Sunday, July 27, 2008

Hehe.. God is amusing me :)

Hmm.. since the previous entry doesn't spring out balloons and confetti, I thought I'd share a moment that made me smile yesterday, and made me realize that God cheers you up in all sorts of ways :)

Around a year or two ago, my junior Lie had given me this song he dubbed as 'lagu kak Ayu mesti akan suke'. It was a song from the movie Shrek and the first time I heard it, I thought it was too slow for my liking. But as I heard it again and again, I actually find it beautiful.. seriously! I love the music, the lyrics..

I've been trying to pin point on which Shrek movie this was from. I had re-watched the third and second installment but couldn't find the song. Then, last Friday, being a bit free than usual, I thought I'd watch the 1st and and voila! I found the exact moment this song was played on the movie.. and since I always replay all song I liked, I found myself listening to the song again the next day when I went to my class.

At that moment, I was stopping at the red light and this song was on my CD player. As I rested my head on my seat to dream of the song (Echewaaahhh!! Hahaha..), two butterflies flew in the front of my windscreen, making me smile a bit imagining those butterflies hearing the song too.. then, would you believe it or not, a gentle breeze blew some flowers right to my car! I sat up straight and laughed out loud while marvelling at how beautiful it was.. and at that time, I knew God was cheering me up, making me laugh the way He knows I would..

Artist: Jason Wade (Lifehouse)
Song: You Belong to Me

See the pyramids around the Nile
Watch the sun rise from the tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographs and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me

And I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me

Oh I'll be so alone without you
Maybe you'll be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it's wet with rain
Just remember till you're home again
You belong to me

Hmm.. Karipaf ohh karipaf


Why currypuffs eh?

Last Thursday, was talking with Sharil. Suddenly, the topic of currypuffs came up.. truth is, 'something' was practically begging to come outta my head at that time but dengan degilnye Ayu shoved the thought back in her head.. still, the part of me who knew WHAT was the thing trying to come outta the corner of my head felt a bit.. I dunno.. uncomfy? Nostalgic?

Anyway, Friday afternoon, Sharil asked for the extension of this room and when I picked up the phone, he suprised me with.. yeah, you guessed it, home-made currypuffs! Yeay!! He had been meaning to give it to me in the morning but since I only came at 2, I guess I only got to have it that afternoon. So after clearing my things, went to his room to go get them and all the while, the-thing-I-shoved-at-the-back-of-my-head came rearing with its ugly butt back into my head..

You know, I very seldom cook.. except during Ramadhan or when I'm at home la kot. And whenever I cook for friends, I usually only cook things I'm confident of haha.. with family tak kire la, konpiden tak konpiden, korg makan jugak ape kak Yong masak but with friends, I usually only cook things I can prepare with my eyes closed.

So how does currypuffs come in this?

Well, lets see.. around 5 years ago, I had a best friend whom I had the misfortune to fall in love with. Around the time he was finishing his master's degree, he asked me to belanja him something. Me, already feeling confused with what I was feeling for him, was afraid. I didn't wanna go out with him, just in case he could guess my feelings so I tried my best to pretend I didn't mind. Then one day, when I asked him what did he want me to buy him, he just smiled and said, "Karipaf!"

I knew currypuffs were among his top kuih, as most of us. Heck! Who doesn't love them? But yes, I was confused.. nak suh saya beli karipaf ke?

The next time we talked, he told me, not just ANY currypuff, he wanted MY currypuff. One I did myself.. and I went "O-oh!"

Back at home, currypuffs are an occasion. We'd usually do it with Mama giving instructions while me, Adi, Ikram and Izati doing it. It was a family thing, involving everyone at home (yang nak join je laaa..) and we'd make enought to last us for a week haha. Sometimes, when we feel wacky enough, we'd pun our own filling. Once we used fruit preserves. Of course it was fun but try eating it hot. The syrupy fruit burnt our tongue.. padan muke! And when it was cooled down, it was too sweet to eat anyway hahah.. such a waste huh.. but extremely fun! Especially when we'd paint the currypuffs using food colouring just to show who did which currypuff.. macam terre la sangat kaaaan! Hahah..

Anyway, with IM putting his foot down on the currypuff issue, I was panicked! I mean, I've never done currypuffs alone.. and to think that I'm doing it for someone I really liked, it scared me! What if I accidently poisoned him with my first-time currypuffs?

