Tuesday, January 29, 2008


A junior of mine (name witheld) started selling some hijab with his girlfriend and since he was close to me, he asked me to go look at the tudungs and see if I was interested. I've long since bought any new tudung and thought, what the heck, it won't hurt to look at them, would it?

But before that, Hasz also came to me to look at some hijab she was also selling and since I'm the type who wears her hijab till it is no longer considered wearable (my current ones were mostly bought in 2002 hahah..) and I am very, very, very lazy when it comes to shopping, I thought I'd go look at both.

Hmm, impressive collection of hijab, I mused, BEFORE looking at the price. You know, my hijabs (esp. the 2002 ones) are mostly in the range of RM30-RM35 ONLY. Imagine my suprise when most of these tudungs were sold at RM45!


Well, granted they had the crystal thingeys.. but hey! I don't actually need those crystal thingeys, thank you very much! Susah nak iron je nnt, nyusahkan experience meng'iron'.. not to mention, leceh nak jage..


And me, the girl who NEVER bought hijabs with those strings of crystal (I even argued with Farah during Ramadhan when she insisted I buy at least ONE of those kinda hijabs) suddenly found myself with only these kinda hijabs that have my choice of colour.. sheesh!


Then I went to see Salleh's collection which was quite the same but more expensive (but unfortunately, his collection was more impressive haha..) The most expensive one was RM75! Granted, again, that it had this neat beads alongside the crystal thingeys but geez! RM75?!?!


You know, for my baju kurungs, the normal costs are
Fabric: RM 40
Seamstress 'fee': RM 25
Total: RM 65

..and I still have RM10 extra when compared to the RM75 hijab!

Ridiculous.. don't you agree?

Tudung lagi mahal dari baju.. ridiculous!

Know what's more ridiculous?!?! I bought two RM45 hijabs from Has and another two RM75 ones from Salleh!

Kesimpulannye: Dalam entry ni, Ayu paling ridiculous!!!!

P/S Please take note that Ayu is the ONLY person on earth who thinks those prices are ridiculous! Turns out, most 'perempuan' think the price is okay and Ayu semakin konpius :(

Friday, January 25, 2008

The 11 people you meet in heaven (Uhh, kene pancung ngan Mitch Albom kang, curik tajuk dia heheh..)

Can you name 11 people you can think of right off the top of your head?
(Ayu: Huhu, no cheating eh? Ok.. but right now I'm having trouble focusing on 11 people coz so many people are on my mind right now!) Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 11 people.This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first. No Cheating!!!

1. Ayeen (just read her blog.. sbnonye everyday I go to her blog!)
2. Pojie (just went to his blog)
3. Adi (he just came online)
4. Sentot (missing her my-baby-is-doing-kungfu-in-my-tummy sms)
5. Dr Farhan (Aiyak! Haven't finished his work laaa..)
6. Sharil (was kidding around with him this morning)

*sape lagi ek?* <--about 15 minutes have passed 7. Soraya 8. Mael (bcoz I got this tag from him!) 9. Che Am chumel.. (he just came and asked for help on his assignment.. ceh! Sib baik chumel) 10. Dzul (also just went to his blog sbb somehow jadik blur tak leh pk name sesape!) 11. Mak Cik Roshadah (Erk, nape tetibe teringat kat mak cik ni?) How did you meet 10?
A guy in my class during matriks. His Tweety tie was very popular and though there were copycats after the whole college identified with his tie, they never managed to pull it off like Dr Dzul.. who btw is a dentist in Tawau(?) Tul ke Dzul?

What would you do if you had never met 6?
Hmm.. guess I'd never believe a guy could actually cook! Sedap plak tu.. Beef curry, chicken rendang, nasik dagang, lontong, jam tart hehe.. you name it, and you get it. Selalu je cube nak masak bende baru.. and made me addicted to his chocolate cake!

What would you do if 6 and 2 dated?
Erk?!?! You kidding, right? Ahahahaha.. gelak guling²! Crazy ahh.. If they do, Ayu sure kene demam 40 hari 40 malam.. (Patut le kate it was more fun if I randomly put the names ek! Gile nye thought if THAT happens!)

