aku'.. saya mana reti cakap 'aku'.. kalau tulis blog buh 'saya' kang, rupe cam karangan budak sekolah plak hehe.. Cube cari, ade tak perkataan 'aku' kat atas ni? Tak reti aaaahhh..
Mana nak start eh?
Ari ni, tahniah pada diri sendiri hehe.. finally I've finished unpacking my things! Whew, took nearly a week, just to move to another house that is IN THE SAME HOUSING AREA plak tu..
Packing took up nearly 4 days ape. Tu baru barang sendiri, tak masuk lagi barang dapur, barang rumah.. On Thursday itself, baru la nak tergedik² lap my furniture (bed, closet, chest of drawers, computer desk, study desk, book shelves, colour boxes and the list goes on). Nanti malu la kalau orang angkat, tengok benda anak dara berabuk abis. Katil pun baru nak dismantle tengah hari tu, kak Shima took up the liberty to dismantle all beds, with our help la of course (mana leh bg credit kat kak Shima je hehe..)
Anyway, thanks to my colleagues from HiTEG. Cakap kat diorg lepas Asar, memang lepas Asar la diorg datang. Zul arrived first ngan motor dia with a confused face asking,"Mana lorry dia?". Then came Man, also with the same question. Pastu Erwan plak ngan ADV dia and since the lorry had not arrived yet, I asked them to help me with my stuff. Ternganga Man bila tgk kotak² tu. Tu la, orang dah cakap, banyak barang, tanak percaya.. kan dah terkejut giler..
While packing the things in Erwan's car, Nomi arrived and helped too. Then a few minutes later, Farid and Ramlah pun sampai. So, lets see, tolak the trips I made earlier untuk antar barang sikit², my stuff saje filled up my Atos, Nomi's Kancil, Erwan's Iswara and Ramlah's Kancil. Woooowwhh.. malu weh! Banyak giler barang nye.. Heran gak, kat mana la barang² tu bersembunyi sebelum ni sebab bila nak pindah baru tau barang tu sangat la banyak! Baru Nomi tau kan, akak bukan buat citer dongeng selama ni bila akak cakap barang banyak giler hehe.. Maluuuuuu.. Nanti kalau akak nak balik Penang/Kuale, kena amik ati korang la, buat cam cadangan Nomi, konvoi reramai ;-p
There were boxes and boxes of books, things, the essentials.. Then there were bagsful of clothes. Tak kire lagi barang² merepek merapu yang lain tu. Bicycle lagi, yang sampai hari ni, still kat umah tu, in fact, still ade lagi la barang² kat rumah tu. Sikit je la tapi malas nak ambik selagi Ivy tak mai cakap nak pindah masuk dah hehe..
Around 6 kot, baru lorry sampai. Masa tu, the guys la kena kerah angkut barang. Sorry guys, but thanks! Man, Zul, Erwan ngan Fawid budak kecik.. Nasib baik la they all ni rajin. Campur lagi RA kak Kathy, Wong.. and then ade Lekuk ngan Polo from Bahan. Meriah la jugak hehe.. Kak Zura and Kak Zai, unfortunately sampai masa barang dah habis kena angkut.. tactic le tu heheh..
Dua kali trip jugak la lorry tu. What with ALL our things. Come to think of it, barang kitorang yang sangat banyak tu, macam la nak menetap kat sini pun. Kot ye pun, kak Kathy je la kot.
Sangat la malu bila semua orang (Nomi, Lekuk, Ramlah, Polo) tanya, "Kenapa tak kosongkan fridge?" Uikk.. I looked at kak Shima and she looked at me, "Kena kosongkan ke?" Haaaa, kan dah kena gelak ramai².. Benda basic cam tu pun tak leh fikir logically.. Maluuu lagi..
Dah habis angkut barang, jemput la semua orang makan bihun kak Fauziah yang very delicious tapi pedas giler nak ******! Hehe.. Tapi sebab everyone kata sedap, ngan muka tak malu la memasing sibuk nak mengaku dia yang masak. Habis tu, siap ade yang tapau lagi.
