Seorang lagi rakan dijemput Ilahi *updated*

Assalamualaikum

I just got an sms from my friend, Milin who informed me about the loss of another friend. He asked me to announce this so here it is..

Especially untuk kawan² KMK '99 and USMKCP '02 beserta junior² and senior² yang mengenali beliau: Rakan kite, Ahmad Zakuan Arif telah kembali ke Rahmatullah dlm tidur akibat hypothermia. Beliau ditemui oleh colleaguenye semase pertukaran shift di Turkmenistan. Masa kejadian sy masih blum tahu but Milin janji akan update once dia dpt information. Family beliau masih belum dpt dicontact to ask for funeral arangements, either kat sini ke sane ke but InsyaAllah I will update once I get the info..

AlFatihah untuk arwah..

*update*
Update from Milin. Dia meninggal mlm tadi and jenazah dijangka tibe esok di Kelantan. Adik dia ckp, lepas postmortem, COD most probably carbon monoxide poisoning from heater rumah yg rosak. Colleague dia gi cari dia pas dia tak report for work, tu yg diorg jumpe dia.. AlFatihah..

Doa student untuk cikgunye.. ☺

Just came back from jogging (more like brisk walking). Usahe menurunkan berat badan sblm kenduri Adi hahah..

Anyway, usually I have kak Jah with me so I'd while the time away with talking. But since today I was going solo, I got a bit bored and decided to delete smses from my overflowing inbox. However, among the recent smses was an sms from my student. Sejak 2-3 mlm ni seronok pulak bertext ngan student haha.. do I need to get a life?!? Hey, I love them, okay!

Back to the sms, this was what my student wrote:

Oh Tuhanku

Seandainya telah Kau catatkan dia milikku

Tercipta untuk diriku

Satukanlah hatinya dengan hatiku

Titipkanlah kebahagiaan..

Ya Allah

Ku mohon apa yg telah Kau takdirkan

Ku harap dia adalah yang terbaik buat diriku

Kerana Engkau tahu segala isi hatiku

Peliharalah daku dari kemurkaanMu

Ya Tuhanku yang Maha Pemurah

Berilah kekuatan juga harapan

Membina diri yang lesu tak bermaya

Semaikanlah setulus kasih dijiwa

Ku pasrah kepadaMu

Kurniakanlah diriku pasangan yang beriman

Bisa menemani aku

Supaya ku dan dia dapat melayar bahtera ke muara cinta

Yang Engkau redhai

Seandainya dia milikku, satukanlah

Agar ku bisa bahagia walaupun tanpa bersamanya

Gantikanlah yang telah hilang

Tumbuhkanlah yang telah padam

Ku ingin bahagia di dunia dan akhirat

PadaMu Tuhan ku mohon segalanya

Satukanlah..

Erk?!?!

It was on of those I-dunno-whether-to-be-amused-or-insulted moments haha.. tambah plak with the last sentance in the sms

"Cikgu jadikan ayat atas ni dalam doa Cikgu. InsyaAllah jodoh Cikgu semakin hari semakin hampir.. Aminn"

I'm officially declared 'takde harapan' by my students!!

Ayu yg kecik² dah pandai mengade haha..

Recently I came across old photos of us when we were smaller. Feeling a bit nostalgic, I pasted those phots in my FB account and received a lot of responses on them. The one I won't forget is from Ana when she asked, "Kenape semua baju same?"

At first I was astounded that she noticed. But then I found myself laughing at myself on the 'story behind the same sweaters'..

You see; me, Iwan and Adi are only a year apart each. Added to tha fact that both our parents were busy students when we were smaller, it made us quite close. Close enough that, though I always wanted a sister, I sometimes forgot I was a girl haha..

We always had the same clothes, with Mam and Abah buying us mostly Ladybirds unisex clothes (usually t-shirt and shorts combo) where mine would be pink while the boys (what we used to refer to Iwan and Adi.. even after Ikram and Iskandar came into the scene) would get any boy-coloured one (very biased kan my ayat haha..)

My most memorable one is my pink combo of side-striped shorts with matching striped t-shirts where mine was pink and grey, Iwan's red and blue and Adi's grey and navy. I think I have the picture somewhere..

