Konvo 2006

On the 19th of August 2006 was the convocation for another bwudder of mine --> Juty!! Heheh..

Truth is, it had started on Wednesday itself (16th, if i'm not mistaken) with Yun graduating. It was kinda bitter sweet for me.. Sweet coz Yun finally graduated after 4 years (which she constantly reminds our juniors NOT to follow her footsteps hehe..) but bitter for me coz I WASN'T GRADUATING TOO!!!

Anyway, I DID go for Yun! She's my oldest friend here and I'm glad for her. She was all smiles and happy to finally officially leaving this place.. I was happy for her, but a bit sad knowing she won't be around anymore (waaaa.. ade tande² nak nangis ni.. stop²!)

Well, enough about the a-bit-sad-stuff!

Juty smsed me on Friday asking if I was going. I lied and said I didn't have the time to go (eventhough I had already bought his graduation gift). However, he sounded a tiny bit hurt so when I probed him further, I found out that his parents couldn't come. Alahaiiiiii, ciannye adikku yang seorang ini.. So I quickly told him I wouldn't miss it for the world, and gave my word that I'd go.

The next morning saw PFK cramped with 5 girls. Me, Dgon, Wamlah, Fawah and Huda (Kamal's sister) with Dgon and Wamlah taking pictures along the way. Luckily, parking the car wasn't a problem (though I DIDN'T really park at an actual parking space, thus the 'saman' from Alem hehe). After parking, we went to the flower stalls to find out what the prices were before heading to the flower stalls OUTSIDE USM, knowing that we might find cheaper ones.

Turned out, we were right (as usual.. everybody knows the outside ones are cheaper AND fresher AND lovelier) Met Mozac, Alem and Helmi there before being joined by Pojie and Lan and I went on and on about my frustration in not being able to graduate. Had a padan muke moment when Mozac commented, "Alaaaaa.. dah biase dah dengar kak Ayu cakap canni tiap² tahun, Dgon lain, baru first time cakap canni!", when I scolded him for wanting to ONLY buy bunge kesian for Dgon. Ampeh Mozac!!!

However, I DID get a bunge kesian from Wamlah to the 'horror' of the others haha.. A beautiful Lily.. cantiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiikkk! Thanx Wamlah. You can view our pictures here. Puas hati ooo hahahaha.. <--Ayu sangat teruk!

Then we went for brunch (none of us had eaten yet!) of nasik ayam and halfway through, we realized the graduates had already exited the hall.

The first person I met was Fadzli and had a chance to take a picture with him (tak dapat tunaikan janji grad same².. uwaaaaa!!). Then we found Sha and heaped all our presents and flowers on her. I was glad to see her so happy as she was quite down last year when she couldn't graduate with her friends.

I finally got a chance to meet JUTY!!! He was standing alone waiting for us that I felt so.. so.. so ape ek? Hahah.. but he was happy.. naturally lah! We were later joined by the others and as usual, pictures were taken. I didn't recognize some of their friends but we all had one thing in common --> smiles of joy for the graduates!

Tried to wear Juty's robe which literally swept the floor. Alamak! Rugi tak amik gambo pakai jubah Juty yang labuh tu.. :) The picture above is of two graduates, my bwudder Juty and Lopong (yang baru dikenali ari tu.. comel pe hehe!)
P/S Sile abaikan kedudukan kaki setiap orang di dalam gambar tersebut ye.. :)

Anyway, I had to go home early as I had a class. All in all, it was a fun day for all of us.. Happy just to see other people happy.. and for Juty, Congrats dari akak ye!

School Holiday Syndrome

Haha.. Baizurah sent me an sms yesterday, claiming my blog was in such a state of 'habukness'! Aiyak mak cik, takde idea maaaa..

Anyway, as I was trying to force my brain to come up with something to write about, I suddenly remembered a question raised to me a few weeks ago.

"Ayu, ape makne sindrom cuti sekolah tu?"

Which was followed by another question a few days ago.

"Kak Ayu ni suke kate sindrom cuti sekolah.. ape tu?"

Hehe.. boleh la jadik satu entry, kaaan?!?

Lets see..

Time when this syndrom attacks
As the name suggests, it only occurs during the school holidays, but can also start within two weeks before the holidays and end after two weeks after the holidays. But sometimes it prolongs into months that it'll only stop once the syndrom becomes a battlefield between you and the other person involved! It doesn't have a specific period of the day (morning, afternoon bla.. bla..) but it is sometimes most severe during night time and in the afternoon (when there is a kenduri going on!)