Lepas makan, since the guys were still here, we bullied them into pasang katil. We had 3 beds, so it was 3 times the work. Zul and Fawid helped with mine, then Ramlah came along to tighten the bolts. Siap cakap kat Ramlah, "Kalau akak punya katil roboh, malam ni gak cari Ramlah" Then, susun la skit bilik tu, since my stuff was the most, pening gak la fikir nak susun bilik canner. Yang best tu, masa tu, salah letak katil, kaki mengadap kiblat. I realized it ONLY after everyone went home so terpaksa la susun bilik balik sensorang.. uwaaa, berat!
Then, that night, the three of us, me, kak Shima and kak Kathy 'attacked' our belongings! Semua benda nak kena unpack balik. Penat giler. Memasing barang berkotak² (w/pun mine la yang bg malu sekali hehe..) Around 11, kak Shima was up to the motion of going to 7-11 for drinks so all of us lepas mandi, beramai² la cari air.
First night, I couldn't sleep. Still teringat rumah lama kot. The next morning, bangun Subuh ngan sakit kepala semua cukup then lepas a long nap, sambung kemas barang yang banyak giler. Ada one moment tu, siap panik takut barang tak muat nak masuk bilik tu haha.. Bodo giler la Ayu ni hehe..
But now, FINALLY, everything's in order. Baru nampak cam bilik. Tido pun dah boleh lena dah. Gebu pun dah siap cari boyfriend (sibuk je cari bf, ni, kakak² ngan mak dia kat umah pun takde bf, dia dah berlambak.. teruk punya Gebu.. nak cari bf, cari la yang senyap, ni cari yang suka nyanyi memalam, rasa nak curah air je tiap kali bf dia datang) w/pun first day tu dia cam sangat confused kenapa kitorang nak pindah. Gebu psycho haha.. Took her a few days to adapt to the new house. Nak bersuara pun tak berani dia. Tapi semalam, dah siap masuk bilik semua orang, berleter pagi² cam dulu gak bila makanan dia takde so I guess, she's ok dah!
Anyway, thanks so everyone yang tolong hari tu. Without you guys, naya jugak la kitorang nak pindah.. Muaaahhhhsss, sayang korang!
P/S utk Nazek (kalau dia baca)
Nahh.. amik.. blog dlm BM.. satu sbb kenapa saya tak suka tulis dlm BM sbb nnt pelik la.. org lain semua kalau tulis, mesti ckp 'aku'.. saya mana reti cakap 'aku'.. kalau tulis blog buh 'saya' kang, rupe cam karangan budak sekolah plak hehe.. Cube cari, ade tak perkataan 'aku' kat atas ni? Tak reti aaaahhh..
Friday, May 27, 2005
How Could an Angel Break My Heart - Toni Braxton
I was clearing up my room this morning. Byk barang siuuuuutt! All the boxes had to be unpacked and yesterday was a back breaking day when we had to move ALL our things from our old 'home'.
Since the tv didn't have an ariel yet, and my Apple wasn't connected at the time, I used the dvd player to play my song cds. Singing on top of my voice along with my favourite songs, I unpacked all my things. Suddenly, a song I haven't heard for a long time was on the player. It stopped me right in my tracks!
I remember, once, in a not such a distant time ago, I listened to this song about 20 times per day. Kononnya, very connected la to this song, but during that time, I really felt I was. Without realizing it, I kept repeating the song, with all the memories I have chosen to forget, flooding into my mind. But this time, though I still felt sad, it wasn't as bad as it was a year ago. Still regret everything, but maybe, I've finally come to terms with what happened.
Kena pulak, when I was going through my things, I found a momento my now-invisible bestfriend gave me years ago. Written on it was 'Thanks for being my bestfriend'. Once, this was the piece I held on to when I started being confused with my own feelings. I lost it after our fight, but suddenly I found it again. I hope this means a great new beginning for me. Kak Shima told me to just throw it away but I have kept it in a box where I keep everything he ever gave me, just for keepsake.