Anyway, duirng the time we were to come back here, this sweater was almost famous amongst the Malaysian. I pun tatau nape.. Joe had one, Aizuddin had one too (I think) and almost every boy we knew had one so naturally, Iwan and Adi wanted one.

I took for granted the fact that I'd get what the boys got so imagine my suprise when Abah only bought it for the boys.. I just burst into tears!

It took a lot of pujuking on my parents part haha.. and even though in the end I stopped crying, I still felt left out but I chose to pretend it didn't matter (kecik² dah pandai berlakon kannn!) The boy would wear the sweater (it had a pictue of an aircraft in front) with our friends and I'd be so full with envy whilst I wore my seldom-worn skirts.

Still, one day Abah told me they had a suprise for me. Still sulking inside, I wasn't really looking forward to a suprise. Especially since it was only for me and not for the boys, somehow, it didn't feel right. Until..

Tadaaaa! I was so suprised in seeing that they had bought the same sweater for me in the end. Giler happy, Tuhan je yg tau..

..such that the next time it was time to take school pictures, the three of us decided to wear our sweaters proudly.

I didn't even feel like a boy in it even when most of the kids in school wearing the same sweater were boys hahah..

Mengade kan sy? Hehe.. ;p

Do I LOOK like one?

Though I don't have any constant guy in my life, I DO have 2 permanent Irfans in it..

One is my brother..

..and the other is my close friends son.

One is already 2 years old, the other will be 2 next month, same month as me ☺

One similarity though..

The past long weekend, I met both of them.

My brother, Irfan, cheeky! Ade ke he insisted on calling me Aunty Ayong the whole time. Penat tau ajo dia KAK YONG which he'd use for a minute before switching to the much preferred Aunty Ayong. Apa raaaaa adikku ini..

My future-boyfriend, Irfan (IF I still don't have any contant guy in my future hahah.. ngamuk Bai!) pulak, sbb dah lame tak jumpe and jarang pun jumpe, termalu² dia jumpe KAK AYU dia yg kiut-miut ni. And while I was busy teaching him to call me KAK AYU and his mother busy telling him to call me MAK CIK, he gave one look at me and suddenly blurted out, "AUNTY MOO!"

AUNTY MOO?!?!

Hambik ko Ayu, suke sgt kumpul bende² lembu kannn.. or does he think I look like a cow?!?! *gasps*

Hahah..

Still.. Dude, do I look like an AUNTY?!?!?

*Update*

Just wanted to share some things to friends who read my entry on the accident of my fellow student. These links were shared by Azam, a new PhD student from UTM. He was in the same postgrad room as arwah Falah and all of them were quite close..

Iraqi national pursuing PhD claims he doesn’t understand English or BM ~ The Star Online

Iraqi doctorate student charged with reckless driving ~ The Star online

Penuntut warga Iraq didakwa memandu secara berbahaya ~ Utusan Online

What the hell?!?!

actually, I think dia ingt dia leh lepas kot klau tak ckp tak paham English or Bahasa. The fact is, as with other universities in Malaysia, every foreign student must pass a certain level of IELTS and once in Malaysia, they have to pass the lowest level of Bahasa in their respective universities. So there's NO excuse there, agreed?

Okay la, maybe Bahasa is something they just learn to pass. Cam I belajar Lughotul Arabiah for 5 years la kan hahaha.. ckp sepatah pun tatau! But ENGLISH?!?!?

Sgt tipu kannnn..

Can you believe the cheeks of this guy?

You Got Me ~ Colbie Caillat

Sy suke lagu niiii..

You're stuck on me and my laughing eyes

I can't pretend though I try to hide,

I like you

I like you.

I think I felt my heart skip a beat

I'm standing here and I can hardly breathe

You got me, yeah

You got me

The way you take my hand is just so sweet

And that crooked smile of yours.. it knocks me off my feet

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up

It feels so good it must be love

It's everything that I've been dreaming of

I give up

I give in

I let go

Let's begin

Cause no matter what I do

Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you

I can't imagine what it'd be like

Livin each day in this life

Without you

Without you

One look from you I know you understand

This mess we're in, you know

Is just so out of hand.

