Another award :)

Syitah.. akhirnye abis gak kak Yong jawab mende ni. Ingt kene tunggu sok luse baru leh wat hehe.. thanx for the award yaaa.. sowi, kak yong tak pasan laaa Syitah bg ni :)

Nyatakan 5 fakta menarik tentang si pemberi award ini

1. Adik ipar tak jadi.. Oppsss, marah Ikram nnt klau tau kak Yong announce mende nih haha :p Tp dah mcm adik sendiri dah pun even till now

2. Kenal dari dia darjah 4 kot and I was, what? In matriculation time tu?

3. Muke ala² Arab sesat :p

4. A great artist.. masih tunggu bile la dia nak lukis kak Yong dia nih :D *hint²*

5. Sape dpt dia bertuah oooo.. rajin gi masjid/surau nih. Asal kitorg gi je, mesti ade dia.. :)

Setiap blogger mestilah menyatakan 10 fakta atau hobi diri sndiri sebelum memilih

Ni yg malas skit nih.. aci tak recycle bende² yg penah ckp dlm entry lepas²?

1. Sy bukan org yg kidal.. cume tgn kanan dan tgn kiri sy terbalik dari org len :p

2. Spt dikatekan dlm entry lepas, sgt cepat attach ngan org even klau baru kenal. Reason why my brothers hate me whenever they break up with anyone sbb I usually side on their (ex)girlfriends and not them haha.. Hambik korg, sape suh kenalkan ngan kak Yong korg nih hahah :p

3. Dlm kete klau drive sensorg, suke nyanyi smbil dok feel sorg².. pastu termalu bile pasan org kiri kanan dok sengih je tgk or bile pegi kelas and student ckp, "Cikgu, aritu sy nmpk cikgu nyanyi sambil nari² dlm kete" hehe..

4. Mase sekolah org panggil 'beluting' (Thanx Ami for correcting me on the right term! :p) sbb comot semedang.. and fast forward to 16 years later, I haven't changed a bit *malu*

5. P.E.N.D.E.K! Tapi pasan cam tinggi.. (150cm tu tinggi hape?)

6. Tak penah outgrow the 'saya-awak' used during primary. Sampai skrg sy ckp camtu with rakan sebaya and even with my students. I strongly suspect that I'll never learn to talk using 'aku-hang' or 'aku-kau' so Baizurah, you can stop crossing your fingers :p

7. Also never outgrew being ticklish (my worst enemies are people who tickle me ;p) and the tendency to shriek like perempuan gedik everytime I'm suprised (and I get suprised VERY easily tau.. sgt malu!) Not that I don't try but the shriek comes out before my head says STOP and then sy akan sgt termalu sbb mcm sgt gedik je rase!

8. Actually masih pemalu hahah.. I know some people say I'm bubbly (to MY suprise actually) and friendly but I'm actually intimidated by people I meet for the first (second, third, fourth, fifth bla.. bla..) time. Sbb tu some people might think sy ni memilih kawan kot sbb ngan people I've known for quite some time, I talk a lot tp ngan org yg baru jumpe (or dah lame jumpe but jarang jumpe), I'm always at loss for words so I usually avoid looking at them coz I'm sooooo afraid they expect me to initiate a conversation with them :D

9. A pessimist.. always expecting the worst! Teruk kan?

1o. Always tatau nak jawab ape everytime tagged to write thing about me.. but then when I'm idly doing something else, I could list down hundreds of new thing about myself haha..

Anda perlu memilih 10 penerima award dan describe tentang mereka.

1. Bai 'Sentot' coz she's a stay@home mum now :p
2. Misa sbb blog dia berabuk hehe..
3. Arep, jugak atas alasan yg same. Sile² abg Korea..
4. Hairil.. kate nak beli vacum utk blog?!
5. Watie.. my dormate in form 2 and classmate for 3 years :)
6. Liza.. who has an entertaining blog!
7. Jida.. just because I wanna give this to her :)
8. Dzul.. Dr Gigi turned educator yg suke jjln merate pelusuk donia
9. Adi&Ana (kene buh name sekali niii sbb bakal 'Two become One' <--nyanyi ala² Spice Girl dolu²)

10. Ayeen coz I miss her!

Chili² Boom².. New Neighbours and another award

Yesterday when coming back from my tuition class, I was listening to the radio and a song came up. It reminded me of my school girl days when Britney Spears was stil made of sugar and spice and all things nice. Sgt bubblegummy..