However, through it all, this song was played repeatedly, right to the moment where I stuffed the 'scared piece' into the box. I guess like Baizurah said, sometimes, we just WANT to feel sad but I'm glad to learn that its different for me now. I hope I can now go on with my life, without pondering on what happened.
And for all of you, I present 'My Song of The Year 2004'
How Could an Angel Break My Heart - Toni Braxton
I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Since the tv didn't have an ariel yet, and my Apple wasn't connected at the time, I used the dvd player to play my song cds. Singing on top of my voice along with my favourite songs, I unpacked all my things. Suddenly, a song I haven't heard for a long time was on the player. It stopped me right in my tracks!
I remember, once, in a not such a distant time ago, I listened to this song about 20 times per day. Kononnya, very connected la to this song, but during that time, I really felt I was. Without realizing it, I kept repeating the song, with all the memories I have chosen to forget, flooding into my mind. But this time, though I still felt sad, it wasn't as bad as it was a year ago. Still regret everything, but maybe, I've finally come to terms with what happened.
Kena pulak, when I was going through my things, I found a momento my now-invisible bestfriend gave me years ago. Written on it was 'Thanks for being my bestfriend'. Once, this was the piece I held on to when I started being confused with my own feelings. I lost it after our fight, but suddenly I found it again. I hope this means a great new beginning for me. Kak Shima told me to just throw it away but I have kept it in a box where I keep everything he ever gave me, just for keepsake.
However, through it all, this song was played repeatedly, right to the moment where I stuffed the 'scared piece' into the box. I guess like Baizurah said, sometimes, we just WANT to feel sad but I'm glad to learn that its different for me now. I hope I can now go on with my life, without pondering on what happened.
And for all of you, I present 'My Song of The Year 2004'
How Could an Angel Break My Heart - Toni Braxton
I heard he sang a lullaby
I heard he sang it from his heart
When I found out thought I would die
Because that lullaby was mine
I heard he sealed it with a kiss
He gently kissed her cherry lips
I found that so hard to believe
Because his kiss belonged to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
I heard her face was white as rain
Soft as a rose that blooms in May
He keeps her picture in a frame
And when he sleeps he calls her name
I wonder if she makes him smile
The way he used to smile at me
I hope she doesn't make him laugh
Because his laugh belongs to me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wish our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Oh my soul is dying, it's crying
I'm trying to understand
Please help me
How could an angel break my heart
Why didn't he catch my falling star
I wish I didn't wish so hard
Maybe I wished our love apart
How could an angel break my heart
Monday, May 23, 2005
"Kemas rumah"
I spent a good part of yesterday and the day before, clearing up my room. InsyaAllah, by Thursday or Friday, my housemates and I would be settled into our new rented house, still in the same housing area but nearer to the surau and Taman Pekaka.
Wow, I never thought I had sooooo much things. Just my books only, took up 5 boxes, and THAT is excluding my Readers Digest Collection as well as my tuition books. Luckily, some of my books are scattered in my car, in my cubicle at the post-grad room as well as in my HiTEG room upstairs, not to mention the ones that are still in the hands of my friends who have borrowed my books. At least, that lessens the luggage I have to take to and fro this Thursday.
Suprisingly, my baju kurungs took up more than half of my gigantic bag. Hey, it really is gigantic, I can fit in the bag as well as someone else and we'd still have room to kick each other if we're bothering one another! That includes the baju kurungs I can't wear, following the weight gain I had last year, but still in my keep since I still dream of losing my excess weight. So for my clothes only, I have a gigantic bag full of baju kurungs, long sleeved t-shirts, tudungs, bed sheets and pillow cases, towels bla.. bla.. I also have another normal sized bag full with my blouses and nighties AND a backsack stuffed with all my jeans and pants. I've had a bag ready for all the clothes I've put aside for this week too. And to think that I always wonder where have all my clothes gone to. The real question is, where have all my clothes THAT FIT gone to haha.. By the way, all the moving out tension has made me lose a feww pounds and THATS making me smile all day long eventhough I'm really sick off packing up now! Hope whats got off, stays off!