Have you ever seen 4 cry?
Hmm.. have I, Sentot? But she's definitly seen me cry.. and I guess I'd say, yes! I'd say, we've both seen each other in our worst conditions :)

Do you think 1 is cute?
Heheh.. Ayeen, what should I say here? Heheh.. chumel! Should've seen a picture of her when we were smaller, her cheeks were ALWAYS rosy! Like wearing a blusher..

Tell me something about number 11
Kind.. very kind! Caring.. Loving.. Had always been there when I was so sad a few years back.. she's still there though. Just text me a message a few days ago.

How do you know 8?
Adi's friend who joined Adi's 'Mari kutuk phone kak Yong' Club! Bakal Autobot leader di mase hadapan sbb dia ade hati nak gulingkan Optimus Prime :D.. Tul tak, Mael? :p

Would you ever go on a date with number 5?
Oww shiitt! You call THIS fun to randomly put down peoples names (Should've put Brad Pitt's name there)? Gile nak kene sula ngan Dr Azlina hehe.. but I admire Dr Farhan very much! A very, very good role model (sbb tu takut ngan dia bile tak siap keje tu heheh..)

What's 7's favourite colour?
Alamak! Note to self: Ask Soraya her fav colour!

What would you do if 6 confessed they liked you?
Ahahahaha.. you like me? I like your choc cake.. and I know you like my trifle pudding. So why don't you make your cake, and I'll make my pudding and kite tuko suke same suke.. both kenyang whaaaat!! Heheh..

Fact about 9.
He's cute haha.. Very adik²! He's 24 and the youngest in his family from 12 siblings. Went to Polimas before coming to USM. Worked for a while jugak before coming here and penah kene ngorat with a MALE surveyor at his wrokplace hahah.. Lives in Pendang, Kedah and pretends that he goes for korban during Aidiladha when he's actually afraid of blood. Drives a Satria and is very manja with his mum. Yeah, we actually bored the hell outta each other when we had to go for data collection so there's a lot more facts from where that came from!

Who is 4 going out with?
She's married to Amin (I was her maid of honour :D) and waiting for the mini Amin to come in March (hopefully on my birthday.. or as Amin hopes, on HIS birthday! Kite tgk la baby tu sayang sapa, Amin heheh..)

Who is number 5 to you?
My idol since my undergraduate years. So much that my friends call me Anak Dr Farhan heheh.. My supervisor for my final year project, co-supervisor for my MSc and InsyaAllah supervisor again for my PhD. (Hmm, if I had put Brad Pitt, what would I write down here eh? My future boyfriend?!?! Heheh..)

Would you ever live with 11?
Erkk.. that would be weird.. and awkward.. especially if her son comes home with his family!

Is 2 single?

Where does 7 live?
When we were smaller, she lived in i-don't-quite-remember, Bayan Baru I think, and after coming back from US after her father's sabatical, she lived in USM. Then she moved to Pantai Jerejak when we were in secondary but I'm not sure where she lives now.. mane ek Soraya?

What do you think about number 3?
My favourite brother.. :) And his tummy is my fav punch bag now heheh..

What do you like about number 10?
Has the looks and makes of a leader! Heck! He was our class monitor then.. a bit garang! Huhu, sowi Dzul heheh.. I WAS afraid of you mase tu hehe.. but VERY cheeky, suke usik semua org dgn cikgu Amer skali.. and hmm, cute la jugak! :D and sgt suke Siti Nurhaliza (Uhh, tak paham heheh..) He once sang in our pantomine, sedap gak suare dia.. "Tuai padi antare masaaaaakkk.." Heheh, see, I remember that :D

Favourite memory with 2?
Hmm.. banyak! Can't exactly chose which one from all of that but probably, since I'm thinking of this right now, when he gave me a Football/Soccer 101 class during the World Cup :) And football has never been the same heheh..

Now I'm tagging:
1. Sentot
2. Soraya
3. Ayeen
4. Pojie
5. Un
6. Jida (your blog berabuk sgt dah niiiiii!)
7. Dzul
8. Amer

Thursday, January 24, 2008

Hari ini Ayu mengong


I'm sooo sleepy..