I didn't catch the title nor did I catch the singer.. tp paling chumel was the chili² boom².. and the singer punye suare like Lady Gaga BUT I don't think its her sbb tak mcm her type of song pun sbb song ni cam bdk sekolah nye sweet style hehe.. so who knows this song, please tell me eh.. I want to listen to it again :)

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Hmm, most of you have nver heard me complaining about my next door (left side) neighbour. The Mrs is okay as well as the kids, its the Mr I have a problem with. Eversince with kak Shima and kak Kathy, through the time Yun and Elie were my housemates saaaaaaaaampai la Rusya, this pak cik like always je carik pasal. Especially time wife dia takde.. so I did what I do best, ignore and avoid him!

Earlier this month, my neighbours pindah tatau pi mane and I was HAPPY! Hahah, jahat nye jiran. Takde la, I just wasn't comfortable with the pak cik so I was relieved and tak sabar to know who my new neighbours were (I assumed it'd be another family since the pakcik had renovated his house cam lawa la jugak, takkan dia nak sewa kat student je kot kan?)

Dengan seronoknye citer kat Sharil sbb dia penah kene marah ngan pak cik tu. Sharil bising sampai anak dia tak leh tido katenye, padehal satu school tau Sharil ckp cam dlm kain.. AND mlm tu anak² pakcik tu bukan ade kat umah, ikut wife dia gi mane tah. Tah pa pe tah pak cik tu. Mcm² la kesimpulan dibuat sbb nye pakcik tu pindah tgh malam buta.. serius!! Hahah.. tp I tau dia bkn lari dari byr utang la sbb itu umah dia sendiri.. hehe, saje je nak tumbuh tanduk skali skale kaaaannn (Ni nnt Irfan kate la, "Cikgu seronok je kan ngate org!")

Anyway, 2 days ago, I noticed 2 cars in front of the house. Then I heard a gelak ala² penjahat kat drama² melayu from the house. Gulp! Apekah ini?!?!

Then semalam, I realized, bukan 2 cars but 4 cars and at least one motorcycle. Aiyak! Upenye kate Arep (jugak jiran baru sy tp belah kanan umah, pakcik tu nye umah belah kiri), budak² 'bujangan' (Arep nye word) yg duk situ. Ramai la pulak tuuuu..

Whaaaatt?!?!

Alaaa.. chek tak sokaaa! Pasni tak leh nak ngelat, kene bertudung litup ngan sempurna je even if nak kuar amik bende dlm kete (klau tak, pakai campak je selendang atas kepale). Mesti jadik anak dara sunti je tak kuar² umah..

..and before anyone comment kate 'Takkan tak suka kot', for once I ngaku I dah tua. Takde nye nak gedik sonok duk sblh umah bujang reramai when I live alone in my rented house. Sgt tak selesa, okay! I'd rather have the weird pakcik now :(

Klau Arep and the gang takpe la jugak, leh je nak buat perangai sembg tepi pagar style makcik² bergossip ptg² but when its people I dunno.. alaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, tak suke!!!

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Alaaa.. award tu upenye kene tulis bende haha.. malas la nak compose. Next entry je la ek Syitah heheh.. :p Nnt kak Yong wat, k

Cikgu/Teacher/Miss/kak Ayu ♥sayang♥ korg sumer :p

I didn't actually plan to stay up tonight. In fact, I was planning to retire early as tomorrow (or lets just say 'in the morning' which is just a few hours je lagi) I have plans for a girls day out with Bart yang akan disertakan sesi keluh mengeluh hehe..

Tp telah mendapat call dari Remy and lepas seronok comparing this year and last years Sedim Expedition, I found that I wasn't THAT sleepy anymore. So I did what I usually do when I can't sleep.. Facebooking!

Still, tetibe terase nak bercakap pasal something that went through my mind today..

I haven't updated on the Sedim thingey but my friends would know, I enjoyed it (sbb klau I tak enjoy, konpem dah ade entry ngate kaaaan haha..). Before going for the program, I was already certain I was gonna enjoy it because of one thing: I thought I was sick of my students!

Noooooooooo.. bkn sy tak suke student² sy (Sorry Irfan.. do not misinterpret me okay). Its just that this year I've been handed classes from form 1 to form 5 in 3 centres. I have classes EVERY night from Monday to Saturday plus another class on Saturday afternoon. And eventhough I have free Sundays, sometimes, I just feel like I need a break from these hormone-filled kids.

As a rule, I hate missing my classes but the oppurtunity to miss classes during the Sedim thingey was sooooooooooo tempting..

..and I took it!

..and I enjoyed it!

..and I thought 'How could I ever enjoy my classes again after being with 50 cute 10~11 year olds?'

