Fly little birdy, fly..

Hmm.. just took this picture this morning before coming to work and frankly, kelihatan gambar ini sgt tak difahami hahahah.. so let me explain.

This is actually a picture of a plant growing at a column at the porch of the house I'm renting. I've tried to pull it out to the roots but the roots are too deep in the cement so the only thing I can do is cut the plant as near as possible to the ground every few weeks or so.. and yes, I do it again after a few weeks as this plant has an amazing growth rate.

Last week, seeing that the plant is nearly my height, I decided to get my all-purpose scissors (Okay².. thing is, I'm not green fingered enough to own my own secateurs! And Abah owned a whole lot of them, what with gardening as his passion.. sheesh! Takde nye turun ke anak minat dia tuh..!) to once again cut the plant. However, something stopped me in my tracks..

I noticed a NEST!

Peering closely, I nearly shouted in surprise when I saw two baby birds with eyes still closed, chirping, thinking I was their mummy or something. I was amazed and stared in wonder on how the mummy made a nest by sticking together two large leaves and putting some dried grass in the cup-like structure she had made.

That night, I asked my housemate if she had noticed anything and sure enough, she told me she had noticed ONE baby bird there and we expressed our worries (nape bunyi cam ayat English composition sekolah menengah ni?) on the 'local' gang of cats..

Next morning, I checked again. Turned out we were both wrong, there were actually THREE birds in there and by now, they were VERY noisy.. in a cute way! So thus, began a routine for me to check on the before I go to school, and right after I arrived home after work. The chirping of the birds actually made my day and I was eager to watch their growth.

Yesterday morning, the birds were sleeping and no matter how much I prodded, I only managed to get a sleepy chirp from one of them who opened its sleepy eyes to me, thinking, "Ishh, budak perempuan ni kaco aku tido lagiiiii!!!" <--Okay, my imagination is going overtime here hahah!

However, when I came back yesterday (and I went home quite early, due to being VERY sleepy yesterday) I noticed that the 'nest' was somehow destroyed (as you can see in the brownish patch above). My first thought was that the birdies have learnt to fly and have left their nest (especially since I've noticed that they've opened their eyes a few days ago!). Still, the way the nest looked like made me think of the cats.

Then when my housemate Rusya came home, she expressed the same views. She told me when she arrived home (I was asleep then with a book in my hands then.. sgt ngantuk semalam!) she noticed something fluttering near the gate and saw a little birdy who did not quite manage to successfully fly. She held it in her hands for a while but let it go as she was afraid she'd hurt it.. and nope, she didn't see the other two.

I opened the door after hearing her say that and we saw the little birdy sitting under her car while trying to fly, only managing to fly a few centimeters high for a distance of half a meter. We didn't know what to do, knowing how clumsy we might be in handling the fragile bird. I felt helpless..

This morning, I didn't see any sign of the bird. I just hope its okay.. maybe its mummy and daddy had come for it, I dunno.. but I'll just cross my fingers, just in case!

Ayu sangat ngantukk..

Uhhh.. serius ngantuk..

Wanted to update on Farah's and Yus's wedding reception tapi sangat ngantuk. And am trying to avoid Nescafe after Dr Ina adviced me (outta the blue!) to take it easy on the Nescafe.. padehal suda byk minggu tidak minum and yesterday baru nak minum tin ke tiga for the whole day (Yup.. looks like the Nescafe marathon started yesterday!).. TAPI SGT NGANTUK!!

Listening to the radio jugak ni sambil menahan ngantuk and heard this song and dalam usaha menghilangkan ngantuk, telah mencari lirik nye heheh..