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up

It feels so good it must be love

It's everything that I've been dreaming of

I give up

I give in

I let go

Let's begin

Cause no matter what I do

Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you

I hope we always feel this way

I know we will

And in my heart I know that

You'll always stay

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up

It feels so good it must be love

I give up

I give in

I let go

Let's begin

Cause no matter what I do

Oh, I just can't get enough

How much do I need to fill me up

It feels so good it must be love

It's everything that I've been dreaming of

I give up

I give in

I let go

Let's begin

Cause no matter what I do

Oh (oh) my heart is filled with you

Oh (oh)You got me

You got me

Oh (oh)You got me

You got me

My Sunday

For the long weekend, I only had ONE totally free day.. SUNDAY! And since my brother Adi was home for hi wedding preparations, I decided to head back to Penang.


First, I needed to go to Abah's since we were meeting there for his wedding discussion. As I was driving, I noticed something hehe.. not important la, but do you guys have these unavoidable dates you just remember. For example, Christmas. You see '25th December' and the only thing that crosses your mind is, well, Christmas. The same was for Sunday. I DON'T celebrate Valentines but can anyone NOT remember the date? I'm sure ALL of you know it, right?


Well, as I was driving, I noticed something on my meter..

Hahaha.. then I realized my mileage was a bit off so I decided to wait a few kilometres before taking this picture plak hehe.. coincidently, I had the same mileage as the date of the day kan ☺

Ye laaa.. not THAT amazing, but I love looking out for numbers (Thats why I can't help remembering some peoples birthdays.. and NOT ALL birthdays are for people I love, the curse of it!)


Then, that night we went to Ferringhi Night Market to find some odds and ends for Adi's hantaran. We didn't find what we were looking for but Adi found the perfect ring case for his hantaran theme: Pirates?!?! Ohhh, tidaaaakkk!~~ Hahaha..


But I also got something I've been searching for long. A Mary Poppins DVD.. okay la, you KNOW la kan that night market jual DVDs camne, but I've tried searching for it for so long so when I found it there, I couldn't help WANTING it! ☺☻☺


And when I went back home, way past midnight, Ikram happily handed me something he knew I'd like..

Videl! Girlfriend si Son Gohan.. yeayyyy! Added to my collection already.. suke okay!


Okay la, wanna sambung my work.. just wanted to make sure my blog tak berabuk here.. have a great week ahead!

Al Fatihah

Life is fragile.. as I've been reminded this week. As they say, they are 3 things that God 'hides' from you: rezeki, jodoh and ajal. It's, I'd like to think of as, a suprise from Allah to all of us.

Yesterday, our school lost a student, a girl I'm not close to but whom I know as a very nice and friendly girl.I first got to know her on our trip to Sarawak and I regret not making the effort to know her better.

She was on her way to school when she was hit by a speeding car violating the traffic light. That intersection has always been a bit dangerous as cars from the through lanes don't usually like stopping at the red light in front of our campus, but this time, it went too far.

It was clearly her right of way as the light was green but the driver of the other car didn't care.. and as a result, a terrible accident happened which took the life of a kind hearted girl.

Yes, I know.. I'm sure some people would say, "Dah ajal dia!", I get it already okay. ALL OF US get it. ALL OF US understand it was her time and frankly I'm getting sick of people saying that all the time. Sy faham, bende tu dah tertulis okay but don't you guys get frustrated at things like that too.. saying that doesn't help much.

The thing is, it happened without a fault of hers. She was abiding the law while the person who had no respect to our law got away. I'm pretty sure at HIS country, they had the same law, so no excuse there!

I wonder how he got his international driving license?!?!

Most of us were mad, a bit justified I think since the person who hit her has been driving like a drunkard RIGHT IN OUR CAMPUS so most of us know how terrible a driver he is. But her mother came and the first thing she said to Prof Khairun was, "Mak Cik redha.."

Mind you, Falah is her only daughter and she just lost her husband around a year ago.

Yes, I'm sure some people would like to say, "Dah ajal dia.." But please hold your horses and DO NOT PUT THAT IN MY COMMENTS!

She was a nice girl and no one could've forseen what would happen. Sometimes, we're the ones who're careful, but others might not be so. We'll never know when or where our time is but we can only hope that when the time comes, we're ready to meet our Maker without any shame.

Al Fatihah to Fadilah a.k.a Falah. May she be among the blessed.

