Friday, May 25, 2007

Happy Teacher's Day

Last week the whole world celebrated one of the oldest professions (Heppp!!! Not talking about THAT 'oldest profession'.. to me, the oldest profession would always be the educators!). Yup, its the time when schools take a day off teaching and spend the day full of teacher-student activities..

A couple of years ago, I had written about the most infuencial (is that even a word?) teachers in my life and you can read the entry somewhere here (this is actually the whole May archive hehe..)

However, the past few years, I've had my own share of being the teacher, instead of the student.. and I understand, its nice to appreciated. You don't have to go buy presents or anything, just a simple gesture from your students who show how much they appreciate you is enough.

Anyway, the week for Teacher's Day was actually an exam week for my students. So imagine how they felt when they had just had a week and half full of exams, then having to come to tuition for class. Then, a few students had decided to miss the class, due to more exams the next day I guess, so most of us weren't in the mood for a class. However, my students were quite cunning. Instead of having to stay in class for one and a half hours, they decided to surprise me with a yummy chocolate cake..

As you can see in the background there right on the white board, I was actually teaching before Sukmit and Vicky decided to bring the cake out. Hehe, was actually suprised as I thought boys usually didn't care for these kinda things.. for example, their Teacher's Day gift for me was a 1.25l bottle of Coke and 5 sticks of Wrigleys Chewing Gum hahah..

Anyway, I guess they thought I'd be mad for the 'interruption' so they had asked the clerks to join us. And here's a picture of some of the students, or should I say this is the picture of the masterminds of the plan :D

The cake was okay, considering I don't really like creamed cakes (except for fresh cream <--Ayu ngade!). We managed to finish the whole cake, with the boys trying their best to prolong the 'party' so they won't have to listen to my teaching haha..

Anyway, among the gifts I got this year, I just can't help to show of this cute coin box (I've got 5 now haha..) given by my sweetest student ever, the petite Shayidah Nafisah from my form 1 class in Bagan Serai. She is sooooooooo sweet, and I'm not saying this because she gave me a gift. Sometimes, when she has other classes, she'd just come to my class and sit down with me while I wait for my other students for no other reason than "..untuk temankan teacher!" She almost always has questions to ask, and she really tries her best in class..

Anyway, I've gotto go home now. My current fav soap opera "Amarte Asi" would be on the tube in a couple of hours so I gotta pray and eat first :D

But to all teachers, who are offically the real people in this profession AND to unoffical teachers as yours truly, I'd like to wish a very Happy Belated Teachers Day.. The world needs you, you know :D

Friday, May 18, 2007

Rainbow after the storm..

These past few days have been quite.. I dunno.. not exactly rough, but not exactly 'ok' for me. It started on Tuesday afternoon I guess.. no wait! Monday.. yes, it started on Monday..

I dunno, maybe its just me, or maybe.. well, like I said, I don't know..

I felt a bit dumb on Monday.. I guess sometimes, we don't really want to find out that people think we're not that important enough for them to correct. I mean, I really did feel dumb, especially after knowing I wasn't corrected. I mean, its not really that hard to just send a 5 cent sms to tell me (or even laugh at me, saying:) that I'm mistaken. I'd understand the no credit situation or the busy situation.. but not the I-woke-up-late-and-read-your-sms-but-didn't-feel-bothered-to-correct-you-so-I-just-ignored-it. I mean.. well, I still feel dumb.. :( And a bit hurt really..

Then, going through my other blog, I came across this entry which actually made me feel a bit sad remembering some things. You can read the entry here, though not just anyone of you could read it. Only people on my Yahoo! 360 list could read it and you have to sign in first (haha.. thats why I put the link here, just to irritate those who can't read it heheheh :p)

Then on Tuesday, I had thought of asking why. Yeah, now I find myself wanting to question everything, instead of keeping it inside me like I've always done before. I dunno why.. guess, recent and not-so-recent things that have happened has shaped this trait in me now. Still, something came up and I decided to wait for a better time..

Then, around noon, a bomb dropped.. and I was left feeling as if.. I dunno.. surprised I guess.. and a bit sad too.. so many things have changed, I don't understand why I can't get used to it yet.. I don't really wanna be sad about this, in fact, I should be happy and celebrate it, huh? But then..

Hahah.. I'm not making any sense here, am I?