Who it attacks
Mostly people who are single or are unmarried. But sometimes it happens to married people and will end up with comments such as, "I was dreaming of you last night" or "I dunno why I can't forget you!". Duhhhhhhhh.. maybe you don't try hard enough, la mangkuk! Or maybe you're just being a pervert (hambik ngkau!)

Symptoms
You get delusional, thinking you're 'in love' with someone, when in reality, you're just feeling this way coz you're watching all your friends getting hitched. Then you start acting outta character like talking all nonsense and spinning so many fairytales, you don't remember the original version you had created. And no matter how hard you get knocked in the head, you won't really return to you normal state yet! Then you tell your mutual friends unbelievable stories which btw, they sometime BELIEVE, thus making other person involved try to avoid these friends, just in case they think she/he needs a brainwash.. as if!!!
As for the married ones, you start calling/smsing a kunun² old flame and annoy them to their wits with your 'sad stories' and 'sad dreams'. C'mon la, you don't think they'd fall for that, right? Like Baizurah once commented, "Kadang² orang yang dah kawen yang lagi galak nak meng*****!"

Remedies
There are still unknown remedies to this situation. A whack on the head maybe?

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Hahah.. Ayu merepek ape ni? Nothing.. nothing! Saje nak isi blog for Sentot's satisfaction :-p

Lgpun I'm still in my 'Pissed-off' mood kot hahah..

Comments to ignore!

I really wanted to write about the USM graduation on Saturday, but I've gotta wait for the pictures.

However, I've got one thing to write about, here, today! I was thinking of how dusty my blog seems like right now, but suddenly I remembered something that happened yesterday, that somehow coincides with a previous entry here.

Yesterday was Salam's kenduri at his house. At first, I wasn't planning to go as

• I'm broke haha..
• I didn't really wanna go alone!
• Didn't know the way, actually!
• I HAVE my reasons on why I'm not comfortable around these dear friends of mine when its the school holidays.. and because of recent things happening to me concerning other members of this group!
• I was afraid of meeting someone!

But then, guilt flooded into me (ecehh.. ayat jiwang tak jadi haha..) when Salam kept asking what time we'd be arriving and all that. Then budak kecik (erkkk, Salam pun budak kecik gak.. konpius kang hehe..) told me that Dr Ismail had invited him to go, twice!

What the heck! Salam bukan nak kawen 2-3 kali pun :)

At first, I was plannig a quick dash there, then heading back to the campus. However, my dear friends who consist of Toroque, Yokies and kak Maria called so in the end, it was decided that we'd go together. I was a bit afraid that budak kecik would feel uncomfortable as we're ALL his seniors haha.. Sib baik hang sporting nooo, budak kecik!

We arrived as the kenduri was ending. But lucky us, at least the newly weds could entertain us. We looked through their wedding photos and commented on everything. The was the usual 'jom-bully-Salam' but it was toned down a bit. Bak kate Yokies, "Tak baik bully pengantin!"

Then, one of them (don't really remember who) commented to Salam, "Nasib baik hang kawen ngan orang yang kami kenai.. boleh la jugak nak bersembang² melawak²!"

I nodded in agreement right until kak Maria blurted out, "Haaaa, Ayu pun dengaq tu.. kan baguih klau ngan orang yang kami kenai, tak la susah nak berkenalan balik!"

*Gulp!*

And yes, I KNOW who they were refferring to!

Cetttt!

Luckily, I was looking thorugh the albums so I forced some questions on budak kecik about the pictures, hoping it would look like I was so engrossed in the pictures, I didn't notice what they were talking about, though I could feel a few pair of eyes on me, like daggers hahah..

Lets just say, the next time 'someone' tries to talk me into 'something', he's gonna get a big piece of my mind!

But until then, lets just ignore them!

My takut-naik-bas experience!

Okay.. this entry is for Jai and Baizurah who 'asked' about my experience on the bus haha..

Truth is, its been a while since I last used the express bus to go anywhere. The last time must've been when the engineering campus was still in Tronoh where I used this public transport at least once a month for a three-hour journey back to Penang.