(I forgot last year I went through the same cycle jugak hahah..)

..and somehow, I DIDN'T enjoy my last two classes after my come back. Not that I showed that feeling to my students laaa.. kecik ati deme nnt. But I just couldn't feel excited enough..

Then today, I had my most patience-challenging class.. my fifth formers! (Once again, sorry Irfan haha.. but you understand, don't you?) Even the thought of the class made me feel sooo tired. Don't get me wrong, I love this class the most, in fact. Its just that these kids sometimes.. I dunno.. they just drain me a bit more than my other classes, I guess.

A typical day in this class would see the girls all huddled in the front seats. The most talkative ones right in front of me that sometimes I can't hear myself think. The okay² ones sit in the middle where I have a hardworking girl, a cheeky girl and a never-stop-trying girl all in the second row. The third row usually has these very quiet girls who are afraid of asking (and sometimes they drain me the most cause I really wanna help them but how can I help them when I dunno what is it that they don't understand?)

Then the fourth row is filled by my two favourite male-students (who ask and answer enough questions to make my day) and another two quiet boys (kire balance la kot ek?) Then the last row at the back is filled with intelligent 'clowns' who still think they have a long way to go before their SPM. Diorg ni pandai² tau, but sgt la suke main!

I guess its because this class has such a wide range of diversity that drains me so much. There were times I just wanted to cry cause I KNOW their great potential but I can't seem to make them see it themselves. I don't wana give up on them but sometimes I just get tired..

So there I was, comparing how I felt looking after lil' kids and big kids.. and ashamedly feeling sorry for myself. Somehow, in the midst of teaching them Probability II and Bearings, I found myself looking at each face in front of me..

I would never be able to put all my students in one group, cause they're all so different from each other and whilst pondering on this thought, I realized.. "Gosh! We're heading into July now" That means, I'll only be teaching them for, what? 3 more months?

You might think I was rejoicing with joy then, huh? But you're wrong..

I suddenly felt.. I dunno.. I had this huge lump in my throat then and realized..

I'M GONNA MISS THEM!

Despite how down they sometimes make me feel.. how worthless and how wrong they make me feel I am for them, I realized, I really do love them!

I love how they make me laugh. I love how they act when they finally think my lessons are worth their time. I love how they sometimes trick me into doing things. I love it when they're happy. I love it when the girls giggle around me and I smile when I remember how some of the boys apologize when they realize they've just stepped outta the line.. and I just love knowing I have this big box of memories inside my heart that revolves around them!

I guess these past few weeks, I forgot how it felt to be a confused teenager (not that they'd admit la kan.. just like all of us at that age)

Suddenly, I don't want time to move on. I don't want the next 3 months to pass as quickly like the past 6 months have and I realized, I've done something my friends have told me not to..

I've grown attached to these kids!

Thats one problem I've never been able to overcome. No matter how many people tell me I grow attached and love people around me too easily, I still do it. And even though I've been hurt because of this, I've never learnt!

But how can I? Watching the whole lot of them in class just now just made me love them so much more. I mean, its not as if they've even harmed me or anything kan.. they are just being their usual teenage selves. And I can't help feeling a bit guilty of wanting a break from them..

*sigh*

And its not just to them. I still remember my first students who called me 'kak Ayu' right till now. I still see them and they always stop by to talk with me whenever we accidently meet or something. In fact, some of them are still constantly texting me eventhough their last class with me was 4 years ago.

And I still remember my first batch of students who called me 'Miss Ayu'. Most of whom I don't teach anymore but still remember me and still make me smile whenever I see them.

As for my current student who call me both Teacher Ayu and Cikgu Ayu (I kinda miss being called Miss Ayu since I don't think I'm what you'd say 'layak' to be called Cikgu/Teacher), how can I forget them if I see them week after week, huh?

So, ignoring what everyone else says, I'll just let myself get attached to them if it happens. If it hurts me, I'm the one to feel it and nobody else.. but the reward in the end is more than enough! :)

So to my students (only one reads my blog pun bile dia rajin kaaaann, Irfan), I love you all! Muaaaaahhhhhhsss!! ♥♥♥

From Leong and Chipunk :)

Yes, I know.. I just posted an entry tadi and now I'm posting another one thee hee.. but I just got 2 v.nice suprises and can't resist sharing them..

First one from Leong. I had helped her (sampai tak tido malam oooo..) correcting a students thesis. Actually tak kisah sgt pun since my own research cam on freeze mode haha.. so what better way than to while the time away kan? At least I can brush up on my scientific writing.