So.. books, check.. clothes, check.. toiletries, check on Thursday.. what else? Hey, what are all those thingeys doing outside of A box?
I'm known to collect cute thingeys everywhere and that has prompt my peers to buy these things for me on special occasions eg konvo, birthdays. These cute flower vases, all kinds and sizes of candles, greeting tiles, bookmarks, keychains, coin boxes (full to brim, mind you!), cute boxes, tiny jars of colourful plastic food, pewter case, cute mini teddies, coin purses, potpourri pots, arometherapy sets and bla.. bla.. All these things have filled up yet another box and I had to be careful so the vases won't break during the move.
Then there's my bags. Now, I've never really been a fan for handbags or anything but I never thought I had a lot. The real one I have is a one I bought on sale and because of its practicality where it doesn't have the complicated buttons or straps. BUT, I have one sling bag that Izati bought for me for my birthday a couple of years ago. Then there's one I bought for raya since Mama kept telling me I'm not a lady enough. There's one I bought when going out with kak Wahid, Awa and Cik Wa. The reason I bought it was because my 'real one' was having a case of old age diesease where its inside lining was falling apart but I just used it for a while I think. I still prefered my fallen apart bag. Another one is a bag someone bought for me in my first year (I don't remember who) coz I kept holding my purse whenever we went out and my friend was afraid I might leave my purse somewhere so she bought the bag for me. How about the cute bags (one sling bad, and another one a purse) my housemates and kak Zura, kak Zai and kak Yun bought for me on my birthday. I love the bag, very practical for me when I'm in my study mode since its large enough for my 'Gingerbreadman Pencil box' and one book but not too large to look ridiculous. It has this embroided Teddy in front of it and the only reason I don't use it much is because I'm afraid it'll get dirty. Then there's this bag I bought in Melaka for its size, thinking I could put my telekung in it whenever I'm going out. Gosh, all those bags and more ALL fit in another box!
Liana came to my house and laughed out loud looking at all the things I've packed, and that isn't even HALF of it.. God, heeeeeeeelllllpppp me! The first night I had to spend mopping the house while sneaking peeks at Star Wars II which was on NTV7. Gebu has been up to her tricks and mopping up the house was the only option I had left. Good thing there was Liana, or I'd grow bored all alone.
The next day (yesterday) I suddenly realized that our pots and pans were some of the things that needed packing. Since the last time we really cooked (last week's cooking for kak Yun doesn't count since we didn't eat at home but instead took the food to the hospital and ate there with her) was in bulan puasa, the dishes were in the worst condition with inches of dust accumulating around them. To make matters worse, the dishwashing liquid was up to its last drop. Anyway, finally, all those plates and cups were washed, dried and arranged in a box with a "FRAGILE" warning on top.. just in case!
My next step was my other things. My tuition things took up a whole large box. What with its books (referance books, exercise books), graph papers, A4 papers, foolscap papers, notes and past year questions. Berat loooo.. And now I remember that I've forgotten my globe which I use for 'Bumi sebagai sfera' chapter!
Then I tackled my desk. I had so many things on my desk that was supposed to make it more organized (cute drawer sets, pencil holders, cute miniature magazine rack where I put my cards, plastic shelves where my puncher, stapler, tapes and bla.. bla.. resides) but when you want to pack things up, you realized, though organized, it takes a lot of space in your box. That's only the things on my desk, how about IN them? My three drawers were also full with odds and ends. Recipe cards, old raya cards, pen refills, unused erasers, account books, cute stationery, rubber balls Jida gave me to bounce as hard as I want to whenever I want to scream hehe.. keychains, bookmarks I planned to give people but never got to it, letter opener I got for presenting in the AWAM 2004 and bla.. bla.. Now all these didn't fill up a box, instead it filled up two boxes.. duh!