Better in Time - Leona Lewis

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going
Coming
Thought I heard a knock
(Whose there, No one?)
Thinking that
(I deserve it)
Now I have realised that I really didn't knooOooOw

If you didn't notice
You mean everything
(quickly I'm learning)
To love again
(All I know is)
I'm gonna be oooOook

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's going to hurt when it heals too
Oh yeaah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile 'cause I deserve too
Oooh
(It'll all get better in time)

I couldn't turnon the TV
Without something that would remind me
Was it all that easy?
To just put aside your feeling

If I'm dreamin
Don't want to let it
(Hurt my feelings)
But that's the past
(I believe it)
And I know that, time will heal it

If you didn't notice
Well you mean everything
(Quickly I'm learning)
Oooh to love again
(All I know is)
I'm gonna be ok

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh yeah
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile because I deserve too oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)

(Bridge)
Since there's no more you and me
(No more you and me)
Its time I let you go so I can be free
And live my life how it should be
(No No No No No No)
No matter how hard it is I will be fine without you
Yes I Will

(Chorus)
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
Oooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
I'm gonna smile cos I deserve too
Yes I do
(It'll all get better in time)

Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too yeaaaah
Ooooh oooooh
(It'll all get better in time)
Even though I really loved you
Going to smile cos I deserve too
Ooooooh
(It'll all get better....)

Rumour is that..

I heard a little rumour..
From a little bird in school..
An its making me feel quensy..
And feel like eating wool..

Hahah.. okay! Lame attempt at a poem there but yup! I heard something from the grapevines ('from the grapevines' or 'in the grapevines'.. or am I totally wrong at this expression?) and for a while there, I panicked.

Sheesh.. of all times for this to happen!

So I've made up my mind, to go to the source and ask directly!

I mean, to me, its a matter of life and death (Notice that I'm going a bit too far here? Heheh..)

Okay².. its not as if I'm dead if this is true.. but YES! There will be a part of my life's plan (the one plan I did in my scatterbrain little head, not the one He has for me which I sure wish He'd reveal to me!) that has to be revamped.. and as most of you might've noticed, I detest changes!

Huuuuuuhh.. tarik nafaaaaaaaaaaasss.. lepaaaaaaas!

Well, at least until I can figure out la how to ask hahah..

Especially when it turned out that there are a few other people who are counting on me to ask (Cehh! Tak leh tanye sendiri ke.. then tell me what you guys got from 'the source'?)

So, cross your fingers for me, will you? Please.. pretty please..

I Believe in You - Leann Rimes

While searching in the fridge for something to drink yesterday, I found myself humming to song I haven't heard for a long time. I'm not sure if any of you know the song, but I loved this song when I was little. It was by this group "Guys Next Door" entitled "I've Been Waiting For You".

Nway, a few years ago, IM gave me this song along with a few others he thought I would like (I'm still suprised on how accurate he was, especially when I thought no one knew those kinda songs). He had copied it in this mini CD and given it to me after our convo. I was really ecstatic when I found this song among the few songs in the CD as the last time I heard it was when I was in standard 3 or something.

After our 'dark period', I had kept all things from IM in this box in my room. However, yesterday I rummaged through that box to find this particular CD sbb nak dengar balik kan lagu ni. Then this morning, I tried to copy the songs in my pc but the CD must've been corrupted ke ape tak tau la, not all songs can be copied. Luckily, this song masih boleh di copy so Ayu sangat suke heheh..

I had actually thought of pasting the lyrics here.. but then I noticed this 'uncopiable' (Ayu reke perkataan lagi haha..) song that I particularly liked. I never heard it before IM gave it to me, but I grew to love this song..

So, to anyone of you who has the MP3 of this song, please send it to. It'll mean a lot to me :)

You breathe and life begins
You speak and my world makes sense
That’s how it is when it comes to you
Your mercy has no end
You’re more than just a friend
It amazes me you feel the way you do

c/o
I believe in you and nothing less
I believe in you, can’t help myself
You are the hope, the reason that I need
I believe in you,
Just because I don’t need no one to prove your love
You’re all that I have seen
It’s easier for me to believe in you

You are so beautiful
You are the miracle that dries the tears, heals a wounded heart
And it’s so clear to see your hand in everything
You were there for me
There to see me through

c/o
I believe in you and nothing less
I believe in you can’t help myself
You’re all the hope, the reason that I need
I believe in you,
Just because I don’t need no one to prove your love
You’re all that I have seen
It’s easier for me to believe in you

Through the fire and through the rain
I know your love for me will never ever change

c/o
I believe in you and nothing less
I believe in you, can’t help myself
You’re all the hope, the reason that I need
I believe in you,
Just because I need no one to prove your love
You’re all that I have seen
It’s easier for me to believe in you and nothing less
I believe in you, I can’t help myself
You’re all the hope, the reason that I need
I believe in you,
Just because I need no one to prove your love
You’re all that I have seenIt’s easier for me to believe in you

To believe in you

Happy Teacher's Day

For as long as I can remember, I've always wanted to be a teacher. When I was smaller, I not only 'forced' my sibling to play school with me, but I actually taught them to read and count.. at least THAT'S what they say anyway hehe.. I took it very seriously then.

