Now I Remember

.. why I HAVE to use blankets at night!

I’ve always been the kind of person whom, no matter how hot the night is, I still need my blanket. I don’t used quilts (gila paa pakai quilt kat Malayia ni?!?) though. I use reliable thick normal blankets coz I know I still use it no matter how the night temperature is.

This sometimes is kinda a hassle when I go stay at someone else’s house and they don’t provide any blankets. Nak mintak tu macam malu la kan, so I usually keep quiet and because of that, I also have an extra pair of socks in my car, just in case..

It has been a habit since I was a kid and I couldn’t remember what prompt me to stick to this until yesterday.

I was a bit tired and exhausted last night so I decided to sleep early. Well, not THAT early la but earlier than usual. I was tired enough that I think I must’ve dozed off once I lay in bed as when I woke up this morning (without my usual habit of waking up every now and then throughout the night), I realized my blanket was still neatly folded at the end of my bed. This surprised me as I usually make sure I’ve laid out my blanket before I switch of the lights but I guess there’s a first time for everything.

Anyways, things were ok the whole morning and I forgot about my tidoq-tak-ingat-donia. Then, as 2pm rolled by, I found myself locking the door to the house to go to my usual class in Parit Buntar.

As I lifted my foot to secure the straps on my trustworthy ‘teaching sandal’, I felt the pull of the muscle in my calf..

..macam nak nangis kot! Huwaaaa..

I don’t even remember the last time I had a leg cramp but I remembered then WHY I could NEVER sleep without a blanket. I ALWAYS get leg cramps when I don’t.. and it hurt!

Only this time, I got it, what, 7 hours after waking up?!? Usually they’d happen just as I was waking up.. sangat ‘perfect’ timing as I had to drive to my class and I was clutching my calf hoping to ease the pain.

Went to class with a subtle ‘limp’ as the aftermath of a cramp (as anyone can tell you) was still there. Luckily it was my left leg, not my right-and-driving leg.. sheesh!

Note to self: Pakai selimut!!

Sy Mau Jadi Franky =) Pt 2

Last night, I told myself to be more positive in building my first ship ever. I told myself that this is my first attempt anyway so I shouldn’t be too hard on myself and I reminded myself that this is just for fun. I managed to believe that until..

..the war with the stickers resumed!

Arggghhh.. awat la hangpa ni cenonet sangat aihhhh?!?!

This is one of the smallest piece.. see how conscious I am now of my chubby fingers!

This one is a bit better sbb besaq skiiiiiit je.. dan masih jariku terlalu gemuk to handle stickers sebegini.

After struggling with those miniscule thingeys yang mampu membuat kesabaran ku teruji (hehe..), I proceeded with the actual ‘building’ of the ship that wasn’t as strenuous as I thought it would be. Atau maybe sbb I struggled with mende yng susah dulu (stickers yg microscopic itu) so this was easy peasy lemon squeezy in comparison J Sungguh la tersenyum sensorang bile banyak yang dapat dibuat..

..well, until I saw this!

Haiyaaaa.. tercabut abis la sticker putih kecik nii. Dah la nak lekat pun, ya Rabbi, punye la leceh. And the ‘best’ this is, I lost a few of these tanpa ditemui. The only thing going through my head was to go buy some correction liquid and pi liquid je kat tempat yang dah ilang stickers tu. Grrr..

The finished product before retiring semalam was this..

..kaann, bleh nampak sticker manekah yang ilang itu.. I give up la ngan stickers ni, huh!!

Sy Mau Jadi Franky =) Pt 1

I have a new project J

I recently went to the grocery store near the tuition centre for my nightly Nescafe fix when I noticed something new at the shop. Tadaaa~~

Ok, turned out its a copy la, tp I was still excited hehe..

I was planning on starting the assembly once I finished my classes next Thursday but I couldn’t sleep last night so I thought I’d just give it a start..

..and it was fun! J

Well, fun right until I realized I’ve got too-chubby finger yang sangat tak sesuai for stickers. Hmm, scratch that coz I think I suck at stickers, period!!