Anyway, lets just say, I felt a bit upset and went home.. thinking and wondering. Feeling like, I dunno.. like s***, I guess.. and the feeling continued till Wednesday and yesterday. Even my students commented on why I didn't seem to be myself haha.. God! They notice everything, don't they?

Till yesterday, I didn't feel like going to school anyway. It was better waking and falling asleep till noon, and waking up with a great big headache so I won't have to think haha.. stupid huh?

However, yesterday afternoon, I had left my teaching aids at the school so I decided to drop by the school on the way to class. As I was heading to my class after picking up the supplies, I was driving absent-mindedly towards the main gate of USM. Suddenly, I noticed this huge rainbow, right in front of me and as clear as if it was in the campus itself..

For a while, I smiled at the wonder of God's creation made merely from drops of water and a little sunshine.. and I forgot about feeling down! :)

The rainbow was so huge that even when I had driven more than 5 kilometres from the campus, I could still see it clearly that I just couldn't help stopping a while, just to admire the view..

Then, I suddenly remembered a quote I used to love, translated here: Sometimes God takes away the bright sunshine in our life and gives us this great storm and shower of rain. We run around everywhere trying to find back our lost sunshine, only to realize that God really not only gave us back our sunshine after the rain, but also gave us the gift of a beautiful rainbow in the end.

Yeah.. I guess sometimes I forget this true lesson. There is always a rainbow after the storm and somehow, I think God wanted to remind me of this when He made me see the rainbow yesterday. I just hope, I won't forget this too soon..

Btw, I've noticed this song on the radio.. by th American Idol runner up and they say he's deaf in one ear.. stilll not tone deaf, huh..

Wait For You
Artist: Elliott Yamin
Album: Elliott Yamin
Year: 2007
Title: Wait For You

[Verse 1]
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
& I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?

So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

[Verse 2]
It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy (crazy)
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is
& it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me, your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance I can love you right
But your telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie what your keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting

Tuesday, May 15, 2007


13.35 this afternoon

It hurt..

IT hurt..

it HURT..

It hurt..

IT hurt..

it HURT..


Monday, May 14, 2007

Happy Mother's Day

Yesterday, as everyone knows, was Mother's Day. Being a bit on the budget as I am right now, I didn't actually know what to do for Mama.. However, me and Ikram decided to do a Mother's Day breakfast for her :)

As planned, I only went home at 4am that morning. We had planned to start cooking as I arrived but I started getting sleepy (shouldn't be a surprise here, I've been having trouble sleeping eversince Thursday!!) so I told Ikram I wanted a quick nap.. which I couldn't actually get as, eventhough Ikram has proved himself crafty in the kitchen, I still couldn't trust him haha..

Anyway, the late start resulted in a late finish. I was still making the french toast using french loaves (niiiiiiiccee!!) when Mama came in the kitchen, scolding me for coming home quietly hehe..

After everyone had performed their Subuh prayers, we served everything in the living area BUT we didn't actually eat as we were busy talking A LOT hehe.. it must be around 9.30 that we managed to finish eating and by that hour, I was really sleepy.. so I decided to take a quick nap..

..which turned into a full deep sleep! Hahah, I woke up after 1pm :D

Then Mama decided to buy us lunch. Yeah, MAMA, not her ampeh children heheh.. So around 4pm ONLY did we all get to go out, and that was after shouting to everyone to get ready, stopping for another round of chat amongst us and all that.

After lunch, went to buy some groceries while hiding from Ikram who seemed to find everything in the store interesting enough to buy. Me and Iskandar were in charge of the trolley and I felt a bit like a kid, dodging Ikram with it. Mama just shook her head. Guess, she couldn't believe her 15 and 21-year-old sons as well as 27-year-old daughter were still acting like toddlers :D

When we got home, me and Iskandar presented her with a store-bought carrot and cheese cake that was delicious and full with carrots. This bakery really wasn't 'kedekut' in the carrot department :)

Anyway, we just sat around in the sofa and talked (and fought hehe..). It was way after 8 that I finally got started on coming back to Nibong Tebal.

Still, a short day but I enjoyed it. Iskandar was finally not-so edgy as he usually is nowadays and we had a kinda fun day :)

Friday, May 11, 2007

Sentot getting hitched!!!