We had a guest room downstairs and that room was my classroom. Abah and Mama would happily supply me the money I needed to make posters, exercise books, red ink pens (to a kid, a red ink pen is soooo grown up haha..) and stationery for the little ones (starting from Ikram, to Izati and down to Iskandar!).

It started when Ikram was small. He was always tagging along whenever me, Iwan and Adi did our homework so one day, I bought him a 20 sen exercise book and wrote down the alphabet for him to copy, just so he won't bug us so much. He finished it in record time and before long I was teaching him number. When he mastered simple arithmatic, he wanted more so I started teaching him reading and voila! The 'seed of desire' in being a teacher has been in me since.. and I was in standard 3 at that time :) Imagine how many years have past *shudders to think that I'm old*

However, when I wanted to apply for teaching, Abah totally disagreed though I don't understand why since he's a lecturer a.k.a teacher himself and he had been kinda supportive when I wanted to teach my siblings. Well, after trying to convince him.. AND losing the 'argument', I admitted defeat. Thats how I ended up doing engineering.

But don't get me wrong, I enjoy the field I finally chose for my studies. Never thought there were so many interesting things in this world (Don't be fooled.. just because I say I like it, doesn't mean I excelled greatly in my studies hahah..)

Then one day when I had already started my MSc, I went for lunch with kak Chah and she was talking about the physics class she taught in a tuition centre. I remembered how much I wanted to be a teacher, and how quiet that voice of reason has been eversince I started my bachelors degree so rather jokingly I told kak Chah, "klau ade kosong, bagitau la.."

A few days later, she told me there was an opening and that she had already informed the owner about me. Errkk! I was suprised but since I had said that to her, I thought I'd just give it a try. Truth is, I actually think my teaching skills have become rusty thorugh out the years..

But to cut the long story short, I loved it from day one :)

I love it when I could see the change in those faces when they finally understand what I was trying to teach them..

I love it when they ask questions as a sign, they actually listened to me talking..

I love it when they tell me they enjoy my class..

I love it when they tell me they have improved..

I love it when they tell me they have fallen in love with maths because of me.. (okay, ni bunyi cam perasan la kan hahah.. but I'm a normal human being, and I love knowing that I've made a differance!)

I love it when they ask if I could still teach them next year..

I love it when they come up to me outside class, even when I myself have forgotten them.. a bit!

That's the reward of teaching.. the satisfaction I get when doing one thing I love.. Thats who teachers are, the silent heroes who change the world classroom by classroom!

So imagine my suprise when I got this sms from the 'owner' last night (Oppss, I could get sacked if this blog gets into his hands!)

"Jadikan pendidikan sebagai satu bisnes, bukan lagi satu kebajikan. Tingkatkan mobiliti sosial dengan jadi kaya!"

Well, thats not the whole sms. I'm not risking putting the whole sms just in case anyone related gets a wind of this but seriously, I felt so down!

I mean, a teacher is supposed to make a differance.. or try to make one. The goal in the end is actually to see the younger generation succeed in life no matter what. Its sad that the goal has now changed to making as much money as possible. I've known a few school teachers who don't teach well at school and ask their students to take their tuition class so they can succeed.. I mean, bull!

Your responsibility is in the school! Not outside. Extra classes are okay ONLY if they need extra coaching, but the basics should be learnt in school. I had a teacher like this once, and they way she treated the student who didn't take her tuition class (me included!) was way different from the way she treated the non-tuition students. Once, it was even an issue when the school found out she had given questions almost similar to exam questions to her tuition class.. man!