By then, my eyes were crossed and I kept sneezing because of the dust that suddenly seem to have 'beranak' in my room. Lucky me, with resdung and all, I lost all sense of smell then!
Another two boxes were filled with things I bought for personal use. Now, as a student with a budget, I'm sure everyone has done what I'm doing. For example, buying a 3-pack of 30 sanitary pads since it was cheaper than the usual prize, though it'll look funny seeing you buy so much as if you're having an unusual period. I'm sure that rings a bell with you! I've always become victim to these bulks. I mean, a pack of two jumbo Johnsons baby talcum, a pack of 80 panty liners, a pack of 3 cotton pads, a pack of 4 cotton buds, 2 packs of 6 tissue boxes, a pack of 3 toothpastes, a pack of 3 travelling Clinique facial soap and the list goes on. So all these extras also go in boxes! And they take soooo much space that I wonder what I was thinking when I bought these things.
Whew.. can I rest now? Nooooooooo.. there's still so much to pack and I'm already exhausted. Arranging the packed boxes in the living room of my current home, I am suddenly struck by the huge amount of my things. When kak Kt returned home, she laughed after getting over her shock at how much things I had hidden in that room. Hey, I shocked myself, anyway!
Now, until Thursday, my room will resemble a store room, with boxes of all colours arranged around the room. Luckily, I've always loved these boxes and always bought them so at least my eyes aren't sore looking at the usual brown coloured boxes that would really turn my room into a store room. I have a rainbow coloured room for the time being and I am bent to enjoy them instead of detesting them with the thought of having to unpack again when we move.
Well, time for a nap.. oppss, nope! Time to do my work, lest Dr Wan wants to see them tomorrow. Till I'm free enough to update this blog (maybe until after I've settled down) cheerio
Wow, I never thought I had sooooo much things. Just my books only, took up 5 boxes, and THAT is excluding my Readers Digest Collection as well as my tuition books. Luckily, some of my books are scattered in my car, in my cubicle at the post-grad room as well as in my HiTEG room upstairs, not to mention the ones that are still in the hands of my friends who have borrowed my books. At least, that lessens the luggage I have to take to and fro this Thursday.
Suprisingly, my baju kurungs took up more than half of my gigantic bag. Hey, it really is gigantic, I can fit in the bag as well as someone else and we'd still have room to kick each other if we're bothering one another! That includes the baju kurungs I can't wear, following the weight gain I had last year, but still in my keep since I still dream of losing my excess weight. So for my clothes only, I have a gigantic bag full of baju kurungs, long sleeved t-shirts, tudungs, bed sheets and pillow cases, towels bla.. bla.. I also have another normal sized bag full with my blouses and nighties AND a backsack stuffed with all my jeans and pants. I've had a bag ready for all the clothes I've put aside for this week too. And to think that I always wonder where have all my clothes gone to. The real question is, where have all my clothes THAT FIT gone to haha.. By the way, all the moving out tension has made me lose a feww pounds and THATS making me smile all day long eventhough I'm really sick off packing up now! Hope whats got off, stays off!
So.. books, check.. clothes, check.. toiletries, check on Thursday.. what else? Hey, what are all those thingeys doing outside of A box?
I'm known to collect cute thingeys everywhere and that has prompt my peers to buy these things for me on special occasions eg konvo, birthdays. These cute flower vases, all kinds and sizes of candles, greeting tiles, bookmarks, keychains, coin boxes (full to brim, mind you!), cute boxes, tiny jars of colourful plastic food, pewter case, cute mini teddies, coin purses, potpourri pots, arometherapy sets and bla.. bla.. All these things have filled up yet another box and I had to be careful so the vases won't break during the move.