Okay, this is an entry I should've written days ago but somehow I couldn't get around resizing the photos.. thus, the reason for this late entry..

Opppsss, however, though the title is about Sentot a.k.a Baizurah getting married, the picture below is NOT her and her betrothed. This picture shows one of the BESTEST persons in my life, Amilia.. note to Ami: Bukan tadek entry untuk awak! Ade², in fact a bit long one tapi lum abis lagi compose. Dulu dah penah wat for Baizurah tapi tak penah buat untuk awak, sbb tu lame skit, byk bende nak citer (suspen² hehe..). Nanti la yek, Ami. Tapi saya letak gambo awak ngan Kimin jap dulu.. nak tunjuk kat my friends sape kawan baik saya :)

Anyway, back to Baizurah, whom is also one of the most important people in my life during the school years. We go waaaaaaaaaaay back, and when I say 'way back', I mean 'way back'. She's one of those people who just loves to make everyone around them (depends on whom maybe) laugh and believe me, I mean it when I say laugh! I really laugh a lot around her and Ami, and I'm truly blessed with having them in my life.

If any of you have been reading my blog, you'd notice an entry I wrote on her (you can also click here to read it). I still laugh when I remember all those good old times :) :) :)

Anyway, Baizurah a.k.a Sentot a.k.a Rabbit (Bart would scold me if she knew I still call Baizurah, Sentot!!) got married last week. Had the reception on her side on Saturday and on Amin's side on Sunday. Naturally, I went to both receptions :) Not only because she's one of my bestest friends in this world, but also because I was sorta forced (hahah..) to become the 'maid of honour' when it came to Amin's side.

I didn't actually wanna be one, I mean, I dunno why but then Baizurah 'majuk' with me.. which actually made me remember this trick during school when either me or her would merajuk first then the other one would also merajuk just because the other one merajuk.. which in the end just made us HAVE to talk hahah.. just like one merajuk neutralizes the other merajuk! Don't understand? Well, I guess not many people could anyway :p~

So on Saturday, I cancelled my first class (2.45 to 4.15pm) so I could attend Bai's (I NEVER call her Bai.. always the full Baizuraaaaaaaaaaaaahh--with the aaaahhh elongated!!) reception. I DO have pictures but I'm not putting them here (btw, to Ami: Sowi, mase kenduri awak, takde camera lagi laaaa :( Thats why tadek gambo sgt.. sgt rugi!!!). However, below here is the door gift all guests got and believe it or not, Baizurah decorated those glasses herself.. creative or what, huh? Very sweet, kan :)

The next day, I went to Penang for my 'job of the day'. Went to USM 1st to watch a game then as promised, I went to Romantis Studio at 12.30pm to check on the bride. This is the final 'product' of the wedding studio (pic below)..

I gotto say this, though I KNOW I'm gonna regret it: She's the CUTEST bride I've ever seen! (There, dah kate dah.. and Baizurah, awak JANGAN ungkit pasal saya cakap ni. This is a once in a lifetime occurance when I'm gonna admit you ARE cute. Lepas ni, jangan harap nak dengar saya ngaku camni lagi :p)

Hehe.. anyway, we arrived at the reception around 2 something, I guess. Then had some pictures taken and all that. And yes Baizurah, I agree with Soraya, this is the only time you can mengade² manje with us :p But really, you glowed. Never stopped smiling which was good for the cameras. If it was me, I might've cramped my mouth by then.. but I guess you are really happy, and I'm glad for you.

I went to eat with Ami and Kimin (who had come after watching Spiderman) while the bride and bridesgroom ate with their family and after that, once again resumed my role as the bridesmaid. However, as the pictures took quite a long time (dekat kul 5 ek abis, Baizurah?), there came a time where I just gave Baizurah the tissue to wipe her own face (hahah, teruk punye pengapit!!) as they were constantly taking picture and we couldn't get near them..

It was nearly 5 when the photographers decided to wrap it up and call it a day. And to tell you the truth, I thought it would be over the latest at 4pm haha.. I was a bit tired, but imagine how the bride was feeling. Still, look at her happy face here though she was already exhausted by now (So Soraya, this was how you must be feeling eh on your wedding, penat but very happy..)

