Year-End Project Pt 2

..and as expected, excited tu kejap je. And I haven't done anything else and I'm running outta time if I still want it to be a YEAR END project, instead of a NEW YEAR one.

So this is to boost my excitement in finishing it.. presenting, the 2nd part of the project =D

..as for now, ku seru kerajinaaannn.. fuh fuuuuhhh~~

Year-End Project

I'm kinda excited these past few days. Planning a project has always been fun.. and what will be more fun is if I manage to execute it!

Hmm.. We'll see..

To Cut Or Not To Cut..

Its that time again where I am faced with a timeworn dilemma..

Well of course its not that long, but still.

I washed my hair at noon today. It was a hot day and my head felt a bit too sweaty so I grabbed my towel and took a refreshing wash-hair-included shower. Just what this scorching day needed. That was more than 6 hours ago but right up till now, my hair hasn't dried up properly.. dang!

This is a cycle I keep going through. I've always had thick tresses and I'm lucky enough to have hair that grows a bit more quickly than others (tidak lah sy tak bersyukur =) ). The problem is, I'm a bit of a lazy bum when it comes to cutting my hair..

..which leads to my current problem of cursing myself everytime I wash my hair as I have to wait for hours for it to dry before I could tie it up or something. Hair dryer?! Ohhh, no noooo.. I hate those even more!

It shouldn't really be a problem since now I have my own freedom in cutting my hair. When I was smaller, my father never let me cut my hair. Once when I was in standard 3, the hair dresser had cut my hair a bit more shorter than I had told her too.. not that I minded as it wasn't really THAT short. About half an inch above my shoulders I think (I had asked her to cut it around an inch BELOW my shoulders). Back home, my neigbours were praising my new hair and I was smiling until my father came home. He took one look at me and told me that this was what an anak derhaka would do and proceeded not to speak to me for 2 days.

Of couse it hurt. I was just 9 years old then and the fear of God was still firmly engraved in my heart (sbb time tu tak banyak dosa lagi kan hehe..) so after that, I realized if I ever wanted to cut my hair, I'd have to ask. Not that it was made easy for me, it usually took 2-3 months before permission was granted. This was the reason why I seldom cut my hair then, only once in 2-3 years.

However, now I don't ask for it anymore so I don't really have any excuse NOT to go cut my hair. But I guess outta habit perhaps, I never cut my hair until its up to my waist..

..as the current length.

The last time I cut it was around 2 and a half years ago, I think. That was the shortest I had ever cut it that my family commented on it (sbb tak penah tengok sy rambut pendek kot hehe..). I couldn't even tie my hair up and I suffered agonizing months of waiting for it to get past my shoulders to finally be comfortable enough to tie up haha.. serves me right! I always knew I hated short hair so why laaa did I take the risk?!

So now, as it has not yet dried, I am thinking of the possibility to try this new saloon in Pekaka (they actually have a curtain for Muslims.. something hard to find here) But I guess we'll have to wait and see as my usual behaviour during the time I'm waiting for my hair to dry and when it has actually dried is VERY different. Kemalasannya memuncak!

As for now, lemme sit under the fan while hoping it dries faster, eh

Something To Aspire To In 2014

*These are NOT my own words, I copied them from my 'Just-Arrived' 2014 Wall Calender*

If you can look at the sunset and smile, then you still have hope

If you can find beauty in the colours of a small flower, then you still have hope

If you can find pleasue in the movement of a butterfly, then you still have hope

If the smile of a child can still warm your heart, then you still have hope

If you can see the good in other people, then you still have hope

If the rain beeaking on a rooftop can still lull you to sleep, then you still have hope

If the sight of a rainbow still makes you stop and stare in wonder, then you still have hope

If the soft fur of a favored pet still feels pleasant under your fingertips, then you still have hope

If you meet new people with a trace of excitement and optimism, then you sill have hope

If you give people the benefit of a doubt, then you still have hope

If you still offer your hand in friendship to others that have touched your life, then you still have hope

If receiving an unexpected card or letter still brings a pleasant surprise, then you still have hope

If the suffering of others still fills you with pain and frustration, then you still have hope

If you refuse to let a friendship die, or accept that it must end, then you still have hope

If you look forward to a time or place of quiet and reflection, then you still have hope

If you still buy the ornaments, put up the Christmas tree or turkey, then you still have hope

If you still watch love stories or want the endings to be happy, then you still have hope

If you can look to the past and smile, then you still have hope

If, when faced with the bad, when told everything is futile, you can still look up and end the conversation with the phrase..

"..yeah, BUT.."

Then you still have hope

Setelah Sekian Lama..

My friends know I love costume jewelry, particularly bracelets..

..well, there's an explanation to that.

Rings: I'd rather wait for the ring FROM someone haha.. (sbnrnye mmg tak bese pun pakai cincin)

Necklace: I'm ticklish.. and I mean VERY ticklish, especially in the neck department. Hmm, sensitive too since I can't watch TV scenes where people are slashed in the neck too. There'd be this feeling that 'something' is going on my neck too. In fact, I used to keep my hand under my hijab coz it felt like something was happening to my tudung-encased neck. I took MONTHS to get used to the necklace my parents gave me on my 21st birthday. I couldn't not wear it since it was a gift from them, but I always took it off before sleeping in the first few months wearing it.

Earring: Simple explanation, I don't have them pierced.. ever! =D

I used to collect these bracelets anytime anywhere. Even friends would give them to me as gifts as the knew I'd certainly wear them. I even bought some over EBay, back when it was still accessible.

Friends and students would always know I'd wear the bracelet suited for the outfit I was wearing. It was my only outlet to some-sort of fashion that I allowed myself to indulge in (since I'm not really a cloths-buying kinda girl.. I'd rather spend money on books hehe..)

However, the past two years have seen me slowing down on purchases. Not much because I couldn't afford them on my measly pay (costume jewelry kot.. murah je kaaannn!) But mostly because I already had a bit too much with all the colours I'd ever wear (and frankly, I got takde-hati about this thing for a long while then..).

Still, the last year was the worst. I ONLY wore these RM5 white-only beads I bought from Sinma. The pressure of what was happening got to me, though not in a small way, but it effected this one passion of mine. I didn't feel like choosing any of the colorful bracelets I had, more less buying new ones. This little joy and self-satisfaction I had had eluded me as I tried to sort out 'things'..

It wasn't until a few weeks ago, when my student (one I taught when she was in form 1 and 2.. now she's form 5!) remarked on the bracelet I was wearing. It was the one given to me by Izati n Iskandar on my birthday. White (too) but with sweet roses in between the beads. This one..

I hadn't given much thought when I had put it on earlier, but when she commented on missing seeing my different bracelets, I realized, hey, I guees I miss that too! =)

So yeah, after that, I started taking my time choosing which ones I wanted to wear, just like before. No one really notices it, duh, its just bracelets.. but I loved this 'little secret' I had.

I was a bit frustrated seeing some bracelets had dulled (since I ignored them, I didn't really take care of them like I used to.. and they're just costume jewelry je pun so of course la kene jaga jugak kann) but most of them were still wearable.

Then a fews days ago while going to UIA's convocation expo, I came across a few bracelets.. and I actually bought a new one! After years of not buying eh hehe.. and am loving it though blum pakai lagi la kan sbb sayang (memandangkan bracelets yg lain dah buruk hahah..)

Tadaa..

Chumel kaannn =) =) =)

Ade yang start beli balik jugak kang lepas ni hehe.. ♥