Came in early this morning after breakfast with kak Yun and after a few minutes being alone in this room, abg Fadzil arrived. The picture above is from the suprise birthday celebration for both abg Fadzil and Sharil held at the end of December. Picture a bit blur coz its taken with abg Fadzil's new phone (which kak Nor had given him hehe..), my camera takde battery so had to make due with the phone. Huhu, takde ati nak citer sangat pasal celebration sbb dah lame sgt. Enough to say that it was the only reason for me to buy an ice-cream cake heheh <--kempunan lame dah, sib baik ade birthday diorg!

Speaking of birthdays, today is kak Ja's birthday. I dunno what her age is but I wished her a happy 16th birthday heheh..

*Uhhh, masih ngantuk*

Tuesday saw me going to kak Shima's with kak Yun. Kak Shima wanted to treat us to a night out :D Went for dinner at Damiral's (one of my favourite places) where I ate Fish Corden Bleu (cam salah eje jek). hmm, I think I like the chicken one better (notice how I'm avoiding to spell that word again heheh..). Then we headed to Sunway to catch Sweeney Todd, my first time watching a movie there. Terase dah lame tak tgk wayang.. The movie was ok la, it was a musical so wasn't that scary la.. maybe a bit revolting la coz the blood cam air paip jek.. but it was Johnny Depp :D

Then me and kak Shima (kak Yun tido) stayed up watching this Korean ke Japanese series ntah and the next morning we had breakfast at the kopitiam nearby. Ok la, dah lame tak kuar, felt a bit refreshing..

*Still yawning..*

Slept at kak Yun's yesterday. She didn't wanna be alone for a few reasons. I agreed and went there after my night class. She slept early so I was left with the tv before I went to iron my clothes and retire. Mase tgh iron, I remembered when Dr Naiem lived in this house and he complained of ghosts disturbing him and his family. For a while, kecut gak hehe.. Especially when I switched off the light and the room went pitch black.. but before long I was already dozing off. Heheh, the excitement of the day finally got to me, eh..

*Uwaaa, masih menguap!*

I think I'm gonna go home in an hour's time. Its 10.38am already and I'm still sleepy.. I think I'll go get a few winks la..


Tuesday, January 22, 2008


Hmm.. aritu when I did the entry on poem, dah perasan dah this tag in Mael's blog. At the end, on who he wants to tag, he wrote 'Any1 yg dh bace' but of course la I ignored it sbb he wasn't supposed to know I noticed the entry.. Upenye kak Yong terkantoi, cissss!!

Anyway, seeing Adi and Ana's name in the list, I knew it won't be long before my turn so sblm Adi n Ana siapkan diorg punye (I know diorg tak siap lagi heheh..) better I do mine and tag them jugak.. byk skit nama in my tag hahah..
Btw, kene buh gambo phone sendirik ek Mael (Adess, mane nak cari?) (Updated: Jumpe pun! hehe..) and yes, I DO notice this tag is dedicated to phones where mine is for my phone yg puas kene kutuk ngan Adi (as usual la, phone 2100 dulu pun asyik kene kutuk ngan Adi :p) n Mael aritu.. Ana je baik kan Ana kaaaaaaannn :)

1. What color is your phone?
- Manufacturer kate kaler dia name Powder Pink :D

2. Who's the first person who comes up under the letter M?
- Should be 'Mama' right? But 'Maddorf' beat her to it.. Sheesh, I knew I should've spelt his name 'Medof' jek..

3. Who's the last person you called?
- Dr Meor, last night mase dia tanye if I had sent in my travel claims *gulp* (Lum siap so pagi tadi kelam kabut dtg school awal utk siapkan)

4. Who was your last missed call from?
- Sharil.. coz he was cooking and suddenly realized his blender missing haha.. Haa, len kali bg lagi jiran² tetangge pinjam!

5. Who's the 2nd person who comes up under D?
- Dayah.. my roomate in 1st year

6. Who's speed dial 2?
- No speed dials for me

7. Who's the 3rd person who comes up under Z?
- Zakry a.k.a Pok Su ensem :)

8. Who was your last received call?
- Kak Shima who wanted to ask if we'd like her to treat us to a nite out tonite.. naaaaaaaaakkk!!