Aminn..

Cupcakes entry

Okay, I've got exactly 7 minutes for this update before going down for the AcePRO photography session with Sham so I'll make it quick!!

*Fuhhh, sib baik! I've got a writers block here and won't know what to write anyway.. so the 7-minutes-left excuse is plausible.. kan?*

So last week I did two sets, one for Wesam as ordered by kak Fizah. I was a bit afraid since I don't really like taking orders due to the not-experienced-enough excuse. She wanted something brown and I couldn't come up with any fresh idea so I recycled a few old ones. Luckily she was okay with it.. Alhamdulillah!

The next one was for Mama for her 52nd birthday. This one also didn't have much ideas since I'm not that creative and I've exhausted my ideas for the cupcakes sets for kak Jah and kak Iyra hahah.. alasan kaaaaannn! Used pipping jelly here too since I'm beginning to love the bright colours it gives out when compared to buttercream.. though I did feel a bit silly when the 'writings' reminded me of the "I ♥ NY" t-shirts

Oh, btw, both cupcakes were the orange flavoured with tons of choc chips variety! My 2nd current fav flavour nowadays ☺☻☺

Last night plak did another one for abg Azahar. This one was vanilla flavoured but a handful of dual white-and-choc chip were thrown in since I can't seem to get my hands off choc chips nowadays. Just wanted to see how it'll look and taste like, I guess hehe..

Hehe.. sbb this is for a 'traffic engineer', kene la buat bende traffic kan. But though I'm also supposedly a traffic engineer, terpakse gak mntk tolong Mr Google for the exact images. I didn't want my former lecturers (Dr Wan Hashim, Dr Farhan, Dr Meor and Dr Mazlan) malu to mengaku I'm their student kaaaaaannn..

..and last but not least, my usual final photo for leftover cakes and frosting:

Have a great week ahead, everyone!

i.n.s.o.m.n.i.a

For the past few weeks, I've been having so much trouble sleeping.. serious trouble!

I've always had insomnia eversince I was smaller. I remember some nights I'd wander around the house trying to tire myself to go to sleep. There was a time I'd swallow those yellow flu pills sionce they usually helped me to sleep (drug junkie, huh hahah..)

Usually these sleepless nights would only last for a few days. But this is the first time they've stretched and 'evolved'..

With 'evolving' meaning: I can't sleep at all at night and only after Subuh do I get the chance to force myself to sleep. Then I'd wake up around 10.30am feeling sluggish and go to school WITHOUT BEING ABLE TO FOCUS ON DOING MY WORK!

Actually, not being able to focus on my work is normal.. in normal circumstances. I've got a lot of distractions haha.. but this time, I can't even focus when I'm doing the two things I love: teaching and reading!

When I teach, I find myself mumbling and wondering what the hell did I just say ouit loud the past few minutes.. and when reading, I'd go on for pages before realizing not one word has registered in my mind.

Its the not-being-able-to-focus-on-my-reading that scares me the most coz as most of you know, I'm not talking about journals.. I'm talking about fiction books, one of my favourite distractions of all!

I've tried a lot of things. I've tried to not sleep after Subuh for that forced-nap so I'd go for more than 24 hours without sleep, but I still can't sleep. I've tried to lay off the tinned Nescafe I like so much, but no result! I've tried doing vigorous physical activites on hopes thet I'd be so knackered off by night, and though, yes, I do feel soooo exhausted, I still can't sleep.

Now my sleeping pattern has changed so much, it scares me. I'm like a non-blood-sucking vampire now.

Yesterday, I went to Jusco and found this thereupatic (I'm not sure if I spelt it right here.. and not bothering to check coz I'm sure you know what I mean!) pillow. It had this lavender sachet attached to it and it promised to help in promoting deep sleep bla bla blaa.. Normally, I won't buy pillows that cost this much. But since yesterday they had this sale, the pillow was 50% off. Added to the fact that I still had RM240 worth of vouchers, it didn't actually feel like I was spending anything at all kaaannn..

I was excited.. even changed the whole bedsheet set for the 'welcoming' party of that pillow to my bed..

..but still I can't sleep!

Grrrrr..

Can anyone give me any ideas? That DOES NOT include hot milk, klau boleh..

I really need to do something with my sleep now!