Still, went back to Penang to start doing it. I guess Mama was a bit confused on why I insisted on doing it alone and giler tul, spent the whole morning doing those currypuffs. It has always been my job to take care of the pastry so that wasn't anything new but I was jumpy all the time I was doing the meat-and-potato filling. Was it too salty? Did I put too little salt? Was the spices enough? Was the meat cooked enough? Haha, I guess I really wanted it to be perfect..

Then I sat at the dining table, kneading the pastry then taking the rolling pin and working on it. A good thing Mama had trained all of us on the 'sealing' of the currypuff and the importance of doing it neatly so by this time, I had relaxed a bit.. but still wondering, "Would he like it?"

Made quite a lot as I made some for the family too.. mane leh tak buat utk family kan? Lagi² plak klau diorang suspect nanti hahah.. But since I made A LOT and ALONE, mistakes were bound to happen. I nearly cried when my pastry become ugly after I had accidently left them on the kitchen counter instead of the fridge before frying them. The kitchen was hot and my pastry become.. sheesh! I dunno the right word for it, but it wasn't what it was supposed to be.

I came back to the campus with my ugly currypuffs and nearly threw them away since I thought IM didn't know I had made them but somehow, I still wonder how he does that, he knew.. and of course I had to give them to him.. feeling very ashamed of my currypuffs and fearing what he thought of them.

But him being him, told me he loved it (Though I suspect he might be lying through his teeth.. silap² dia bg kucing makan ape hahah..) even if he thinks (he said this himself) I must've left the currypuffs outside for too long before frying (See! Even HE knows.. cehhh!! Well, he used to help his mum sell kuih so I guess he's more of an expert in this..)..

And though I don't believe the part that he loved it (C'mon, even I could see I had screwed it up! It didn't look one bit like the currypuffs me and my siblings did together!), he still made me smile.. and wish I had done better hahah..

So, well, the past few days, I keep remembering this exact time of my life. The 'Currypuff Story' that nobody knew till now and suprisingly, I find it hilarious haha.. I dunno what I was thinking, making something I'm not confident of, for a boy I really liked. I guess, I liked him enough to risk it all.. tak sangke!

But then, this memory brought back a bit more than I bargained for as last night, once again I found myself opening my Pandora's Box, wondering and questioning the things that went wrong.. and just for today, I think I'm gonna let myself miss my Invisible Friend..

:(

Found in one of my old entries..

Missing someone is a terrible but at the same time, sweet feeling. U will be sitting around wondering if u meant anything to him/her. Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.

Rushing to the phone once it rings hoping that it's him/her.

Looking out of the window hoping that he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television but thinking of him/her missing the final episode of your favourite show.

Lying on your bed, thinking of the last time u went out together.T

hinking of how nice it will be to sit under the stars again, talking about everything, your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet hoping to see him/her online. When u realise that he/she isn't online and did not return your page, u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess. It exposes you to loneliness. It teaches you how to cope with being lonely and let you know that there is actually a feeling known as emptiness. Sometimes it feels good to miss someone. You know that you really care and you indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her. But missing someone and not knowing if he/she is feeling the same is terrible. You feel as if you are being left alone. So if you miss someone, tell him/her and let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss you.

Don't let the feeling of missing someone become jealousy or paranoid. If u are the one being missed and u know it, let the other party know. If u miss him/her too, tell them. Don't let them wait.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Google Me

Go to Google and search the phrase.

Please include the double quotation marks “…”

Tag friends.

Please use your REAL 1st name.

Use the first thing that comes up that makes sense. Example: "Ayu needs"

Q: Type in “[your name] needs” in the Google search: "Ayu needs”
A: "Ayu needs someone tall to compensate for her height, I guess.." (Ceh!! Sungguh terase..)

Q: Type in “[your name] looks like” in Google search: “Ayu looks like”
A: "Ayu looks like a kid" (Haha.. ceh!!)

Q: Type in “[your name] says” in Google search: “Ayu says”
A: "Ayu says the day the dream ends is like the snow melting under the spring sun" (Uh, Ayu being poetic, huh?)

Q: Type in “[your name] wants” in Google search: “Ayu wants”
A: "Ayu wants a green light saber: It symbolizes Luke Skywalker being a complete Jedi. And a complete friend Ayu is" (Hahah.. tak penah mimpi pun nak light saber.. Adi mungkin, klau Ayu nak pun sebab nak bg kat Adi hehe.. )

Q: Type in “[your name] does” in Google search: “Ayu does”
A: "Ayu does not need a freaking ladder to kiss Yuichii" (Cisss, another 'comment' on my ketotness!)