Then there's my bags. Now, I've never really been a fan for handbags or anything but I never thought I had a lot. The real one I have is a one I bought on sale and because of its practicality where it doesn't have the complicated buttons or straps. BUT, I have one sling bag that Izati bought for me for my birthday a couple of years ago. Then there's one I bought for raya since Mama kept telling me I'm not a lady enough. There's one I bought when going out with kak Wahid, Awa and Cik Wa. The reason I bought it was because my 'real one' was having a case of old age diesease where its inside lining was falling apart but I just used it for a while I think. I still prefered my fallen apart bag. Another one is a bag someone bought for me in my first year (I don't remember who) coz I kept holding my purse whenever we went out and my friend was afraid I might leave my purse somewhere so she bought the bag for me. How about the cute bags (one sling bad, and another one a purse) my housemates and kak Zura, kak Zai and kak Yun bought for me on my birthday. I love the bag, very practical for me when I'm in my study mode since its large enough for my 'Gingerbreadman Pencil box' and one book but not too large to look ridiculous. It has this embroided Teddy in front of it and the only reason I don't use it much is because I'm afraid it'll get dirty. Then there's this bag I bought in Melaka for its size, thinking I could put my telekung in it whenever I'm going out. Gosh, all those bags and more ALL fit in another box!
Liana came to my house and laughed out loud looking at all the things I've packed, and that isn't even HALF of it.. God, heeeeeeeelllllpppp me! The first night I had to spend mopping the house while sneaking peeks at Star Wars II which was on NTV7. Gebu has been up to her tricks and mopping up the house was the only option I had left. Good thing there was Liana, or I'd grow bored all alone.
The next day (yesterday) I suddenly realized that our pots and pans were some of the things that needed packing. Since the last time we really cooked (last week's cooking for kak Yun doesn't count since we didn't eat at home but instead took the food to the hospital and ate there with her) was in bulan puasa, the dishes were in the worst condition with inches of dust accumulating around them. To make matters worse, the dishwashing liquid was up to its last drop. Anyway, finally, all those plates and cups were washed, dried and arranged in a box with a "FRAGILE" warning on top.. just in case!
My next step was my other things. My tuition things took up a whole large box. What with its books (referance books, exercise books), graph papers, A4 papers, foolscap papers, notes and past year questions. Berat loooo.. And now I remember that I've forgotten my globe which I use for 'Bumi sebagai sfera' chapter!
Then I tackled my desk. I had so many things on my desk that was supposed to make it more organized (cute drawer sets, pencil holders, cute miniature magazine rack where I put my cards, plastic shelves where my puncher, stapler, tapes and bla.. bla.. resides) but when you want to pack things up, you realized, though organized, it takes a lot of space in your box. That's only the things on my desk, how about IN them? My three drawers were also full with odds and ends. Recipe cards, old raya cards, pen refills, unused erasers, account books, cute stationery, rubber balls Jida gave me to bounce as hard as I want to whenever I want to scream hehe.. keychains, bookmarks I planned to give people but never got to it, letter opener I got for presenting in the AWAM 2004 and bla.. bla.. Now all these didn't fill up a box, instead it filled up two boxes.. duh!
By then, my eyes were crossed and I kept sneezing because of the dust that suddenly seem to have 'beranak' in my room. Lucky me, with resdung and all, I lost all sense of smell then!
Another two boxes were filled with things I bought for personal use. Now, as a student with a budget, I'm sure everyone has done what I'm doing. For example, buying a 3-pack of 30 sanitary pads since it was cheaper than the usual prize, though it'll look funny seeing you buy so much as if you're having an unusual period. I'm sure that rings a bell with you! I've always become victim to these bulks. I mean, a pack of two jumbo Johnsons baby talcum, a pack of 80 panty liners, a pack of 3 cotton pads, a pack of 4 cotton buds, 2 packs of 6 tissue boxes, a pack of 3 toothpastes, a pack of 3 travelling Clinique facial soap and the list goes on. So all these extras also go in boxes! And they take soooo much space that I wonder what I was thinking when I bought these things.