Then, after the campus transferred to Transkerian, I only had to use the bus for an hour ride to Butterworth before taking the ferry to go to the island and having either Mama or Abah to pick me up.And THAT was before I had my beloved PFK! Once I had my PFK, I have NEVER used the bus for commuting, except one time when I was changing the timing belt of my car. I was a bit bored of waiting so I took the bus to go to Prangin.

So imagine how I felt when I had to take the bus to KL a few weeks ago! Haha, well, lets just say that after I got my car, I've nearly always drove anywhere. I've driven to nearly everywhere in Peninsular Malaysia, from Perlis to Johor and to the east coast of Malaysia (Kelantan and Terengganu) as well as to Pahang. BUT (a big BUT here), for Salam's kenduri a few weeks ago, I was not only a bit broke to drive alone to KL, but I was also a bit scared of the prospect of driving alone for nearly 400km, thus, the only solution was to take the bus.

But believe me, I was scared stiff just at the thought of it!!!

I've never taken a bus THAT far.. heck, I've never taken a bus all alone to KL too, which I consider an unfamiliar territory for me. For a whole month, my mind kept thinking of what is the worst scenario that could happen on a long bus ride haha.. much to the amusement of Yun and budak kecik (I assume laa..)

By the time I was supposed to go, I guess the whole post grad room knew of my fear so a lot of advices were given to me before boarding.

• buy some travel sweets so you won't get sick
• don't forget to wear the seatbelt (which was meant as a joke, but turned out, there WERE seatbelts in the bus haha)
• don't ever sleep, or the bus might go someplace else

Waaaaa.. they're really taking advantage of my situation huh? Heheh.. Anyway, thankfully, I had Yun, who kept assuring me that nothing EVER goes wrong whenever she takes the bus, and budak kecik who promised to call me to make sure I had woken up at the time he assumed I had arrived at my destination. At least, terase sejuk hati when he told me if he didn't have the safety course, he'd have gotten on the bus with me too, to go back to his home, so I won't be THAT afraid. Hahah.. I didn't think I had looked THAT bad to the both of them!

Anyway, on THE DAY, I had asked Yun to send me. At first I wanted to ask Ramlah as I had initially thought of leaving my car with her. However, Yun's car was in the workshop so I left my car in her care. Budak kecik wanted to follow us to the bus station, much to my relief as it felt a bit better having more people I trust with me when I wanted to board the bus.

However, we waited for nearly an hour but my bus still hadn't arrived. I was a bit afraid as budak kecik had his Jumaat prayers and it was nearly time for Zohor then so I just asked them to leave me (boo-hoo!) Takuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuut hahah..

Finally my bus arrived, and awkwardly I boarded the bus. Takut nye, Tuhan je yg tau.. I wanted to follow budak kecik's advice and go to sleep but at first, I was still afraid of not waking up on time haha.. However, as the journey progressed, I found myself dozing off..

I was woken up by my phone when budak kecik called to make sure I had arrived (when I was still somewhere in between). Thank you! At least I had enough rest before worrying again about what I'd do once I arrived hehe.. :)

Thankfully, I arrived in one piece (I can hear Yun say, "I told you so!") but I had to wait for kak Maria for nearly one hour as the traffic was already congested by the time I had arrived. We went to pick up Amad first before going back to kak Maria's house.. by this time, I had already calmed down, and was a bit confident about the bus ride home.. a bit je la..

But I'd like to thank my friends who smsed through the way to ensure I was comfortable hahah.. Erwan, Ramlah, Yun and budak kecik who also called again to make sure I had arrived.. thank you!!!!!!

Sadly, the experience left me traumatized and I was down with a fever until the next week. Kate Yokies, "Hang ni memang tak bleh naik bas la lain kali!"

I was glad when it was time to go home hehe.. still, I was afraid to go asleep, just in case I slept all the way to Penang and NOT Parit Buntar! Thank God its over.. at least I won't have to think about taking the bus anytime for the near future :)

Pissed

To a certain person and certain friends who think they're doing me something good, when in reality, they're not only scaring me, but also in a way, pissing me off (a bit.. sorry!)..

I'm single, and I'm not gonna lie that I'm happy with it, but I'd also be lying if I say I'm completely scared about it. I mean, I'm happy! I've got friends, I've got sisters and brothers, I've got my parents and extended family around me.. not to mention a special lil' brother and two special cousins who don't have any blood relation with me!