9. Who's speed dial number 4?
- Nope.. between this question and question num 6, NO ONE has magically appeared on my speed dial!

10. What is your background?
- My pet giraffe :)

11. How many text messages do u have?
- Adeh.. kene check ke? Dlm dah delete byk smlm while watching CSI, still have another 157!

12. Who's in ur speed dial ?
- Still no miracle has happened between this question and question num 9

13. What's the 5th message say in your inbox?
- From Remy: Ok cuunnn

14. Who's the 1st person who comes up under B?
- Baizurah a.k.a Sentot a.k.a Rabbit a.k.a Mummy Boyot heheh..

15. Who was your last text message from?
- Kak Yun - "Hmm, dua2 pun ensem. Tk kesah ler mane2.. Ayu drive ek, akak sponsor myk.."

16. Name every person you have text messages from:
- Huh? You're kidding, right? Huh, sib baik dah delete byk smlm.. Let's see, from the top (hope I won't repeat names): Kak Yun, Hasz, Sharil, Remy, Ramadhan, Helmi, Ikram, Mak Cik Roshadah, Baizurah, Izham, Dr Farhan, Iskandar, Long, Ajha, Bukhori, Dgon, Rusya, Zaza, kak Yun's hubby, Awa, Pojie, 0124634810, Hasrul HiTEG, Ina MPP, abg Fadzil, Adi, Lah, Azmil, Hazwan, Kak Ude Kuale, Ramlah, Mek Maggi, Leong, Neidi, kak Chah, Salimin, Toroque, Farah, Yati, kak Maria, Amer, Harun, Alem, Shahnaz, 0124122796, Ami, Lily, Ana, Ashraf Japan, Zakry, Pian, Yokies..

17. Have you seen the 101 Chuck Norris facts?
- The what?

18. Who's the 9th person on your missed calls?
- Hanif

19. What does the 3rd message in your Outbox say?
- Ni pun sib baik dah delete byk smlm- "Ohhh, Ayu mmg cuunnn! Hehe.. :p"

20. Who is the first name in your Phonebook?
- Aa 0123456789- Used to be 'Abah' but me being me always miss-sent sms to Abah's num hahah.. so I figered that if I put a non-existant num 1st, at least my sms would just fail to be sent!

Ok, now who do I wanna tag?
1. Sentot
2. Soraya
3. Ayeen
4. Pojie
5. Amer
6. Dzul
7. Un

Monday, January 21, 2008

To poetry or to not poetry..

You know, a few months ago, being a bit bored outta my wits while doing data collection for Dr Razip (it was supposed to be about the vibration of this building.. cam menarik kan? Prob is, tak gegaq puuuuuuunnnn.. cisss!!), I decided to type in this first verse of a song and sms to some of my friends. The song is an OST from the movie Over It (or something like that!) and sung by Kirsten Dunst.

Let me sleep for when I sleep I dream that you are here, you're mine, and all my
fears are left behind.. I float on air, the nightangel sings gentle lullabies,
so let me close my eyes.. and sleep per chance to dream, so I can see the face I
long to touch.. to kiss.. but only dreams can bring me this. So let, the moon
shine softly on the boy I long to see.. and maybe when he dreams, he dreams of

And to my amusement, most of my friends thought I had penned that verse myself hahah.. This is not actually suprising to me as a few years ago, I had put kak Zai's poem in my blog and a lot of my friends told me to stop pretending it was a 'kak Zai' who wrote it and just admit it was my own poem. God, I laughed a lot while trying to explain that I DON'T WRITE POEMS but somehow, people tend to think that I do.

Well, ok.. maybe I wrote a poem ONCE. It isn't even a poem, more like a doggerel than a poem and I just did it just to tease my classmates. You see, we were in form 5 and tired of studying. We were the first science stream batch in our school and though I won't admit it then, the pressure was something all of us felt as we had our school's reputation to maintain.