Whew.. can I rest now? Nooooooooo.. there's still so much to pack and I'm already exhausted. Arranging the packed boxes in the living room of my current home, I am suddenly struck by the huge amount of my things. When kak Kt returned home, she laughed after getting over her shock at how much things I had hidden in that room. Hey, I shocked myself, anyway!
Now, until Thursday, my room will resemble a store room, with boxes of all colours arranged around the room. Luckily, I've always loved these boxes and always bought them so at least my eyes aren't sore looking at the usual brown coloured boxes that would really turn my room into a store room. I have a rainbow coloured room for the time being and I am bent to enjoy them instead of detesting them with the thought of having to unpack again when we move.
Well, time for a nap.. oppss, nope! Time to do my work, lest Dr Wan wants to see them tomorrow. Till I'm free enough to update this blog (maybe until after I've settled down) cheerio
Friday, May 20, 2005
Honest comments, anyone?
Today, I was a bit depressed. I've been feeling this way for a few days but only today do I remember why. You see, today is two years, plus a few days to the day I first had my 'fight' with my now-invisible bestfriend. The fight that didn't really start innocently enough but for a while, I DID wish it the fight would end. Now, I'm more realistic, I guess. I don't wanna hope for it anymore though at times I still wonder where WAS the turning point of our friendship.
Anyway, that isn't the main point of this entry. Truth is, I didn't feel like doing anything today, not really in the mood, so I was surfing other peoples blogs. Then, out of nowhere, Nomi asked me about my diaryland blog that I haven't even glanced at for a few months. Suprised that she remembered it, though I myself have neglected it, I opened the webpage for my diaryland. Reading through all the things I have written, a recent entry (not so recent la, ada la a few months) caught my eye. Now, this topic hasn't been on my mind for a while, but suddenly, I'm starting to wonder about it. I'll paste the entry below dated 19th January 2005
I talked to a friend a few days ago.. we were jumping from topic to topic, not really staying on a certain subject when suddenly she asked me about my life.. I didn't quite understand until she specifiend her question on if I had a 'significant other' or not..
I don't know why but I feel that everyone who's crazily in love DO seem to want everyone around them to be happy.. I don't blame her but for this moment, that question does seem to be quite sensitive.. I didn't have any answer for her anyway so we just talked about our friends and all that AND suddenely we were back on that subject.. with nothing to say, I just said that I'm still mending my broken heart over what has happened and proceeded to tell her a bit.. then we jumped back to other topics (Whew..!!)
But then, out of no where, she asked me, why was I afraid to let anyone close to me? I was dumbfounded for a while, trying to find the reason of her question.. I mean, it wasn't as if we were that close or something, so how could she get the idea? My best bet is that maybe, she's talked to some of our mutual friends (or friend, coz I already suspect someone..)..
I mean ME, afraid to let anyone close..? I know somebody once asked me that question.. ok, at least two people have asked me that question before this but I haven't really given it much thought.. they tell me, its not really just to the members of the opposite sex but I'm also like that to girls.. huh???? Am I really like that? I mean, I have lots of friends.. close friends.. best friends.. that doesn't mean I'm afraid to let anyone close does it..? In fact, some of my best friends are guys, so that might rule out what they've said to me (although the two people who've told me this before were actually guys)
It did leave me sleepless that night, thinking of what my friend said but then I just shrugged it off.. I just couldn't see how people say I'm afraid to let anyone close to me..
Then a couple of days later, I was talking to Azren on Yahoo! Messenger.. he was his usual cheeky self, trying to put me off guard so he could pull my leg with his pranks and jokes when suddenly he asked me, "Kak Yong byk sgt berahsia and dun trust me?" Then he asked, "Don't you trust anyone?"