See.. I'm not really THAT lonely! Maybe I'm just picky and fussy, waiting for the right guy to come along and sweep me off my feet. And maybe you're saying, "Who are YOU to be so selective anyway? You're no Miss World!"

Yeah.. I know that! But feelings come from the heart, NOT from the head. If it came from the head, God forbid, the world would be such a dull place! But then again, coming from the heart, it becomes a complicated matter, and very hard to explain.. But I'll try!

Like I said, I'm no beauty queen, so I don't care how you look like and DON'T EVER SAY I GO FOR THE LOOKS! You can look like Mr Bean for all I care, but whats important is how you look like deep down inside.

I don't care how much you make in a year. You can make RM 20 000 per month but it won't affect the way I see you. I've learnt that money doesn't really buy happiness though the lack of it could turn a rose-coloured glass into a dusty one. I myself come from a middle class family, so you can't possibly think I'm impressed when you say, "The other girls are only after my money" Duuuuhhhhh.. *rolling eyes*

I don't care what your family background is, my own family is an almost-broken-but-not-quite one itself so why should I be so picky on other peoples family?

As for your education, you don't really think it matters what qualifications you have, do you? Duuuuuuhhh.. And just because I'm not confident in my masters, it doesn't mean you have the right to ask me, "Agak², boleh lepas ke?" as if THAT's what you're hoping for. I mean, its my life okay, and I can say anything about it but don't you dare belittle me that way!

And just because you work as an engineer, you don't have to expect ME to wanna be an engineer too.. Even if I wanted to be one before. I have realistics vision of myself, okay! So don't keep asking me about being an engineer too..

And yeah.. maybe I'm a dreamy girl, with romantic notions going in my head when I'm in the mood.. but lying to me is totally unromantic! C'mon, you tell me something else, you tell the others something else and you make me all confused AND MAD!!! Then you have the guts to tell me I'm unapproachable?

Then you tell our friends a different story and make me wanna avoid them for a VERY long time. What do you think you're doing?

You don't even know me! I'm very certain, that if I ask you my birthdate, you won't know the answer.. So how is this going to prove ALL THOSE nonsense you've been telling me for the past 2 years?!? And you think you can tell me that I've been making you wait for too long?????
Do you even know whats important to me?
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Its the small things that matter to me.. but I admit, I'm greedy for them!

Its the remembering of importants dates (eg. my BIRTHDAY haha..) and its in the reminding each other of other important days. Reminding me of the certain days its good (read: sunat) to fast (eg. Aasyuraa).

Its caring about my likes and dislikes. Knowing my favourite songs. Knowing my favourite movies.. and though you might not understand why I like all those kind of songs and movies, you don't ridicule me. I don't mind it if you just laugh at me being silly, but it hurts me when you don't wanna try to understand but just laugh unkindly.

Its in showing your interest in the small things I like. My favourite colours (you don't even know what they are!). My craze for any kind of chocolates (and you say I wanna fatten myself up with them). My love of books and how much I spend on them (instead of ridiculing me about them!)

Its in noticing the good and bad in me. Noticing my habits and behaviours. Noticing the things that make me smile, laugh or even cry. Even laughing about all of it with me. I don't care, coz I know that means you really care. And though we would definitely laugh about it, I appreciate people who don't try to change me. But when you say, I was never like that before, you hurt me again! Coz I KNOW who I am, and my closest friends know that too.. So how could you, who claim you care for me, say I was never like that before? And when you try to change me to suit you, well, thats just the final straw!

Its in entertaining my far fetched dreams. Yeah, I don't mind you laughing at them but I hate it when you say I'm talking nonsense!

Its in laughing along with me, and making me see the humour in lifes ups and downs.. not scoffing at things that make me laugh and making me feel like I'm an idiot

Its in understanding what makes me 'ME' and in accepting everything about me, no matter how bizzare and strange it might seem. My weird sense of direction, my clumsiness, my forgetfulness..

In short, its in being my bestfriend!

I'm not trying to compare here, but IM taught me how happy you can make someone feel when you try to understand all those small things. He knew without telling my favourite songs and movies and though he might feel I'm silly, he always reminded me whenever those kinda movies were on tv, or he'd send me those kinda songs he knew I'd like.

And no, I'm not trying to change you. I just want you (and our other friends) to understand that maybe, I'm not the one you really want. JUST THINK.. will you? Please..