Q: Type in “[your name] hates” in Google search: “Ayu hates”
A: "Ayu hates high places, what's with her..." (Oitt.. oitttt.. I DON'T hate high places.. just because I'm ketot doesn't mean I hate anything 'high'!!)

Q: Type in “[your name] asks” in Google search: “Ayu asks”
A: "Ayu asks where on Earth she heard that, and denies the Asakusa outing was a real date" ('Ayu' here must be a cartoon character ke ape ke.. sbb Ayu tak penah dating ngan org name Asakusa pun :p)

Q: Type in “[your name] goes” in Google search: “Ana goes”
A: "Ayu goes half deaf." (Waaaa.. tidaaaakk! Mintak simpang!!!)

Q: Type in “[your name] likes ” in Google search: “Ayu likes”
A: "Of course there's a boy that Ayu likes, Kaji." (Nope! Name dia bukan Kaji ahahahah.. :p)

Q: Type in “[your name] eats ” in Google search: “Ana eats”
A: "Ayu eats the chocoball and... turns into a boy! Ayu wanted to be able to be better at sports, and like this, she is!" (Uhhh.. gile! Takmo jadik boy..)

Q: Type in “[your name] wears ” in Google search: “Ayu wears”
A: "Nah, I don't think Ayu wears too much makeup..." (Haha, mane la reti pakai makeup² niiiii..)

Q: Type in “[your name] was arrested for” in Google Search: “Ana was arrested for”
A: "Last year, a transsexual named Ayu was arrested for just chatting with a friend at a bus stop, then was seriously beaten by religious authorities" (Cett.. ade ke gune name Ayu! Uhhhh.. marah niii!!)

Q: Persons Ayu wanna tag; (not from Google)
A: Hahah.. couldn't resist la this tag. Malam semalam dah buat dah and tergelak² bace Ana punye.. So I'm gonna tag the usual suspects la.. Sentot, Soraya, Dr Ina, Dr Dzul, Ayeen, Pojie, Amer, Jida and semua yang bace.. C'mon la.. be a good sport and do it. I found it highly entertaining last night heheh..

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

My long weekend

Actually nye, tadek idea ni..

Tapinye.. dari tadi my paper duk cam tu gak. No words added nor omitted. Pastu tangan mule la gatal bukak Neopet haha..

Nway, lets talk about the weekend of someone with almost no life :D

On Friday, went to kak Shima's. She hadn't watched The Dark Knight yet and since I loved the movie, what the heck, tengok je la dua kali.. and yes! I noticed a whole lot of things I missed during my first show of it.. "SkyHook" haha.. Got sms from Ellie Cupcake tapi tak pasan, ghalit melihat Batman, especially coz kak Shima kept declaring she's falling in love with Bruce Wayne.. every 5 minutes!!! Hahah..

Slept at kak Shima's and early next morning came back here. Was actually very sleepy (had a Princess Hour marathon at kak Shima's until 5am) and sambung tido on the couch. Woke up when it was nearly 12pm hahah.. and quickly got ready for my class.

Then became the Incredible Hulk jap. Marah at these boys in my class, PMR is just a matter of months tp 'radius' and 'diameter' pun tak tau differentiate. Mane tak ngamuk Teacher Ayu, they couldn't care less. Then did some simultaneous equation and once again THE SAME BOY not only tak tau nak buat, but also boleh bersembang ngan kawan sebelah when I wanted to explain YET AGAIN to him. Grrrr..

And to add insult, mase tengah ngamuk tu the annoying teacher came into my class.. with a smug look on his face saying "This is not how a real teacher should act". Okay la, he didn't say it out loud, but I could surely read that in his expression.. sheesh!! I almost went out to ask him to mind his own business when dia sibuk² intai my next class that afternoon, just because my class was laughing at something.. APE! Ingat I can't make my students laugh ke?!?! Mengong..