Now THAT did put off guard.. suddenly I felt funny.. I mean, what does it mean if in just a few days in a row, you get two people asking you similiar questions.. I did feel uncomfortable.. He then went on asking me to start trusting people, to start trusting him and all that.. I just pretended to laugh but all the while my head was in a spin.. I mean, is this true.. do I not trust people? Is it really true that I don't let anyone come closer to me? I really do wonder now..
After reading that, the question of my 'building a wall around my heart for everyone' has started to bother me again. I remember a recent conversation with Sentot, and she kind'a told me the same thing. Betul ke I'm like that? If I am, sorry Baizurah, I must have really hurt you and made you feel as if I don't trust you.. but I really do la, my sweet friend, honest!
As for my other friends (the small number of those who know my blog address), I beg for your opinion, please! Highly appreciated. tak marah punya :-)
Anyway, that isn't the main point of this entry. Truth is, I didn't feel like doing anything today, not really in the mood, so I was surfing other peoples blogs. Then, out of nowhere, Nomi asked me about my diaryland blog that I haven't even glanced at for a few months. Suprised that she remembered it, though I myself have neglected it, I opened the webpage for my diaryland. Reading through all the things I have written, a recent entry (not so recent la, ada la a few months) caught my eye. Now, this topic hasn't been on my mind for a while, but suddenly, I'm starting to wonder about it. I'll paste the entry below dated 19th January 2005
I talked to a friend a few days ago.. we were jumping from topic to topic, not really staying on a certain subject when suddenly she asked me about my life.. I didn't quite understand until she specifiend her question on if I had a 'significant other' or not..
I don't know why but I feel that everyone who's crazily in love DO seem to want everyone around them to be happy.. I don't blame her but for this moment, that question does seem to be quite sensitive.. I didn't have any answer for her anyway so we just talked about our friends and all that AND suddenely we were back on that subject.. with nothing to say, I just said that I'm still mending my broken heart over what has happened and proceeded to tell her a bit.. then we jumped back to other topics (Whew..!!)
But then, out of no where, she asked me, why was I afraid to let anyone close to me? I was dumbfounded for a while, trying to find the reason of her question.. I mean, it wasn't as if we were that close or something, so how could she get the idea? My best bet is that maybe, she's talked to some of our mutual friends (or friend, coz I already suspect someone..)..
I mean ME, afraid to let anyone close..? I know somebody once asked me that question.. ok, at least two people have asked me that question before this but I haven't really given it much thought.. they tell me, its not really just to the members of the opposite sex but I'm also like that to girls.. huh???? Am I really like that? I mean, I have lots of friends.. close friends.. best friends.. that doesn't mean I'm afraid to let anyone close does it..? In fact, some of my best friends are guys, so that might rule out what they've said to me (although the two people who've told me this before were actually guys)
It did leave me sleepless that night, thinking of what my friend said but then I just shrugged it off.. I just couldn't see how people say I'm afraid to let anyone close to me..
Then a couple of days later, I was talking to Azren on Yahoo! Messenger.. he was his usual cheeky self, trying to put me off guard so he could pull my leg with his pranks and jokes when suddenly he asked me, "Kak Yong byk sgt berahsia and dun trust me?" Then he asked, "Don't you trust anyone?"
Now THAT did put off guard.. suddenly I felt funny.. I mean, what does it mean if in just a few days in a row, you get two people asking you similiar questions.. I did feel uncomfortable.. He then went on asking me to start trusting people, to start trusting him and all that.. I just pretended to laugh but all the while my head was in a spin.. I mean, is this true.. do I not trust people? Is it really true that I don't let anyone come closer to me? I really do wonder now..
After reading that, the question of my 'building a wall around my heart for everyone' has started to bother me again. I remember a recent conversation with Sentot, and she kind'a told me the same thing. Betul ke I'm like that? If I am, sorry Baizurah, I must have really hurt you and made you feel as if I don't trust you.. but I really do la, my sweet friend, honest!
As for my other friends (the small number of those who know my blog address), I beg for your opinion, please! Highly appreciated. tak marah punya :-)
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)