Look at this first attempt at sticking those things on the ship.. sangat huduh, I tell you. I was frustrated after finishing this part coz I had imagined a smooth finish. Instead, I got this nampak-sangat-la-amateur kinda look L

I tried to take another approach for the other side of the ship (starting from the middle and moving outward instead of starting from one side to the other) but even if it looked slightly better.. well, the keyword here IS 'slightly' anyway.

The assembly was not as I expected. Being someone who’s used to assembling her own DIY shelves (as well as friends punye jugak which include TV racks and such.. see, I’m independant and don’t need a guy utk pasang those stuff, ok! :p), I thought it would be something like that but I guess I was wrong. A bit more concentration was needed sbb mende alahnye sangat la kecikk.

So this is what I managed before I went to sleep..

.. to be continued!

9th Challenge ~ A Song That You Can Dance To

Am guilty for leaving this challenge hanging like it doesn't matter. Hahah, ok, it doesn't really matter in a life and death kinda way, but it helps to keep me writing, kan? =D

Anyway, back to the 9th challenge (and 21 more to go.. banyaknye!!). A song I can dance to.. hmmm, not really a dancing kinda girl. Not even in the privacy of home.
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Ok, thats a lie. Sometimes la kot I DO do it but only SOMETIMES coz I know its hideous =D

But this song does kinda make you wanna at least sway your hips or something. Catchy! Thats what I'll call it.. and one of my favourites while growing up. Seriously, those with parents living in the 60s-70s, sape yang tak suke lagu ni? =) =) =) It even has this ability of making me smile just when I wanna frown.. I love it THAT much!

This is also one of those songs that have rendered me red-faced when I realize the person in the next car is smiling amusedly at me singing along with this song *ouch*

So here I present you one of my favourite, tak-pernah-get-bored-of-it song!

Day 09 ~ A song that you can dance to

Love Grows (Where My Rosemary Goes) ~ Edison Lighthouse

She ain't got no money

Her clothes are kinda funny

Her hair is kinda wild and free

Oh, but Love grows where my Rosemary goes

And nobody knows like me

She talks kinda lazy

And people say she's crazy

And her life's a mystery

Oh, but Love grows where my Rosemary goes

And nobody knows like me

There's something about her hand holding mine

It's a feeling that's fine

And I just gotta say

She's really got a magical spell

And it's working so well

That I can't get away

I'm a lucky fella

And I've just got to tell her

That I love her endlessly

Because love grows where my Rosemary goes

And nobody knows like me

There's something about her hand holding mine

It's a feeling that's fine

And I just gotta say

She's really got a magical spell

And it's working so well

That I can't get away

I'm a lucky fella

[And] I've just got to tell her

That I love her endlessly

Because love grows where my Rosemary goes

And nobody knows like me

Love Grows where my Rosemary goes 

And nobody knows like me...

Fadeout:

It keeps growing every place she's been

And nobody knows like me

If you've met her, you'll never forget her

And nobody knows like me

La la la- believe it when you've seen it

Nobody knows like me

..not again!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Ya Allah..

Years ago, I gave you my heart for safe-keeping. I'm not very good at taking care of my heart, as You know. I knew it would be safer in Your hands than in mine as I never really knew how to prevent it from being broken.

I was glad I did. Coz the next few years, I realized my heart was in the best of hands. You took care of it, prevented it from being shattered and I learnt that though You were the one holding it, You still gave me space to fall in love every year with 100++ kids who come walking through my door.. and You made me smile everytime I thought about them (even though they sometimes get on my nerves in the worst way possible hehe..)

I remember begging You to take my heart. To keep it safe for me until I was ready to take care of it again.

I remember crying to You, telling You how much it hurt and how I wasn't sure if I could take it anymore..

..and I remember the feeling of calm that washed over me as I gave my heart to You.

Things have never been happier for me. Little and big things that used to bug me, didn't even make me flinch anymore..

But today, I was afraid..

A stirring of feelings that I haven't felt (and am sometime so glad that I don't) for so long suddenly came back to me, leaving me breathless and trembling with fear. I kept searching for that invisible line to make sure i won't overstep it..

..but I couldn't find it, and now I'm scared.

Please Ya Allah, I'm not ready to take care of my heart again. Please Ya Allah, take care of it for me still. Please Ya Allah, take away this fear in me..

Please Ya Allah.. ='(