And something else, tetibe rase nak beli DVD player after those classes haha.. so guess what, that was what I did.. almost spur of the moment but not quite la as I had been eyeing a few players though didn't really plan to buy it yet. Truth is, when I had bought the tv, I planned to buy my own DVD player but my housemate beat me to it so kadang tumpang la dia nye. But under the recent circumstances, hahah, of course la nak beli sendiri plak kan, lagi plak dia nak kuar dah so memang plan nak beli pun and voila! Spent RM220 on it (Actual price was RM245, same model at Bagan Serai was RM265.. I asked for RM220 and the shopkeeper trus agree.. adesss! Should've asked for RM200 only hahah..)

Malam tu plak had my usual class at Bagan Serai.. and just my luck! Met another teacher who not only annoys me, but also scares me! I'm not sure if I wrote about him in my blog last year, but this teacher is someone I avoid at all cost. Last year, he slapped two Indian students in my class, calling them names (Racist!!) and humiliating them in front of his own son.. who in turn was so ashamed, he ran to sit at the back and avoided looking at me.. sian anak dia, especially coz his son was also in my class and knew that those Indian boys tak buat salah pun.. Ugghh, made me grumpy the whole night!

Balik umah, tried the DVD player.. yeay! Suke!! Now I can watch my pirated DVDs (adehhh!) in peace tanpe conscious I'm using someone elses belongings. Tido lambat that night sebab tgk Pay Check on TV3, then started watching the Supernatural 3 DVD I had bought mase gi Feringghi aritu.. hehe, I find that I pay close attention to the dialogue now.. very creative la the scriptwriter!

Next morning (actually, just a few hours je of sleep pun) kak Zura asked me to have lunch at her house.. yeay! Makan sedap heheh.. Nway, couldn't sleep dah pas tu and I realized, asyik dok complain pasal 'her' mess, tp I biar je so ape lagi., tetibe rase macam touched by the spring cleaning fairy.. Cleared and 'washed' the cluttered fridge (Gile tul, once dah buang sumer bende yg tah pa pe, the fridge was nearly empty!! Tp nak membasuhnye, biase la, mulut Ayu mule membebel sorang².. 'She' just loves to spill things and tak bersihkan!!) Then cleared MY dining table haha.. Cleared the living room.. and guess what: 2 big rubbish bags full of clutter. Mak aiii, saya duk sarang tikus upenye haha.. tanpe rase bersalah, buang je her things yang expired sumer tu haha <--Ayu sangat jahat!

Sedo² dah 1pm. Cepat² sms kak Zura telling her I'd be late. Had lunch with her and got to see lil' Aqil (same je name with anak Sentot!). Then went to school, konon nak sambung paper but I just edited a few alumni-related thingeys, edited the questionnaire for Sg Sedim.. then ngantuk mule menjelma so went back home.. and sambung tgk Supernatural hahah.. Sampai ke malam plak tu :p

Next day (Monday) badan rase tak sedap, then in a matter of minues after waking, got the flu. Adeh! Leceh la plak.. stayed in bed for a couple of more hours then when I couldn't stand laying down, decided to just wake up and watch another 4 episodes of Supernatural. By then, also found the Made of Honour CD so watch jugak la.. by 5pm, felt a bit better and decided to go out and buy things for spaghetti and potato salad sebab dah lame sgt janji with Sharil and Lah. Also kept thinking of the Cadbury Chocolate Mousse Chocolate tapi rezeki ku tiade.. uwaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

Okay.. sbnrnye diri sendiri pun dah boring bace entry ni so before I bore anyone to death, guess I'd better stop..

Eh chup! One more thing to add: Aci tak klau I botakkan kepala?!?! This is a serious question!!!

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Why so serious?


To those who have watched the movie premiere last night.. or watched it in todays early shows la kan (ayat berlagak sebab dah gi tengok semalam hahah..), you'd know where I got the tag line above as my title :)

Yesterday after watching Hellboy, thought of treating Salimin who had just finished his viva yesterday afternoon so I had bought some tickets to the premiere. Then Fared wanted to join so I asked Aje and Fadhil to join too.. the more the merrier hehe.. After my class last night, I rushed home for Isya' prayers then we headed off to Sunway Carnival for the movie.

I was ready to fall asleep, especially when I realized the movie was for a duration of 2 and a half hours.. gile ape?!?! I didn't actually expect it to be that long (Salah sape tak tengok review?!?!).. but God! There wasn't a sleepy moment throughtout the movie.. and I loved it :)

Not telling much here since everyone keeps telling me 'NO SPOILERS' haha.. but for the rest of you, you'd better go watch it.. Bes ooo!