One Friday, during the end of the day when most of us were a bit cranky and all that, all of us did something to cheer each other up. Ami went in her usual clown mode while some of us sang. Others took out prohibited comic books (while pretending we didn't see kak Da glaring at us for breaking the rules). I was a bit bored since I'd already finished with the comics and had already heard Ami's joke (We've been fast friends since form 1 so I usually know what she's gonna say :)).

Suddenly a not-so-brilliant inspiration came over me and I took over the blackboard while writing my first and last doggerel ever haha.. you know like the pantun's of classmates we usually get in our year books? Well, that was what I did but in english and with 6 lines in a verse while I chanted it in a sing-song voice. When I had finished, I had covered the black board with my writings (we only had 15 students in my class but since I was writing 6-line verses, no wonder la the blackboard was full of it!)

It wasn't an excellent effort and most of my friends were just amused or confused.. a bit annoyed kot for them yang 'terkene' hehe.. but my poem a.k.a lame doggerel was left on the board till Monday, when some teachers had read it (well, MAYBE a few teachers' names were tossed into it too :D).

As I said, it wasn't good, I'm not much into literature, but my classmates must've left it on the board just to amuse me or maybe because they didn't wanna anger the class monitor, huh? Heheh..

Still, I wish I had written it down though.. I'm suddenly wondering WHAT DID I write down that day.. :)

Anyway, why did this suddenly come to me? Truth is, a few days ago I went blog hopping and came across this poem..

Shall I Walk Into The Light?

Shall I walk into the light?
I'm abundant with joy and laughter
Oh, I'm filled with delight
Smiles and winks ever after

The wind blows in my face
All my sorrows leave this place!

I gaze through a colorful window everyday
I see shapes
I see hearts
I see beauty
My inner child comes out to play

I am blessed
I am cursed

As I stare at the darkness of night
My spirit questions to fit
Shall I walk into the light?
Or become it?

This poem I 'curik' from Mael's (Adi's friend) blog and it actually suprised me to see a poem from him as he doesn't seem like the type to write poems..

Made me wonder though: People always think I can do poetry when I suck at it but sometimes, I DO wonder if I could write one. Like when kak Zai showed me her poems (including the one I had published in one of my blogs), to her, everyone could write poems. There's actually this poem I'd like to share, one she did for her students which left me in stitches but I can't find where I had saved it so maybe I'll publish it later.

Anyway, anyone here have more poems for me to look at?

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Dari blog Ani hahaha.. (Cisss Ani, ade ubi ade batas.. :p)

Bukak² balik blog Yahoo! and came across entry Ani ni heheh..

Ayu... ayu...

Heheh.. ayu memang tak leh nak tinggalkan trademark dia.. :P

Bukan apa ayu, setiap kali sapa saja yang tengok album gambar masa sekolah, mesti semua akan tanya nih sapa?.. heheh ayulah tu.. nape semua orang asyik tanyakan dia.. sebab dia suka jelirkan lidah masa ambil gambar.. n then ani cakaplah itu ketua kelas kitorang.. senang nak cam kan .. ani pun sampai dah lali bila orang asyik tanya sapa tu.. tak payah pergi tgk pun gambar yang mana satu.. dari jauh ani dah tahu mesti tengok gambar kelas kitalah tu.. masa ayu tengah jelir lidah kat mr. chan...

Ayu, jangan marah na ayu, nanti kena jual.. kalau lah saya boleh scan gambar tu n then letak dlm entry nih..

Another milestone (to remind me i'm getting old *gasps*)

Ok.. why is a picture of Tupperwares doing in my blog?

Answer: These are my FIRST EVER Tupperware! :D

Hahah.. This is actually the first time I ever bought my own Tupperware. When I was smaller, I was always scolded by Mama for losing her Tupperware. From water tumblers (eversince standard 1, I must've lost on average, two per year), to sandwich containers to her most prized cake display container (which I lost during Hari Keusahawanan in form 2.. Tupperware paling mahal Ayu penah bg ilang heheh..).

When I was in form 5, Mama gave me this very cute Tupperware tumbler for me to use in school and I loved it and used it everyday.. though how I managed to not lose it, Ayu pun tatau heheh.. I still have it now and its still as good as ever.