Around 5, we decided to go home and I left Baizurah to the mercy of Amin's family heheh.. However, before leaving, I jokingly told Baizurah to throw her bouquet as custom to western weddings and let anyone catch it, but to my amusement, she just gave it to me 'just to make sure I was next'. Hahah, ampeh awak Baizurah! But I'm keeping this RM100 bouquet (Baizurah said: Mahal gila! Saya tak puas hati betul!!! <--tp cantik for you, Baizurah!)

Anyway, I just wish her all the best in her married life! Aiii, dah kawen dah sorang lagi kawan saya niiiiii.. Happy for you though.. and klau Amin buat hal habaq kat saya! Siap dia nanti heheh.. <--Ayu perasan kuat!

Tuesday, May 08, 2007


Two days ago, after going to Baizurah's wedding, I had actually looked forward for a meal in McDs haha, its been too long since I ate there. However, since I couldn't get back earlier, I had to miss the McDs but then decided to go to Abah's place.

Calling Abah before hand, I found out that Abah had gone to Kelantan and only Umi and Annisa were there.. however, I made up my mind to just go there anyway..

Arriving there, I was greeted by Abah's students, FIVE of them.. and all asking if I was Izati (huh?). Then when I went inside, Umi and Annisa were there to greet me. Annisa came smiling, offering me her chocolate chip cookies and before long, Umi left us two sister to play (haha.. 27-year-old pun bleh 'play' ke?)

Annisa, though already two years old, couldn't actually speak. She's still talking all those gibberish stuff that I always reply it: her way.

Then, I suddenly asked her.. "Annisa, ni sape?" , while pointing to myself..

She was quiet for a while.. but suddenly said, "..Yong!"

Haaaa.. she knows what to call me, and she could say it finally!!

..and I was smiling throughout the remainder of the day :) :) :)

Ayu emosi bile..


..orang tipu dia tanpe sebab yang munasabah! Ape hal??!!?

..orang bagi dia risau bukan², padehal orang tu tipu je sebenarnye!

..pastu orang tu citer kat orang len bende tak betul (mangkuk ni!!!), tp sib baik ramai lagi yang tau citer yang betul, n sumer org tau dia mmg suke busybody.. sampai ade orang kate, "Hang dah tau dia macam tu, nak ajak dia lagi buat apa? Kami pun dah malas, hang plak nak buat² baik nak ajak dia"

..bertambah lapar dan penat!

..orang tu plak buat ayat² kesian untuk diri dia sendiri padahal Ayu dah sangat irritated ngan orang tu.. sebabnye: oleh kerana Ayu dah memang rase tak ikhlas ngan orang tu, dia akan rase bersalah!

..nak sorok² mende tah hape² yang takde sebab pun nak sorok (sgt tak phm, bak kate F, tak mau kita cakap kita nak ikut ka?) sampai Ayu pk, dia ingat Ayu ni sape, sampai bende camtu pun kene tipu gak?

..bertambah lapar dan penat dan berpeluh² dan merah muke cari orang yang tanak angkat phone tu, sampai keliling school, abih naik sume tingkat! (Ni mangkuk tatau nak cakap la, klau Adi, dia kate, "Tak reti gune phone, buang je"!)

..orang tu plak buat² kate 'sorry' tapi bile tanye nape buat camtu, nape kene tipu camtu, tamau jawab plak! Nape, takde jawapan keeee? Atau baru perasan bende tu tak logik? Klau takde jawapan logik, maknenye mende dia buat tu pun tak logik la jugak.. mangkuk!! Klau orang yang Ayu care for buat camtu, dia akan rase sedih.. tp bile org yg sememangnye dia irritated dari dulu, dia cume akan lagi annoyed and lagi memblacklistkan orang tu..

Hahah, actually, I'm not THAT mad anymore. Was even laughing yesterday but last night, I had mis-sent an sms to a friend to W as their names were quite near each other in my phone book and she just HAD to reply and blame me saying I had said it was okay.. Cik Mek, I HAVE the archive of the chatting, just in case.. so DON'T blame me laaaa, mangkuk!