I dunno, it just doesn't feel right. And now, though I'm not a school teacher, I somehow feel as if I'm involved in this money-chasing scheme.. when all I wanted was to only become a teacher.

*sigh*

I'm seriously considering whether or not I should still teach next year.. I don't like the goal set by this place but I still love teaching (though I sometimes lose temper with my childish students!)

I dunno.. just feeling a bit upset I guess..

Anyway, Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers :)

Melawat belakang umah.. :D

Ini adelah entry di kale diriku sungguh terase malas untuk mengupdate kan paper Dr Farhan suh buat. I wanted to write this yesterday but was a bit busy so now, when I'm still expected to be bz, I'm gonna write this down :D

Abah has this class for AgroTourism during his time in USM. As a result of this class, nearly everytime he goes me and my family HAVE TO (Abah 'forces' us to go) go to Cameron Highlands for a field trip compulsory for this class.. and I have to say, they are actually quite business-minded as the trip is usually the week before convocation so the bus would be full with flowers on the way home that the student would sell in the expo itself.

Anyway, since I started mt tertiary studies, I was no longer required to tag along until my second year (about 7-8 years ago!) when Ikram suddenly wanted to follow Abah there and since Abah didn't want to mind Ikram himself, I was forced to go along with them. Still, its quite enjoyable as the students HAVE to write a report on the potential of Agrotourism in Cameron Highland so we'd go to so many place and be allowed into restricted places that are definitely worth it.

So you can imagine how 'sick' I am of that place. I had even memorized the whole place and could go to many places with my eyes closed (okay.. thats a bit of an exagerrating there!)

However, last Saturday, I had come to school to help Dr Meor with a few tasks. On my way back from his room, I noticed the lights in the school office on so I decided to pop in, knowing they were preparing for the short course in Camerons. It was then that kak Hafsah told me that she had booked a bus for 40 people and it only ended in 14 staff going. Naturally, she asked if I wanted to go..

At first, I didn't really wanna go.. as I said, Camerons seemed like the back of my house once upon a time ago. But when I looked at the list and noticed all the names were people I liked, I decided, why not. Especially after I asked Puga and she also wanted to go as she has never been there (well, at first she said she had a lab.. but 5 minutes later she changed her mind and wanted to go too..). I quickly decided to finish all my work I had planned to do on Monday, on Sunday so I'd be able to follow them..

And Monday morning, at 5.15am, me and Puga were there in front of the school waiting for the bus heheh.. Fared had decided to tag along the night before so at least besides the staff of PPKA, there were three manusia sesat hehe..

Well, as human beings would be human beings, we arrived late. We were actually required to be present for the opening ceremony but when we arrived, the participants were already having their post-opening ceremony tea. Still, Dr Farhan was glad to see us.. because he wanted the group photo to be full of us haha.. if we weren't there, there'd only be around 10 people in the group photo. Someone came up with the idea of a photo at the staircase where I was reminded by Dr Farhan on how short I was as he bellowed for me to go in front.. ciss! And yes, when the other staff realized that my 'height' (or lack of it) was an accepted joke, of course la they started using it on me THE WHOLE DAY.. ciss, ciss dan cisss!

After staying around for the first session (me, Puga and Fared somehow are still considered students who HAVE to listen to the ramblings in the room even when structure isn't our field!), we had a good buffet lunch then went for our prayers before we did the highlight of our trip.. jejalan! Truth is, I don't recognize the place anymore and the map I've had in my head is now useless.. byk nye bende dah berubah!

We didn't really have much choice as the staff had already done a trip here a few months back but we managed to go to a few choice places. First stop was the tea plantation. Personally I favour the Boh plantation but abg Shidi said it was too far for the bus to go so we settled on a nearer (ade ke perkataan ni?) place.

Puga being the one who NEVER set foot in Camerons wanted to take picture in the plantation so we headed there while the rest went in the tea shop. So here is me, Puga and kak Zue being a bit confused if abg Shidi had already taken our picture or not hahah.. Fisya was supposed to be in the picture but as she was wearing heels, she couldn't get to us fast enough.