From then on, Mama was always wary whenever she 'lended' (ade ke perkataan ni?) me her Tupperwares sbb biasenye akan ilang la.. or like now, I don't actually lose it, but I don't really give it back hehe.. byk gune nye ooooooo! Besides, Mama doesn't use them much now heheh..

Anyway, for me, whenever I needed containers, I'd usually buy the cheap ones sold in the local supermarket. You know, the RM2-RM3 ones. This way, if I lose them, I won't actually feel the loss that much. However, Irnis just became a Tupperware dealer and for the past few months, she's been showing us her catalogue every few weeks.

First it was Remy who bought a water container from her. Then, with the thought of just browsing, I went through the catalogue and found this irrisistable offer for Freezer Mates which was down to only 60% or so of the normal price.. and yes, since I now have MY OWN fridge, or course la jadik perak skit, wanting to kunun² organize my fridge like an adult hahah..

Then a few pages after that, there was this sandwich container resembling the ones I had lost during school (except now the colours were more pastel-like) thus making me laugh at the memory and before I knew it, I had ordered the whole set too.. for practical purposes! (Yeah right Ayu, keep convincing yourself of that 'fact' ok heheh..)

When Irnis handed me my order, I was over the moon, wanting so much to call Mama and tell her, "I JUST BOUGHT MY VERY FIRST TUPPERWARE!" (And I know she'd just roll her eyes like when I told her about buying my first TV and fridge hahaha.. <--so very 'matured' la you ni, Ayu! Heheh..)

It was when I excitedly showed Farah my purchases (hey! Bleh la berlagak ngan dia, she still uses HER MOTHER's Tupperware heheh..) that it suddenly struck me..

Ughhh.. rase cam org tue plak beli² Tupperware ni!

Aiyak! Betul la..

Saturday, January 12, 2008

Mari main tag lagi hehe..

Tagged by Ana in her Yahoo! blog tapi tak leh bukak Yahoo la Ana so buat kat sini je la ek :)

How's your life lately?
So and so.. there's the common up-and-down situation. Nothing to shout about

When was the last time you went out?
Last Monday, on New Years Eve wif my housemate and Dgon and her siblings. Gi Carrefour je pun sbb demam time tu. Tak larat nak jalan² byk sgt time tu, just wanted to buy some things for my trifle pudding and spend some time with Dgon.

What was the last movie you saw?
Uhh, thats a tough one. Ape ye? Budak Lapuk I think! Saw it wif my siblings on 2nd day of Aidilfitri.

The last place you went?
Just came back from KL yesterday.. jumpe Adi.. yeay! Ate banana splits in the middle of the night wif him, Ana and Mael.

Missing someone?
Hmm.. I guess so..

What made you smile today?
Ade orang janji nak wat his special chocolate cake.. yummy!

Are you scared to fall in love?
Hahaha.. funny as it might sound, I AM afraid!

Ever thought you were in love?
Definitely.. ade ke orang yg tak penah?

What is your status right now?
Single, (and baffling my firends with the fact that I'm) not looking!

Did you dream last night?
Yeah.. and a strange one. Sbbnye, before going to KL, I had to photocopy a few things but since we were in a hurry, I had left my grants progress report which I was supposed to finish at the shop. Then this morning, I dreamt that I went to the shop to take it and the shopowner told me this (very) new Awam staff had come with her fiance to take it for me. I've only talked with Fisya two times so I was like, 'Why she's so kind to go get it for me?'

What were you doing this morning at 7 am?
Wondering should I go for a jog, or should I just stay in bed heheh..

What were you doing this morning at 10 am?
Its not 10am yet!

Name a country you want to visit.
Switzerland. Abah's friend used to go there and bring back these amazing chocolates.. though I'm not sure those chocolate were made in switzerland itself or not, but trust me, those chocolates were the best!

Do you have a tattoo?
'You're on my heart just like a tatto'.. hehehe, nyanyi plak!

What was the last thing you ate?
Cucur udang pasa malam.. though I omitted the actual cucur udang and only took the crab roll and potatoes!