Then yesterday, my YM status mirrored what I was feeling haha.. Yup, I seem to wear my heart upon my sleeve a lot nowadays. Then I received an sms from a junior whom I was correcting her thesis. She wrote, "A'kum kak Ayu.. nak tanye pasal thesis saya, kak Ayu dah siap check ke? Tadi nak tegur kat YM, tp tgk status kak Ayu, saya takut.. saya minta maaf byk² ye kak Ayu"

I was a bit confused about this, then I remembered, she had promised to meet me that morning but she didn't come. And since I had my status display my displeasure of people who talk like k***** (Can't write the word here as its quite racial actually *guilty*), I guess she thought I meant her. This made me laugh out loud in the middle of KFC as I showed the sms to F and I quickly apologized to that girl, trying to make her understand I wasn't talking about her hehe.. and yes, it made me forget about being mad, so I really was cheerful after that :)

Monday, May 07, 2007

Seethin' Mad X(

I came to school this morning feeling a bit hungry.. well, not exactly a bit, but VERY hungry so I had asked a friend, lets call her F, if she wanted to take lunch and she wanted to but a bit later as she had some labwork to do. I didn't mind since I had some soybean drinks in the fridge.

Anyway, while waiting for her, another friend came in. Lets call her W. To tell you the truth, most of us have been avoiding W for our own personal reasons, including yours truly. But I had noticed since last week, she was quite alone and I pitied her as I, myself, have been avoiding her and I was feeling rather guilty. Anyway, I called out to her and told her I was going for lunch with F and asked if she wanted to join us and instantly she agreed, stating she was VERY hungry.

Well, we waited for F for a while while W did her work and I checked my emails. Every 10 minutes or so W would ask me if F had arrived as she was supposedly hungry and I kept telling her 'not yet' to the point I was getting annoyed as she started being her usual self of b****ing on other people including F, thus reminding me why I was avoiding her.. She kept saying she was gonna miss her favourite food if I still wanted to wait and all that and I was like, 'go yourself laaaaa'.. but dalam hati je laa..

Then, suddenly outta nowhere, I assumed outta frustration that I wasn't going to leave F and just go eat with her, she declared that she didn't wanna eat. When I asked her why, she started doing all those ayat kesian she loved to do to make me feel guilty. I was already irritated as she usually DOES manage to make me feel guilty.. like 'ye laa, tanak makan ngan dia' and all those but I had promised F and she already knew that!!! AND I was waiting and making sure I didn't leave her.. did she think of THAT?!?!

So I pujuk her, told her it won't be long. Even offered some snacks for her as she had earlier said she was sooo hungry but then she started talking about wanting to go on a diet pulakkk.. Then gave this long explanation of wanting to go on a diet and all that.. YES! VERY LONG EXPLANATION (look at the extent she wanted to hide something and lie to me!!!!) K*****!!! Tadi buat ayat kesian as if I didn't think she was important enough, then cakap nak diet.. mangkuk tul!

Then she went on saying she wanted to skip her meals so she could lose weight and this made me worried as she had earlier said that she hadn't eaten and I was quite worried as I know the dangers of dieting by skipping meals all together so I told her, you have to eat, at least for your health so I said, I'll call her when F arrives AND she said 'ok'.

As F arrived, I found W missing. Since I was already worried+annoyed with her antics of making me feel guilty, I called her but she didn't pick up the phone and I KNOW she didn't leave her phone as it was with her the whole time. Then I smsed her, still no reply. I was already hungry, bothered and annoyed but in wanting to prove that I'm not THAT heartless, I went up to find her.. right up three flights of stairs!!!

And would you believe it, after I was red in the face, sweaty and more annoyed then ever, only DID she say, she had actually changed her mind coz she had wanted to go eat with someone else.. WHAT THE #$%@&...? So you should lie la? Bongok.. why don't you just tell the truth so I wouldn't have to be bothered by your remarks haaaa, mangkuk? Now, because you said all those things, not only have I lost some precious time I could use for eating, I waste my time feeling worried you'd get sick coz you didn't wanna eat, I tire myself by searching all over the school for you while you pretend to not notice my call when your phone was with you?

And yeah, I was mad.. not only because she lied to me and made me feel guilty for kunun² not being concerned enough of her, but also because I'd like to scream in her face, "What the hell was the reason for the lie?" Because you think I'm ape? Because you pretend you know everything la kan when none of us told you ANYTHING, and you are assuming ntahapehape, right? Haaaaaaaaah..? Klau you don't think anything of me, you won't lie but now I'm rather thinking that the 'rumour spreader' for the upper floors was not only Mr L but also you, as F had said, YOU HAVE POTENTIAL!! The differance is: L is brave enough to even say things in my face, which reminds me why I didn't quite like him months ago, but you're the coward who just assumes you know everything, huh? You two guys should be locked up together you know!