Besides, my MSc pun I owe a lot to her.. so I didn't actually mind. But somehow she still felt like she needed to show her appreciation to me so she bought something and had text me telling me about it. I had made up my mind to return it to her since I NEVER gave her anything after my MSc. But when I saw it..

..alamak! I fell in love with it laaaa.. tak dapat nak pulangkan hahah..

Sangat chumel! Goes with my bag and purse that kak Shima, kak Kathy and kak Zura had bought me a few years ago for my birthday. Except yg diorg punye is light beige in colour, and this time around I got something darker in colour.. but still chumel!

Thanx Leong :) :) :)

Next one is while blog hopping. Suda brape hari tak blog hopping and rase sgt gatal tangan clicking around in my usual blogs. Then I noticed Aida a.k.a Chipunk (sy sorg je kan panggil awak Aida? Heheh..) asking me to go to her blog.

Upenye she gave me an award.. yeay! Thanx Aida :) Sy sgt suke..

Lets Talk About Food :D

Yummy! My favourite topic hahah..

Actually, hati nak update pasal Sedim tu, but gambaq tak mntk lagi from abg Fauzi nor Mazlan. Nanti la.. arini mau ckp pasal makan..

(Ni cam ala² dok kempunan roti kirai jek lagi niihhh.. uwaaaaaa.. mane mau carik?!?!)

These last few weeks, ade je bende tingin nak makan. Before the demam roti kirai, was the demam sambal tempe. Tetibe jek, I felt like, by hook or by crook, kene gak carik. So thus, started my search for tempe. Dan sgt unlucky for me, sy tak jumpe pun.

Gi pasar malam Jumaat pun takde, gi Pt Buntar market pun tadek, pasar malam ari Ahad pun yilek. Gi Billion pun takde.. aisehhh! Hati dah rase pilu menusuk kalbu dah niii..

Last² tu, one day tu after beberape hari tak tido buat module for the expedition, I decided nak jugak² tgk Night At The Museum (sian sy kan, sejak kelas tiap malam ni, sungguh la jarang dpt pi tgk wayang..) so sesenyap je la pegi on a Thursday morning.. aci?

Anyway, the show was at 12.05pm and since I had arrived around 11.30am, I went around Jusco just to look around and wonders of wonders, I found this..

Yeay! Jumpe jugak tempe.. though mahal! Huh! Usually at the pasar malam you can get it at Rm1 per piece.. ni dah la harge mahal skit, RM1.50 (tu pun berkire ke, Ayu?), the size was also only two thirds of the one I could get from the pasar malam..

Aishhh, takpe la.. janji dapat!

But as my luck (or the lack of it) goes, mase dok goreng the thick (my favourite type) slices of tempe, kak Nab called. Dok sembang punye sembang then tetibe terbau something yg sungguh sy tidak mahu terjadi.. hangus!!!

Alaaaaaaaaaaaa.. sib baik ade skit lagi.. but the sad news is, the first batch tu more than half of what I had.. adeh! Takde rezeki jawab nye..

Still, I finally had my sambal tempe.. nyum²! Ilang kempunan :)

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Yesterday pulak, dengan alasan masih penat (Lousy excuse.. I know!), I decided to skip 'school' and stay home. But 4 days full of activities left me restless and a bit nyesal didn't go to school so once again I rummaged through the kitchen cabinets and found some dried fruit..

Jeng.. jeng.. jeng..

Teke ape sy buat pagi semalam? :)

Heheh.. and this is the final product of it! :D

My very first fruit cake heheh.. A bit funny though since I'm NOT a fan of cakes tp bulan ni je dah 2 types of cake I tried. So smlm since Shahril pun dtg nak dengan our usual activity of 'bertukar juadah', I decided to cut a portion for his family. Then, Arep plak text saying he was in front of my house (nak pindah barang kaaan, ni la my new neighbour) so cut another big portion for him and his friends (smlm ade Rashid and Kole sekali) and have another portion to give to HiTEG.

Selesai! Heheh..

Still, kene brush up my cake making skills sbb gile manis my fruitcake though Mama dah pesan kene kurangkan gule.. Takpe². Practice makes perfect, right?

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Haaa, ape pulak ye 'pertukaran juadah' yang terjadi? Tadaaaaa..

Shahril was trying Mas's recipe for cheesecake but he wanted to use kiwis instead. Yeay! Dapat rase.. nyum²! Ayu and cheesecakes memang no complaints hahah.. Ade lagi skit in my fridge.

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Now sy nak pk, camne la pulak sy nak dpt my roti kirai ngan kari daging extra kentang.. :D