Last thing you drank?
Suprises of suprises (for those who know me close enough la), I drank PLAIN WATER this morning hehe..

Last text message received?
"Hehe..Ari ni nk bakor2 jek. Tak dan nk masak le puding ngn kek. Ngantok giler. Blk krg lah. Huhu" from Sharil

Do you have a nick name?
Yup.. I wrote an entry about a few of my nicknames--> here

Things you have to do everyday?
The usual stuff la like shower and all that.. but now I make sure I visit my Neopet everyday.. and drop by in my Facebook (Uhhh, I sense an idea for a new entry here) which I find very addictive haha..

Are you a type of person who easily gets hurt?

The last thing you said to one of your girlfrends/boyfriends?
"Uik, tak stat lagi ke?" to Farah

Rate your day from 1 to 10.

Did anything exciting happen today?
Not yet, but later I'm gonna get my yummy chocolate cake *rubbing hands together* :p~

Type something that is on your mind?
I'm stupid!

How many things in your past do you regret?
Ughhh.. lots and lots. Cam Adi kate la, org gile je tak de nyesal ape²

Do you have a best friend?
Yeah.. and quite afew :)

What do you want to be when you grow up?
Hahah, I'm 27 and I don't really know the answer to that question

Do you like your life?

Has one of your friends ever stabbed you in the back?
Don't wanna remember it, still hurts!

Do you have more friends that are girls or boys?
I think its spread out 50-50

Before sleep
Fluff up my pillow and try to push away all negative thoughts and memories that usually haunt all of us during this time of the day. Sheesh! Why can;t they leave us sleeping in peace?

So now I'm gonna tag (not that many of these people do it anyway)

Friday, January 11, 2008


Feeling kinda sleepy and tired today. I couldn't even get outta the bed this morning and the fact that Dr Farhan didn't follow us back here from KL yesterday made me feel even more comfy in my bed.

I only managed to force myself outta the bed at 11 hahah.. imagine that! Tu pun bcoz I just remembered that I had to pick up the progress report I left at the photocopy shop a couple of days ago before we went to KL. But then, that being it a Friday and knowing the lunch hour ends end 2.45pm made me delay my shower for a bit more longer while I lazed around in front of the tv..

A tak-sedar-diri kinda perangai if you ask me hahah..

You see, in the workshop yesterday, I suddenly realized one thing: WHAT THE HELL DID I GET MYSELF INTO?

Sheesh! I AM feeling a bit more stupid that I initially thought I was and I came outta the workshop even more blurry then before it.. yikes!!!!

The only thing on my mind right now is: Did I take the right decision when I decided to continue with my studies?

I'm seroiusly in doubt now :(

Monday, January 07, 2008

Ayu penin heheh..

Monday morning, and I'm already counting the days to Saturday hahah.. Ayu sangat teruk!

Had an 'ok²' weekend. On Saturday I had my 1st form 3 class of the year (very quiet students) then had a form 1 class (very studious.. and I'm suprised hahah.. form 1's usually are too playful!). After a quick rest at home, I drove to Bagan Serai for my night class of form 2. Yeah! Ade ke Cikgu Arun bg KELAS MALAM TIME WEEKEND!!! MARAH LE NI.. I mean, its only on weekend nights that I get to go out, catch a movie or something.. hahah, not that I've been watching movies that much anyway <--alasan je tu tak puas hati ade kelas malam Ahad!

Form 2 class was mainly my old students so at least I enjoyed la the class. Had a few new students too and for the first impression, they were ok. Hmm.. so the only class I haven't met is my form 1 class in Bagan Serai yet since I wasn't well on the first call..

But then again..

I won't be able to meet them yet this week too. We'll be having this seminar cum workshop in KL on Thursday so on Wednesday itself we'd be going there (so once again my students won't know who Cikgu Ayu is yet.. *sigh*)

Which is also the reason I'm staring at my screen. I'm supposed to do a presentation on my progress but I have no idea on what to do. I mean, I'm the newbie here and I feel as if whatever I present, ALL the other ones already know.. Kak Shedar, kak Suria, kak Siti and Ho have been involved for more than a year so I feel as if I dunno what is it that I can contribute hahah.. and kak Win, like me, also doesn't know what to present. The seminar is on sustainable transport and her M.Sc thesis, as I recall, does not involve this sustainable transport so we're both kinda clueless for whatevers gonna happen this Thursday.