After a while, the other's noticed us there and they came to us too.. shouting to abg Shidi to take their picture too (Yup! Abg Shidi was the official photographer today!) But with the land being the way it was, it took a few minutes to get into position (and a few wasted shots too which I'm not puting here!)

So here we were, also confused if the picture was already taken or not as we couldn't hear abg Shidi's instructions. From left to right: The imfamous Pn Mona I told you I was afraid of, Sham, Fisya, kak Zue, me, Puga and Fared.

Then kak Zue wanted to go strawberry picking so off we went to find the nearest strawberry farm which, unlucky for kak Zue, we weren't allowed to pick any as they had just sprayed pesticides that morning. Still, we went to see their plants up there just so we'd have something to do there. Aje had also wanted Fared to buy some plants for him (ini lah dia bile student first time tak duk hostel and kene sewa, dan² semua rase nak tanam pokok bunge hahah..).

But mostly we just looked around.. oohhh and aahh at some plants were rarely see and take pictures. As in this picture below.. sheesh! Do you notice the anak gajah in the front haha.. adeh! Terase sgt besar sampai tak nmpk Sharil kat belakang. You can see kak Nurul at the back and Fared looking the other way as sweet Fisya managed a composed smile even when she actually just 'jumped' into the frame a second ago hehe..

After that, we went to the market.. you know, the one EVERYONE goes to when they go to Camerons. However, tadek gambo as everyone was busy buying things. I managed to walk the whole way to the end of the market WITHOUT buying anything. However, the way back proved differently.

Fresh vegetables yang Giant pun tak jual, ubi kecik² panjang² kaler oren apetah that kakak said the orang Asli loved (Hey! It tasted great la so I beli je la!), fridge magnets, strawberries (Okay la, giant ade jual.. tp dah orang pesan, beli je la), 4 dozen colourful roses (Yeay! My house sgt lawo skrg haha!), yummy but rarely nak jumpe kat supermarket mushrooms (Diorg tanye, nak wat kenduri cendawan ke?), candied fruits (Peria pun bleh buat candy.. sedap plak tu!!), chumel² potatoes (I love potatoes.. in case you haven't noticed!), friend mushrooms, boiled potatoes (ade upenye jual kat depan tu yg dah masak siap²) and the list goes on.. Adeh! Tak sedo diri punye Ayu, duit baru abis tuko cermin kete, dah abiskan ke bende len plak..

Anyway, after being knocked in the senses bile menyedari jari² dah takde darah mengalir akibat beban plastik yang berlambak (tu pun still sempat singgah buy a cute strawberry umbrella for Annisa.. adeh!) we went back to the bus, only to be teased by the male staff who were waiting while smoking around the bus who had already finished their 'shopping'. Perasaan malu berlanjutan until we realized, after we boarded the bus, that diorg tu laaaaaaaaaaaagi gile borong hahah.. sgt byk gile! Bas bau macam EconSave mase tengah sale hahah.. (tau la isteri² diorg la yang pesan tu.. tp saje gelakkan diorg balik sbb dah kene gelak awal tadi!)

Serious bas bau cam EconSave!

Then masing² baru sedo.. sib baik tak ramai org naik bas ni. The seats were more full with things we bought than filled with US haha.. Pastu, went back to the hotel to pick up Dr Taksiah before heading back home.

One thing, as I came outta the toilet (ye laaaa, Ayu suke gi toilet!). I saw a 'nice view' (not telling what haha..!) and really wanted to take a picture.. *sighing dreamily*

Anyway, after that, we headed back to USM around 5pm. Ye la, not much time spent at Camerons eyh! Otw back, something happened to the brakes of the bus so we had to stop for a while.. suprisingly, I didn't wanna go to the toilet but there were a lot of people who really wanted to go then and since the brakes needed some cooling down, a lot of suggestion were put forward to which I HAD to roll my eyes. Luckily amongst us, the 'young guys' were peltiful so they were asked to go search for water to cool down the brakes..

Thats why, as you can see below, Sham here is posing in front of the wheel as he insisted abg Shidi take his picture as a kunun² hardworking technician doing jobs out of his scope of work hehe..