Friday, May 04, 2007


This afternoon, after reading my blog, I suddenly felt as if it was quite gloomy, due to recent entries. Wanting a more cheerful entry, I decided to write on my obsession with bracelets/bangles/all-those-thingeys-you-wear-on-your-wrist but since I had a class due, I thought I'd wait until tonight to write it. However, tonight I've decided to write about something else here..

A few weeks ago, while teaching my form 1 class, I noticed one of my students (Ariff) being a bit pale and having his forehead as if knotted by the way it was creasing. I tried to asked him quite alot of times if anything was wrong but he just smiled and told me nothing was wrong.

However, in the second hour of the class, I became more concerned as he was usually cheeky, but this time he was a bit quiet. I asked him again but still got the same answer but by this time, I was a bit suspicious so I just went to him, yanked his cap off his head and put my hand on his forehead. Not-exactly-much-to-my-surprise, his head was very hot with fever.

I promptly asked him to keep his things in his bag as I wanted to call his parents and send him home. However, to my surprise, he refused. Hah!!! His reason: He didn't wanna miss out on his lesson..

Of all things haha.. still, since he was already scaring me with his pale face, I sorta forced him to go home so in the end, he called his father who came to take him home.

Well, anyway, that was a couple of weeks ago.. what happened just now was a totally different story.

I had my form 3 class and we were doing exercises on Algebraic Expressions. The boys were being their usual cheeky selves, while only one out of the two girls had come, Sharina. However, a few minutes later, Aiman, the other girl also arrived so I just handed her the handouts.

A few minutes into the lesson, I realized Aiman was searching for something in her bag and when I looked her way, she asked permission to go down and buy bottled water. I noticed a few pills in her hand so I just allowed her to go, though I had realized she looked a bit pale. I thought of going down myself, but the guys were asking questions non-stop so I just decided to let her go by herself.

By the time she came back, I was teaching Sharina a particular question she didn't understand. Then, sudddenly outta the corner of my eye, I saw Aiman fall.

My first thought (or rather, what I had first hoped for) was that she had fallen due to the slippery floor (which wasn't actually slippery anyway). But then, one of the boys shouted, "She's not moving!".. and I started to panic!

Quickly going to her, I asked one of the boys to call cikgu Arun who was teaching in the next room and before I knew it, our class was swarmed with students from the other class.. which not surprisingly increased the panicky feeling that was already growing inside of me.

I mouth to the boys in my class, "Ape saye nak buat ni?" but even they didn't know what to do. Luckily, two student from the next class were members of the Red Crescent Society so they were the ones who helped me. I guess they not only helped to calm down Aiman when she regained consciousness, but they also helped calm me down too hehe..

Before long, an ambulance had arrived and I gladly turned the job over to them. In the end, they took her to the hospital while we tried to contact her parents to inform them..

The guys in my class who had been told to vacate the room earlier were asked to resume the lesson, much to their disappointment I guess, and we just continued the lesson.

I, however, was left with this on my mind: Being a teacher isn't merely to teach. You are also a mother, father, sister and brother. You're a doctor when needed (so I guess I should really brush up my first aid skills, huh.. and try not to panic again!) and a cheer-leader all the way through. You're a motivator and a counsellor.. You ARE their bestfriend (as pointed out to me by my form 1 students in Bagan Serai.. waaaa, so sweet those guys to say I'm their bestfriend).. in whole, you are your students hero (unlike this certain teacher who panicked..), so I guess I gotta act like one.. but the question is, am I capable to do that?

Thursday, May 03, 2007


On a noisy Saturday afternoon (thank God they're noisy)..

I'm not upset..

I'm not upset..

I'm NOT upset..

I'M not upset..

I'm not UPSET..

On a quiet Wednesday afternoon..

I'm not upset..

I'm not upset..

I'm NOT upset..

I'M not upset..

I'm not UPSET..

On an early Thurday morning..

I'm not upset..

I'm not upset..

I'm NOT upset..

I'M not upset..

I'm not UPSET..

..but just let me cry for a while, eh.. :'(