Then, this is my first time taking care of all the hotel and ticket booking. Usually we have other RO's doing it but since I'm the only RO in this new project, I've learnt quite a lot of things I thought I never have to do heheh.. Lucky for me, kak Hafsah readily gives out a helping hand in preparing the PO and calling the travel agent for the tickets so basically, I just give the details to her and make sure I'm beside her (she won't let me outta her sight!) while she does all the hard work :D

But then again, its still kinda tiring. Having people 'requesting' certain flight arrangements and having to think of who's staying with whom (Dr Farhan kindly paid for the room, but not everyone wants to share), then having people cancelling their flight tickets coz they wanna drive BUT they also think I'm the one to do their travel claims. Excuse me, but I'm an RO, not your bloody secretary! I dunno.. its a bit.. annoying I think! Haha, ok, maybe its because Dr Farhan told them to contact me for anything la kot.. so I'm not supposed to complain (?)

On top of that, my voice is still like a 'kambing sakit perut' and I'm starting to cough again. Sheesh!

Ok.. its only a week in the new year and I'm already complaining, huh hehehe..

Hey.. I DO have something to good to talk about. Yesterday I went to Pt Buntar to buy some supplies. Then remembering I hadn't eaten my lunch when it was already around 4.15pm, I decided to just grab a burger from KFC. As I was lining up, I thought I heard someone saying 'cikgu' but I just ignored it.

But then, feeling a bit 'strange' after an awkward moment, I decided to turn around to find no one there and just as I was turning back to the front, I noticed a boy just trying to grab my attention by going back to my back.. like we were playing peek-a-boo. It was Nabil (I once wrote about him here--> http://ayuikhwani.blogspot.com/2006/12/my-young-chargers.html)! One of my students who once laughed about me being 26 as I had written here --> http://ayuikhwani.blogspot.com/2007/01/my-young-chargers-pt2.html.

We talked a bit and I was suprised he remembered me as I only taught him for the 6 weeks of school holidays as he was from a boarding school and didn't take the normal year-round classes we have here, He laughed listening to my voice, remembering that last year I had also once lost my voice whilst teaching them (though more severe la than this year punye) and they had to go a week with me teaching without my 'proper' voice.. It was funny when he kept calling me 'akak eh, cikgu' hahahah..

Well, I guess thats all for now. I'd like to write about my new years resolution but I think I'd better start on my presentation now.. chiao!

Wednesday, January 02, 2008

1st day after New Years

Its the second day of the year, and supposedly the first day for my class this year. However, due to the virus, I had to ask for a replacement *sigh*

I'd already went back early on Monday and slept the whole afternoon, then slept the whole of yesterday morning till I feel as if I could never sleep again.. sakit pale oooo! Then, feeling like I NEED to make myself sweat a bit, I went out to find things for a Trifle Pudding (and oh yes did I sweat.. gile sumer kedai tak jual dah instant Lady's Choice jelly. I went from Econsave to Billion to Minat then to the grocery store near my house, then to the 5 grocery stores in Taman Pekaka-by walking, mind you- and the 7-11 nearby. I had given up but then that afternoon after watching Dr Seuss's The Cat in The Hat, decided to head off to Yawata at Nibong Tebal and voila! I finally found it :)) then spent the night preparing them.. and felt a little bit better after that (OMG! Did I feel better coz I had transferred all my viruses in thos puddings? Heheh..)

Still, though I'm no longer feverish, my voice hasn't exactly come back altogether for me so I had to cancel my class, and I'm feeling a bit annoyed at that coz I always think the first class is the most important one (Yeah, righttt!)

Hmm.. anyway, while being cooped up at home when I wasn't well the past few days, I noticed this song on the radio.. and I kinda like it..

FABER DRIVE - Tongue Tied lyrics

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cuz every time I get stuck the words won't fit
But every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by
I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cuz every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this timeI

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again