We arrived back at USM around 11pm after stopping at the RnR of Sg Perak (Yeah! Yeah! My kampung.. as reminded to me by abg Shidi, Sham, Zabidi and Sharil whom I think have grown sick of me being excited evertime we pass that RnR on previous trips!) for prayers and dinner. Dr Taksiah asked about my grandparents though, when she realized they weren't joking hehe.. and I was careful to answer as I had noticed abg Shidi rolling his eyes whenever I mention my kampung.. citt!

Okay la.. good trip coz this time I go with my friends.. thought my purse was considerably lighter la on the way home kan.. and nope! I haven't cooked those veges or mushrooms yet :p

Saye suke lagu ni :)

Whatever It Takes - Lifehouse

A strangled smile fell from your face

It kills me that I hurt you this way

The worst part is that I didn't even know

Now there's a million reasons for you to go

But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

Believe that I can change

I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work

You gotta let me inside even though it hurts

Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see

She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be

You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know that I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

And give me a break

I'll keep us together,

I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt

That I'd be lost without you and never find myself

Let's hold onto each other above everything else

Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes

To turn this around

I know what's at stake

I know I've let you down

And if you give me a chance

and believe that I can change

I'll keep us together

whatever it takes

An Idle Sunday

Hahah.. I shouldn't be blogging. Let alone play with the online games on Facebook (Ina lah niiiii, sape suh challenge orang :p)

Tomorrow there's this short course on timber design in Cameron Highlands. I've been there countless times, what with Abah taking his students there EVERY YEAR and with us tagging along nearly every time, but somehow the prospect of going there with the other staff here makes it feel exciting..

Thats why I'm here today..

To kunun² finish up the lose ends of my task, so I can enjoy tomorrow (we're only needed for the opening ceremony.. after that, we're free to do and go wherever we want to *smiles*)..

I've even bought some maggi goreng ayam for my breakfast cum lunch cum dinner (?)..

But here I am, blogging.. AFTER a few games of Scramble hahah..

Ayu.. Ayu.. cepat la abis keje tu.. leh melagho sok!!

Btw, a few days ago I went to Chemor for some traffic counting. On the way to the Jelapang toll, there's this stretch of road (highway) thats kinda topsy turvey.. well, most of us know that already.

The last time I went through that road was when me and Sharil went to kak Chah's wedding, which wasn't THAT long ago, and since I wasn't driving, I was able to 'enjoy' the scenery so I'm sure I would've noticed this new signboard then, tak?

At almost all bends on that 'curvy' road, there was this new sign saying:

"Sile perikse brek kenderaan anda sekarang!"

Hahah.. I dunno bout you guys, but I laughed out loud when I read that. Even Fared and Fadhil, who were helping out with the data collection, made a joke of the seemingly outta-place sign board..

Sile perikse? Hahaha.. I guess the "Sile gunekan gear rendah" and "Sile perlahankan kenderaan anda" signboard just doesn't work anymore..

And yes, I did use the brake EVERYTIME the signboard was in sight :p

Here comes the nervous wreck!

Hahah.. just finished the wretched interview! Sgt lega.. couldn't sleep much last night and I didn't know what to read for the interview.

Came to school this morning and met with Masyi who was the second person on the list. Ija was fourth and I was sixth. We waited till Ade Faisal (1st one!) came out and bombarded him with questions regarding the interview. As expected, THE research was the main question asked and I was so nervous, I had to read through my proposal a few times just to calm down. There were actually 5 people on the panel.. Our two professors as I had mentioned yesterday, Dr Fauziah, Dr Sanusi and Dr Megat. Frankly, Dr Fauziah scares me more as she loves asking questions. Dr Sanusi scares me coz he loves teasing me, knowing the jittery person I am (he was a panel during my viva and witnessed the 'Ayu-dah-blank' phase I encountered as I came into the room for my viva haha..). I'm not sure about Dr Megat as I've never really interacted with him (I never even had a class with him.. tak sempat!)

When Masyi came out, she was all smiles! Then we waited for Ija's turn.. and she was also all smiles. By then, my face was white and my hands were like they had been kept in a fridge. Kak Ros came to calm me down (I was laughing too much.. my natural reaction to stress hahah.. mesti org len ingt budak ni gile ape asyik nak gelak!).. all too soon, it was my turn!

I must've stood outside the door for ages before finally opening the door. The first person I saw was Dr Fauziah (not a good omen, I thought!) and as I opened the door even further, I heard someone say..

"Here comes the nervous wreck!"

Hahah.. and all my nerves that were walking on a high wire began to calm down as the panel started laughing.. Great Ayu! You now have a reputation as being the person with the most 'calm demeanor' in the Civil Engineering School hahah..

Anyway, they first asked me why I was applying and I couldn't answer that.. sheesh! Then Dr Fauziah asked me why I was so nervous when I knew each and everyone in the room.. so I looked around and blimey! She's actually right (Yeah right, as IF you didn't know that earlier hahah..!)

Then Dr Farhan asked me, if it was better if he went out of the room, and believe it or not, I nodded. Cittt, tak mengenang budi punye student!!

It was only when he was outta the room that I was calm and managed to go on with the interview hehe.. I hope I looked confident thought, as I don't really understand what I was explaining to them haha..

Then Dr Farhan came back into the room with a mug but his tak-sedo-diri punye student smiled and requested, "Errkk, Dr tak yah la masuk lagi.." Ohhh, Ayu sungguh tak malu!!! And my supervisor just laughed and went outta the room AGAIN!

After that, (Dr Farhan was back in the room by now) they asked me what subjects I could teach (of course la transport, traffic and highway is a priority on my list), geotechnic came second (what were you thinking Ayu?) and from Dr Sanusi's prodding, geomatic came third (Hey, I enjoyed the class which is mainly field work.. I just dunno if I'd enjoy teaching it.. especially when Dr Sanusi gave an exagerrated look of relief after I agreed!).. Sheesh! Should've said concrete.. at least I'd have Sharil, Poji and Lah helping me haha..

Then Dr Hamidi asked, if I don't get it, what would I do.. hmm, tough question as I really want it hehe.. but I told him I'd still complete my PhD anyway. I still have my tuition class to which Dr Farhan told all of them, "Ni la cikgu anak² kite yang amik tuition!" Adeh!! Felt a bit weird when they gave me smile as if saying, "Klau kitorg anto anak kitorg and diorg tak dapat A, siap la ngkau!"

Before I went out, once again I was asked about my nerves.. ciss! How come I could teach an average of 5 classrooms of kids per year for nearly 6 years but I'm nervous about an interview with 5 people? Errkk, I wanted to answer, it was because I love teaching but hate interviews.. but I don't actually wanted to risk it, did I?

Anyway.. thanx to my 'family' here who made it easy for me.. still, at the risk of sounding ungrateful, I don't wanna hear any good luck wishes anymore coz I sorta have a feeling I won't get it, even if I REALLY want it. I mean, mane ade org mntk panel kuar dari interview, sheesh! It must've looked bad.. and also because my undergraduate degree didn't actually have a CGPA of 3.0. I know, I've already got my MSc so sod my degree, but somehow, I think thats the way it is now since even ASTS require 3.0 and not a point less..

Still it was a good experience on what NOT to do in my next interview (if I don't manage to avoid one la heheh..)

Tak suke interview!!!

Tak suke interview..

Even klau interviewed just by the people I know.. tapi..

Prof Hamidi:

Ohhh, sgt segan ngan dia dari dulu lagi.. mase dia concerned about my cermin kete pecah tu pun still rase cam segan ngan dia, mcm ayah² je dia.. tp strict nye gitu gak..

Prof Farhan (huyooo.. dah bleh panggil Prof):

Laaaaaaaaaaagi la.. klau dia ada, camna nak kelentong!! Uwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. konpem la dia tau Ayu membuat hikayat di dalam interview..

Puan Mona (mntk² la dia takde):

Huhu.. no comment! Masih terngiang² di kale kami di 'halau' dari sembahyang kat surau bawah dan disuruh solat di surau atas hehe..

Alaaaaaaaa.. klau tau kene interview, konpem tak mntk punye! Grant ade setahun setnegah lagi.. let it be a problem for me when the time comes..

Uwaaaa.. nyesal!!!!